~myILHAM~

new place,folks.

2009-02-01T07:30:00.000-08:00

salam.

i'm moving to a new place here

it's not fully ready yet but i'm updating it from time to time.saja nak rasa angin baru pulak.asek datang tempat yg sama ja.hehe.

but i couldn't transfer all the stuffs here such as the archive,the links of my friends and those little small things at the side to the new blog.just in case i forget to link any of you my beloved blogger friends,please tell me to do so.almaklumla,i saya sgt tak reti nak adjust-adjust pasal blog nie.

well,jumpa kat rumah baru lah then.

adios.

one step at a time.

2009-01-28T16:31:00.000-08:00

salam.

alhamdulillah.one more thing settled=)

at the time being,i'm moderately busy so i'm using the left-over time i mean the time i have left after a day in hospital for myself and ehem..for personal things juga lah.it's dreadful to endure yet another rotation next week not knowing how busy i'll be in that rotation.however,putting that aside,i'm already heating up the engine,settling whatever need to be done bit by bit so that everything will go smoothly as i planned.yes,as i planned!cheewah,mcm ada projek besar aja.haha.again,semoga Tuhan permudahkan.

when i like being in one particular rotation as in now,mesti time flies dengan cepat.pastu bila smp khamis dah sedih sbb i have to move on to another rotation pulak.it's like playing musical chairs.the difference is,no winner or loser,hopefully.ahaks.

owh to all my chinese friends,happy chinese new year.i know it's a bit late but hey,better late than never right?usually at this time at home,mesti berkotak-kotak limau nk dimakan.rindu pulak suasana di malaysia.huuu...

okielah.enough for now.see ya.

counting days.

2009-01-26T16:21:00.000-08:00

salam.

i'm not getting married yet.ahaks.not in the near future.somehow i'm truly happy for a different reason.dalam happy-happy nie,takut pun ada.eventhough i'm done with the hardest part,the insecure feeling is still there.maybe i'm paranoid.mungkin juga in denial.atau too overwhelmed.

hurmm....

whatever it is,jeem is already singing her la la song,it's my happy song.kenapa?well..i'm not telling....yet.too early untuk berpesta.keskeskes.

back to the daily routines,i kinda like wearing the weird attire(contain lead)everytime having to observe any radiology procedures.rasa bes pulak boleh on and off the white coat and wearing something else that makes me look ....hideous.haha.maybe i'm sick of looking decent all the time?

okies peeps.i think i'm a bit exhausted from too much excitement just now.

gudie nite=)

dream on.

2009-01-25T15:59:00.000-08:00

salam.

never been happier=)

ya Tuhan,permudahkan.amin.

and tomorrow i'll be back in mater.miss my friends over there.and back to the old same routines.hopefully radiology won't let me down.

ahhh...i'm still smiling..

every second,everyday.angau.haha.

wait,bila chinese new year?patutkah i wish today?anyone please tell me.

i want lots of mandarin oranges juga!heee.....

.you give me hell.

2009-01-22T11:33:00.000-08:00

salam,

dear consultant,
thank you for making my life miserable in these 3 weeks.i appreciate it.i hope u'r happy wif what u have done to us.i just think of u as another arrogant consultant who's always full of yourself.u just ruined my day.thank you so much.

i'm stuck here till tomorrow.i could catch the earliest train tomorrow and be back in dublin as early as 11a.m if i get my 2 evaluation sheets signed by my consultant today but he decided to sign just one and left another one for tomorrow,after i present a case and join the ward round.i've been there for almost 3 weeks.never missed any ward rounds with him except on the first day which totally not my fault and did every single thing told by him.what's the difference if he let me go a day earlier?i really hate him!enuff said.

on a different note,my incik ichigo finally signed off today.yeay..hiphip hoooreyyy!tapi,i'm not there to see him pun.takpa..takpa....all this while pun camni.dah immune(w'pun dlm hati kecik sgt sedeh:'( )what makes me sad is not being able to be there at the arrival gate to welcome him home as he usually did on my homecoming.on top of that,he's always the first one to arrive at klia.i still remember last 2 summers when no one waited for me as i touched down early around 7a.m and i was hopeless and helpless without any ringgit or coins to make a call(my brother overslept and turned up more than an hour later).and naseb baik aiza and her family tgu sama-sama.rasa nak nanges time tu.sad and alone.and then i saw his face and all the worries just dissappeared.i'm not exaggerating.i just knew i'm not alone anymore and safe.hurm....
i'm sorry,i'm not there when u come back.if i could make things easier and happier,i would.and i really wish i could be there.anyway,u should enjoy urself with ur family and friends after nearly 7months onboard.u deserved the holiday and be happy.okay?=)

okey,itu ja nk cakap harini.be back soon.take care peeps;)

.no more beli-belah.

2009-01-18T16:08:00.000-08:00

osalam.

finally i have to execute my a-long-time-ago new year resolution which is to stop shopping unnecessary stuffs especially dresses and shoes from now on.i'm officially broke and here i am,far away from from dublin.perfect sebab kat sini tiada kedai kasutan mahupun bajuan dan i haven't had a chance to walk around town yet which i don't plan to at this time of financial crisis.owh how depressing talking about shopping cessation nie.sobsobsob..

on a lighter note,this week gonna be my final week here in tullamore.thank god.i'm not hating this place,but i love 59 donore avenue more where my room is.i'm dreading to go to hospital tomorrow because i didn't stay back for on-call last friday.there'll be post on-call ward round first thing in the morning and i have no case to present.booohOO.friday is time to go home.bukan duduk melangut kat AnE tgu patient yang sejam satu pon belom tentu.yang pasti i enjoyed my weekend to the max.and to friends who kena paksa keluaq bilik berkali-kali dan yang kena baling dek tepung tu,happy buffday/upcoming buffday!older but wiser orang kata.may Allah bless u.

and yes,faizal tahir rawks!i love the performance.unique and he looked gothic with the black nail polish!but meet uncle hussein's awesome!the joker face on the main vocalist,it suited him well!i thought FT gonna win but when MUH swept the award for pop rock,my instint immediately told me,no nope him,THEY gonna win this time!since i'm in da mood of anugerah juara lagu,let's sing sampai syurga together since tone of lagu untukmu is too high to reach.muahahah.

Sampai syurga~Faizal Tahir

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

p/s:incik ichigo,since u kata faizal tahir i poyo,i'm not gonna dedicate this song to you.padan muka!

.buffday bash.

2009-01-17T20:06:00.000-08:00

salam.

today we celebrated 2 buffdays.up till this week,dah 3 celebrated.tu belom tambah yang tak dicelebrate.and more coming..it's fun.especially when i need something fun and enjoyable when i'm back in dublin after a hell of a week in Tullamore.saya rasa la kan.....mak-mak yang lahirkan babies in january 1985 dah pakat ramai-ramai dah antaq anak depa ke dublin buat medic kot.haha.mmg bulan nie meriah gila.kira asek makan besaq je la kitorang every wiken.camno nak kurus?haa...tu lae satu masalah.sejak balik dari turkey nie,muka dah bulat sket,pants semua dah erm..ketat.ngeri nk tengok muka sendri dlm gambaq.nak amek gambaq pun dah mula malas.boooOOOOO!perlukah dibuat sesuatu atau membuat sesuatu?hahah.tengoklah macam mana.dengan krisis kewangan yang meruncing,elok saja posa kot.jimat pun jimat....pahala dapat dan yang mana kena ganti pun langsai cepat.kan?

wahai lautan,
boleh tak pulangkan bulan saya,
supaya boleh saya katakan padanya,
bulan,tanpamu malam sedikit gelap dan bintang sunyi tak berteman,
bulan,tanpamu juga ym dan sms ku tiada berjawapan.kekekeke

haha..saya rasa nk rujuk balik cikgu sastera masa form 5 dulu kot.

dan seperti biasa,saya masih menunggu bulan jatuh ke riba.doakan ia menjadi kenyataan w'pun...erm,bulan?mana logik jatuh ke riba kan?ntah apa-apa...okey lah,sebelom saya menunggu matahari jatuh ke tapak tangan pulak,baik zzzzZZZZZ dulu.

selamat malam eh pagi..=)

.unbroken strings.

2009-01-14T11:17:00.000-08:00

salam.

first of all,
i've tried a quiz on what medical specialty i should be on.
surprise..surprise.i hate to tell this but lets check it out!

The medical specialty for you is.... Cardiology

Cardiology is the best of all specialties. As a cardiologist, you'll be sure to profit from the sharp increase in obesity. You'll open at clinic across the street from a McDonalds and retire a billionaire.

To find out what specialty best fits your unique personality, go to:

What Medical Specialty Is For You?

being in cardiology team at the moment,i find this specialty is quite interesting in it's own way.apart from the mean consultant i have to deal with right now,i have no problem working up every patient signs and symptoms to formulate the diagnoses,of course with the guidance of my superiors(luckily the SHO and intern are kind enough to bear with this know-nothing med student).it's kinda straight forward cases once u know the heart physiology and what drugs to use.

while blog-hopping,i've just noticed i got tagged by cik azie! lama dah kena tag nie.sowee yerk,tak perasan.since it's short and simple,i'll do it.

1. Do you think you’re hot?

yes,i'm underneath the duvet and on top of a layer of electric blankie.what do you expect?heheh.i dunno.mungkin suam-suam kuku kot.haha.joking.to be honest i dun think so.

2. Upload your favourite pictures of yourself:

3. Why do you like these pictures?

picture A:it reminds me of the beautiful scenary i've seen through the lens.

picture B:candid in chaos.

picture C:pinkish surroundings.nice.

picture D:i still couldn't believe how on earth i terjumped like that!

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?

super supreme in pizza hut, istanbul last month.buy 1 get 1 free with 1L of coke.cheap,enuff said.

5.The last song you listened to?

sweet about me-gabriella cilmi.she reminds me of duffy=)

6.What are you doing right now besides this?

switching over tv channels.whooopssss...it's Save the last dance on E4.got 2 finish this fast.

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?

anything nice that starts with A.

8.Who are the next people you will tag?

anyone who likes to kill time.dipersilakan.

erm,done wif the tag=P

anyway,last night i was mad with someone.someone i rarely have any disagreements with.i got carried away and we hung up the phone in anger.i think he's angry too.i'm all prepared to fight back just in case he brings up the issue again.jahatkan?bukan nk settle elok2.ahaks.tapi masalahnya,saya nak berperang dengan pertubuhan bangsa-bangsa bersatu(PBB).hence i can never win or lose.i guess the preparation is not about to win or anything,but it's more on shielding myself from embarassment since all the fights usually started from me who always ikutkan hati.and he on the other hand always the rational one and never let anything comes in between us.never.and maybe this is the reason why during our 5 years together,we've never been in a big fight.kecik-kecik tu biasala.hurm...now i feel bad.he was really on the mood of talking to me after a week of losing connection and i spoilt it all.i hate this feeling.and to make the feeling worse,he called me up this morning before departure telling me he'll do things to make me happy again.adoi.....saya rasa makin kecik di sini.i deserve a slap on the face,not as a punishment but to make me realize that no one can ever beat him in loving me.

ah,entry emo lae.sekian.

going back to istanbul.

2009-01-13T05:10:00.000-08:00

salam,

i miss istanbul.i really do.the atmosphere is erm...addictive.rasa nak pergi lagi,lagi dan lagi.the people are very pleasant and down-to-earth.but the most unforgettable thing is the food.turkish,western,chinese..u name it.semua kami belasah.heheh.price? they are darn cheap too!owh it's orgasmic to think about what we had been eating there.basically this vacation was meant for eating besides travelling...and yep a bit of shopping toO.sedikit sahaja sbb saya kena berjims since i'm a bit out of buject.sebelom saya lupa,i have secret to tell.after this bukan secret lae dah la kan.the men over there are mostly handsome and gorgeous belaka.susah la nak cari yg tak handsome(incik ichigo mst merah muka baca nie,tapi takpa i'm already mad at him pun..so let the war begins!hohoho).even penjual roti canai dressed to kill.haha.and juga sgt pembersih.been cleaning the counter 5times in 10 mins of my observation period kot.hats off!

okies enuff bout that...let us visit one of the magnificent blue mosques in turkey,Sultan Ahmed Mosque in Istanbul.

the entrance

one of the chandeliers

the ablution area(tempat wuduk)

the corridor outside.

we couldn't take picture from outside because the weather was horrible that day.it was pouring heavily and we were freezing cold.my hands felt numb even when i kept them in my pockets most of the time.

hurm....it's one a.m already.i have ground round at 8 tomorrow.
till next time.nite

the 2 T's minus one

2009-01-06T07:19:00.000-08:00

salam.

entry kali nie nk cerita pasal 2 tempat.

turki dan tullamore

Tullamore.i've been posted here for 3 weeks of elective.jalan-jalan sambil belajaq.best?erm...when kena belajaq at the same time,dia jadi kurang best la kan.kawasan nie agak kampung dengan pemandangan yang hijau dah sejuk mata memandang(juga sejuk teramat dr segi cuaca gak).before i came here,there's one pakcik we met was telling us once we get off the train,we'll smell the tahi lembu.tapi tak bau pun?maybe he's giving us hint that this place is far in the countryside of ireland.the best thing about tullamore is the BnB or bed and breakfast or the accomodation i'm living in right now.the owner is super duper down to earth.he dropped us in and picked us up from hospital since we are the only students who are car-less(the irish are driving their own vehicles).sometimes we car-pooled with the other students.he made us good breakfast.cereal,toast,bull's eye fried eggs,coffee,orange juice,fruits,yougurt..semua ada.nasik lemak je dia tak pandai buat.hihi.the room here is a bit cold but..but..but...he supplied us with electric blankie.haa....dah masuk bawah duvet tu malaslah nak keluaq balik.i think i'm gonna put on some weight if i stay here longer.mana taknya,breakfast org buatkan..gi hospital org hantarkan,pastu asek nk tido ja....hahah.and the bestest thing,i got away from hospital around 11 a.m on most days.this is impossible if i were in mater hospital dublin(unless i declare my own half-day la kan).owh lagi satu....i'm attached to general medicine's team which comprises of an irish consultant,an indian/arab registrar,arab and african SHOs and a japanese intern and last but not least me myself a malaysian medical student.see how multiracial we are and yet we are speaking the same language.diversity.hehe.

erm...actually i planned to take u guys to Istanbul.but i don't know what happen i couldn't upload any picture.so sad.it's ok,i'll upload them some other time ok.owh i went to watch 2 movies jsut now.2-2 pun best=)

slumdog millionaire.

this movie is simply AWESOME!when i first read the synopsis,i told myself"this movie has a unique storyline.i'm gonna like it".i didn't even watch the trailer like i usually did with the other movies.this movie is is a mixed of bollywood and hollywood.for those who like bollywood,dun expect any singing or dancing around the trees part,u'll be dissappointed!but this movie really shows the other side of life that we don't usually get in typical bollywood movies.and they speak English most of the time too.it's highly recommended!if your gf/bf doesnt like Bollywood,please,please,please drag him/her along...this might be the first bollywood movie he/she are goin to enjoy!

brideWars.

aha,this movie is witty!it's funny how 2 bestfriends fight their rights to own a date to have their wedding held at this one particular place.apart from laughing, this movie did make my eyes welled at times especially when the issues of friendship were brought up.yes,good friends stand up for each other most of the times.
and i like the part when one of the maid of honor mentioned how sickening that every bride has to be perfect head to toe before the wedding.it's like today's trend where everything has to be tip-top,the gowns,the venues(hotel 5 bintang),catering,flowers and whatsnot and they spend an awful lot of money on that.dun get me wrong,yes...marriage is once in a lifetime tapi tak payah kot nak spend puloh or ratus ribu-riban for just one day event and worse hutang bank for that matter.i dun mind klau nak buat grand-grand if u could afford it but klau sekadar nak keep up with trend or just because jiran sebelah or anak kawan mak buat majlis kahwin 10 hari sepuloh mlm kita pun nak wat 11hari sepuloh malam tak ke riya' namanya.by the way,this kind of matter is subjective.i just put forward my thought.org lain pk lain.but i do love the vera wang wedding gowns though=P.but i hate that they are not made to fit us,but we made ourselves fit them(meaning if we gemok,exercise!)hahah.
i like my wedding to be simple but perfect in my way and his,of course=).berangan.heh.
:O
okies,better stop now.dah pg.
nite.

pieces.

2009-01-04T13:38:00.000-08:00

salam.

dreams shattered into pieces.

cry,that's not what i do best,
scream?yes i think so,
a listener....i have one,
perhaps that's enough.

life goes on,
time will heal,
dats what they say,
i think it's true.

after all this while,
comes whatever,
i'm still as hard as a rock,
still in one piece.

but

i wish my heart is the same.

it's more than a bunch of HOT vampires!

2009-01-02T16:42:00.000-08:00

salam.

yeah back here again.see...when i'm not busy with hospital or not travelling anywhere,here i am.typing word by word about my not-so-boring life (i think).hehe.

after ten days being away,i'm glad to be back home,here in dublin.i could smell my own room again,golek-golek on my own bed,pelok the teddy bear that i missed so much and paling tak disangka-sangka berperasaan sangat happy dapat jumpa my housemate and the friends yang pergi tenerife without we all.owh how much i missed them(hoho...perasan lah mereka bila baca nie,but seriously missed u myra and the guys so much!).i just had dinner with them after about 2 weeks not seeing them or having them around.bila jumpa balik tetiba rasa happy.ntah,the feeling just there out of sudden.i think i missed the stupid jokes the most!at the same time everything is back to normal and dublin feels like home again=).so a bunch of cun and hot friends is what matter the most!muahahah.

eh i better stop being too mushy-mushy here or else i'll be the victim of their pranks tomorrow.let's see what i brought back from turkey:

turkish airlines 8)

what to eat?

owh,look nice=p

l.o.m.a.n.t.i.c!mkn bersila nie.

itu baru 1st nite di sultan ahmet, istanbul.i guess u guys have to be a little more patient because i'm gonna stop here since i'm too sleepy already.nti smbg eh.

nite=O

it's time!

2009-01-01T04:50:00.000-08:00

salam.

happy new year everyone!=)

where was i at 12 last nite?owh in the cozy hotel room at Istanbul erm....sleeping!haha.too tired to join the party on the new year's eve.flight back to dublin was at 7.40a.m this morning and 4 and a half hours of journey was filled with again...ZZzzzzzz.

it's already 2009.owh wait,is that means i'm gonna get my medical degree by next year?~mata bersinar-sinar!~ameen~ahaha.tak sabar nk abeskan medicine nie.penat woO.

new year means it's time for new resolutions.how many do you guys have this year?i haven't counted mine yet but there are few in my head.what are those is not important.the most important thing is how to achieve them.

so friends and foes...again,HAPPY NEW YEAR.hope everyone will have a prosperous and successful year ahead!

and yessss,it's JANUARY.it's time for someone to sign-off.i'm crossing-fingers now.the office better release him this month or i'll bomb the office.bukan susah nk cari dayabumi tuh!huh.eh,mind me for being emotional.sekali-sekali ok kot.huhuhu.

alright,pics of turkiye will follow soon.take care.

.alice in wonderland.

2008-12-22T18:10:00.000-08:00

salam,

in these few days i was in my own magical world.it's very comfortable.very.it made me stay not wanting to go out to the real world anymore.in the magical world of mine,everyone that i truly love were in it.everything was so beautiful,the people,the places,even the time.i have freedom to paint the beautiful life and dreams i've always wanted.no bad dreams once i closed my eyes and i could sleep like a baby throughout the night,that's the most exciting part of the other world that i've owned.i got to do what i want to without breaking any laws or rules.i'm freed to express myself to the person i love.no words are forbidden.

what else could i do apart from creating my own world?i'm desperately missing those i love.the desire of talking to mum like she's sitting beside me,tickling my sister before we went to sleep every night,hugging my adorable niece's fragile body like i'm crushing her every bones and
actually seeing the face of the man i love always haunt me every single day.i'm reaching out my hands but i got nothing.it's painful.i need morphine.

i'll be back next year.iA.merry christmas and happy new year.owh,it's going to be another year passed by.new resolutions perhaps?

is it christmas already?

2008-12-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

salam,

santa is everywhere.

and sorry for the long absence,i was caught up with exams,2 MCQs and 2 essays in 3 weeks.

talking about christmas,when i walked into shopping malls and shops,the christmas carols seem like raya songs for me.don't get me wrong,i'm not celebrating or anything close to that its just i was already attuned to the songs,the multicolor street lights and the come-in-so-many-color-and-shape christmas trees(what's more with the christmas sale!) around this time avery year.the ambience is very pleasant and everyone is so in the mood of celebrating christmas again.the streets are full with people that are definately in cheerful mood from my observation.and they actually betting whether it's goin to be a white christmas this year since the temperature is lower than in the previous years' winter.anyway,i won't be around on chrismas day.i'll be somewhere quite far and hopefully an interesting place to spend my precious holiday at.

i'm falling deeper and deeper with Edward Cullen the vampire.feel like i'm 17 again!wait,where was i at 17?owh that stupid SPM~sigh~ and no boyfriend.ahahah.apart from SPM,i kinda enjoyed being 17.i have few good and loyal friends where we still keeping in touch with each other once in a while.although we were not the famous and popular girls at that time,we're happy nonetheless.high-school was just another phase that i have to go through to become adult and i like it.but to repeat that again,no thank you.i prefer my phase of life after 17.much sweeter=)

and i smell something sweet and delicious coming to me.ahaks.maybe a big mug of caramel mocchiato with extra caramel topping on top?i wish!:P

.a.d.d.i.c.t.e.d.

2008-12-09T11:38:00.000-08:00

salam.

i have one rule that i secretly obeyed.i can only take a mug of coffee per day(except on exam days, of course).why do i have such a rule?because when i desire to drink some,i'm physiologically changed.my heart beat faster,my mind couldn't concentrate anymore and i lost my focus.in my head there's only a word coffee,coffee and coffee.the thought of being a caffeine addict always scare me so much that i follow the rule quite strictly.
(no offence to all coffee addicts.caffein doesn't pose any risk to terminal diseases:P)

i nearly break the rule today as i got very sleepy and tired during lectures and tutorial although i already had coffee first thing in the morning.my eyes just see my bed calling me softly to unite.a SECOND big mug of coffee is the only option to help me through the rest of the day apart from sleeping.

i was waiting for the bus home when i received one sms that has changed my day.

Are u at home?i'm anchored.call me.

my heart started pounding faster.my head was thinking hard.the whole me wished i could be Edward Cullen or at least in posession of his strength and speed so that i can be home in no time.and once again i lost my focus.I really have to make that call.

after an hour,

i need no coffee.i don't feel sleepy or tired anymore.

i think my heart just got its own version of caffein my body wanted so badly earlier.

i think i'm addicted.

so be it.

raya datang lagi.

2008-12-07T16:06:00.000-08:00

salam all.

just finished ironing my baju kurung.i know it's raya time when i took out baju kurung at the deepest end of my closet and start ironing it.so baju kurung it's like an indicator of raya to me=)

and like in previous years,

me,

my beloved family,

and incik ichigo,

are celebrating raya

at 3 different places.

im here in this wet and cold country,beloved family in malaysia and he's in japan.

"perfect!"

but no matter how far apart we are,we'll always have each other in our heart.

selamat hari raya aidiladha dear readers=)

maaf zahir batin.

.deeper conversation.

2008-12-06T15:03:00.000-08:00

salam.

it's cold here.d.e.m cold.it's foggy and the roads are slippery too.so i walked like a princess to prevent myself from kissing the ground.malang itu tidak berbau right?hehe.

sometimes we might need someone to tell us right on the face what is right and what need to be fixed.taking things for granted is inevitable in life.but there's always time to realise and make things right.i was in confusion and it's really hard to clear things up when the problems we face is proportional in difficulty with the age.at 2.3,i admit things are not easy to deal with compared to when i was a kid.even easy and simple things can get terribly wrong if the way we handle them isn't right.and at this age what i learn is the consequences of every decision i made are far greater be it good or bad when things turn upside down.life as an adult is never easy.but hey....kita bukan sekadar ada countless talian hayat tetapi kita ada Tuhan yang maha mendengar.cuma kita je jarang meminta.

owh..i'm whining again.

okies move on...

gud news,i exercised today.played basketball tapi pancit half-way,eh tak...along the way,sepanjang game.haha.at the moment,my fitness level is at the lowest point it can be i guess.need more exercise.definately.

and last but not least,to the most beautiful woman on earth,my idol,my pillar of strength,my inspiration......

selamat hari lahir mak.

to be your daughter is the most wonderful thing in my life.i love you.

like mother like daughter(tgok tang idung tu.ahaks!)

picture by jay baharin.

.dinner at Killarney~summary.

2008-12-03T15:06:00.000-08:00

salam.

The real calm and delicious dinner at Killarney=)

the mouth-watering indian cuisine at BOMBAY PALACE,Killarney.

well,it has been 3 days post-trip but i still couldn't get everything about Killarney....( the experience and fun that we had)....outta my head!
perhaps after this summary i can move on to the next different topic apart from ranting on and on about Killarney in the next entry.

Ross castle

to summarise,trip to Killarney has been one of the most enjoyable trip so far for me.i enjoyed every second of it.the places are so beautiful with so many majestic and breath-taking views,the foods we cooked together were no doubt finger-licking good and most importantly the people i'd been doing things together for 3 days 2 nights are the greatest people on earth!

arigato gozaimasu kawan-kawan!

i front of our cottages,kami berjiran.the boys lived nextdoor.

credits to hadi,jay and aiza for the pictures.

.dinner at killarney part 2.

2008-12-02T13:18:00.000-08:00

salam.

i'm free as a bird i think.not free for the entire day but having the whole afternoon to myself is really a pamper any med school rarely give to the students..having listened to a row of boring lectures earlier on this morning made me think i've had enough and no more school work at home.kes balas dendam nih sbb i struggled hard straining my eyes open for 3 and a half hours not to fall asleep in the lecture hall td.well....bila tak dak apa-apa nk buat,rasa tak keruan lah pulak.so,what did i do instead?checking facebook every now and then for newly-uploaded pictures of the weekend get-away.

talking about facebook,i'm amazed on how it can hook up people for hours in front of the screen playing with the ever-growing applications.furthermore,it's really fun commenting on pictures and i can see how idealistic and creative my beloved friends are in calling names,making fun of people in the pictures and such(but of course suma org pun tak kesah!).the length of comments that popped-up every second was radiculous that they can be compiled and published as a comic.seriously,i was laughing like hell reading them.

offnote,my mum went fishing again last weekend and the catch was unbelievably a lot!i wished i could go too.huwaaa!akan ku gilap pancing rod tu smp berkilat biaq ikan-ikan terpikat bila daku balik nti.

alamak,there's a medium-sized pimple just popped-out at the chin and owchhh,it's painful.i need oxy.
daa.

the pics are taken by my friends,ms aiza,mr jay and mr hadi.thanx a mill!i honestly think u guys have enormous talent in photography!keep up the good work okay!

owh ya, attention to all hardcore fans of the matrix,there's a pre-sequel of the movie here

.dinner at Killarney.

2008-11-30T15:08:00.000-08:00

salam.

exam's over.nothing much to say bout it.in summary i think i didn't do well in both written part and OSCE.owh well,i've tried my best and let leave the rest to God.

my backpack lays untouched.too tired to unpack.owh didn't i tell ya i went for a short trip with the beloved friends a day after the exam?well...just exploring ireland.the 3 days 2 nights trip was awesome!as a friend was saying we have been underestimating ireland all this while,and it's true indeed.Ireland does has more than what i expected.

my body's too tired and my brain's pestering me to stop while my eyes begging to let them rest in sleep.i shall continue with more words and pictures some other time.

till then take care and toodles!

gimme 5!

2008-11-16T10:27:00.000-08:00

salam.

What a gloomy day today is.The uninviting weather when looking over the window just worsen my mood and my health.been swallowing medications one after another and they make me drowsy.But i refused to just stay in bed.Today's suppose to be a special day=)

Take me the way i am.
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

'Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

'Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

'Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

manchester 2006

happy anniversary dear.

i've decided to reward myself with one or two episode(s) of gossip girl if i manage to finish all the topics in breast.one more topic to go.Dan humphrey and chuck bass,here i come:p

.toffee nut latte.

2008-11-15T12:17:00.000-08:00

salam.

i koyak sepeket.

i letak dlm mangkuk.

i letak perencah.

i tuang air.

i celup satu jari

air sejuk tahap baru keluar peti sejuk.

d.e.m!

membazir sebungkus.

dah ah.mari layan gambar.

More pictures here

.under the weather.

2008-11-14T10:36:00.000-08:00

salam.

Goddddd......this past-years MCQs really got me on my nerve!

Pel Ebstein fever? ?@£$*&^!!!
Opisthotonos?@@**&%%%!!!
Waldenstrom's macroglobulinaemia?@@****%%%!!

wth are these?

for non-medics,freak-out not!

me,myself just came across these bullshits for the 1st time in my life!

i think i'm goin mental.been screaming and hair-pulling while doing the questions!

just a random topic i need to master.

so to calm myself down,i did what i enjoy the most....cooking.hehe

owh btw,WC is my second room today.been experiencing polyuria(increase volume and frequency of going to the toilet) as a result of excess water intake due to the sore throat.at least i know my kidneys work alright.heheh.

and Kt Tunstall is awesome!she never bores me!have a listen folks!

okies...gotta go and do some work.

muah!

what would i do without them.

2008-11-13T13:20:00.000-08:00

salam.

i had a good laugh...

with them THE FANTASTIC 3!

@Tina with her plasma tv.

@Aiza with her too-beautiful-to-be-orthopaedic model

@Aini with her winter-jacket hunting that has this tremendous pulling power to make me participate too!hohoho.

we all have been housemates since 2005.

Kat Dublin nie,kalau tak ada mereka ini,i akn end up masuk psychiatry ward mana-mana nearest hospital kot.hehe.

tonight,

after a few stupid jokes and future-prediction talk that we had while waiting for the bus just now,

i sedar yang nanti bila dah kerja,i mesti rindu nk borak-borak dengan mereka ini.

tapi takpa...kita ada one and a half year lagi kan kawan-kawan.

actually sebelum nak jdi sebegini rapat,byak dugaan,duri-duri yang we all kena lalui.

but it was just a process to discover what life is all about,meeting different people before finally choosing the right ones.

and i think i found a bunch of friends that other people are desperately looking for.

love u girls so much!

muah muah muah!

dulu (2005)

now(2008)

and of course i syg kawan-kawan yg lain cuma mereka ini terlalu rapat sebab dah sebumbung lama and boy,we shared lots...i mean A LOT of things yang hanya kami sahaja yang tahu.hehe.

once i did write this in my previous entry;

~:~Friends come and go.but i chose the right ones to stay with me because good friends are hard to come by~:~

so i guess u know who u are=)

and another part of life is making and adding new friends to the list.i'm welcoming anyone yg sudi jd kawan,yg sudi terima saya the way i am...and i give u my guarantee i'll stay with u through thick and thin,ups and downs,insya-Allah.

=)

erm...i'm having sore throat and cold just caught me.had 5 sachets of Lemsip and i hope they'll do me good as i need good health to study and stand for long hours in OT.

and my final rotation before exams-->breast,endocrine and general surgery.nak baca mana satu dulu nie?
~head spinning!~

and ALL THE BEST EXAMS!>to all res year UCDians!

tune in to exam mOde!

2008-11-04T11:04:00.000-08:00

salam all.

Dublin has started behaving like it used to.last few days were extremely cold with the temperature approaching 0.it's freezing i tell ya!tapi itulah Dublin yang saya rindui,cold...gloomy and peace.klau tadak suma nie,bukan Dublin lah namanya.jam 5 ptg dh mcm 9 malam rasanya.gelap gulita.

and worst,

exam is just around the corner.
1 mcq paper
1 short answer questions paper
OSCE medicine

huuuuuhuuuu....not agitated yet,but a bit restless.8(....

on the other hand,there are few things that make me stay calm and feel happy,happy and happpyyyyyy=)

1.dating with my 2 significant others(bukan 2 suami yerk!hehe)hehe... my mak and kakak lah.. as frequent as i could...although via phones,it is the best therapy when i'm down...

2 crocs guarding the best mum in the world!

2.on its way to Bintulu.i hope it arrives safely and he'll like it=)

the scorpion gonna bite this on the 19th!hohoho...

3.new addition.

my fourth!

4.my bestest moment today!

the simplest hobby in the world yet so relaxing and enjoyable!

see...sometimes small little things can put us at ease and even better at the extreme of happiness!

i just LOve my life!(ayat menaik kan semangat di kala stress!)hehe.

i might be in dormant state for a while till the exam is over.
till then,
TC=)

the little angel in my heart~

2008-10-25T16:22:00.000-07:00

salam.

this is my niece.she's so adorable!isn't she?my summer holiday was spent mostly attending to her needs as she comes to my house on weekdays when her mama is working and we babysit her.

since i'm here in dublin,i didn't dare to look at any of her pictures because they make me sick missing her so badly.the way she talks,she smiles,she frowns,she smirks....semua tu adalah reason why i just couldn't even look at the pics.rasa nk pelok tak kesampaian.faham ke....?everytime i wanted to take picture of her,she would always ready with her funny poses and cute little mouth twisting acts.forever ready in front of the lense,she'll always be my favourite model.sumtimes i wish she would stop growing so that i don't miss any of her growth milestones anymore.being away for so long,u just couldn't help missing the moments she's growing up from little baby to a little princess.i wasn't there when my sister gave birth to her.balik-balik aja,dah ada super duper cute lil' baby with big,wide eyes that first caught my attention compared to her other anatomy parts.after a year,there she goes running around like pro and after another year,she could talk better than her 8 y.o brother=)how's that?seriously,my sis was like"she could really talk mcm org tua tau.very persuasive and she got most of the things she wanted just like that"(sambil snapping her fingers in front of me!)

tadi,i had to dig out a few pictures from the files and i accidentally came across her beautiful photos...how can a person not love this little girl.certainly she's the angel that always cheer up my days.

she makes rains feel like diamonds from the sky,she makes rainbows more colourful to the eyes and she makes the moon as bright as the sun.
maksu loves u dearly.

take me to where u are.

2008-10-22T11:28:00.000-07:00

salam.

i felt like puking when putting the last string of instant noodles i brought from home into my mouth.now i know why i couldn't finish a packet of maggi mee.because i don't like the 'instant' flavour of it.now i know why i tried my best to cook everyday eventhough i was exhausted after the whole day spent in hospital.because i don't like the word 'instant' there right in front of the wrapper.gosh,how i missed my mum's cooking.

perhaps another reason to puke is being in medicine.don't ask why.i've explained enough in my previous entries.my niece asked me the other day wether to choose pure science or applied science as her upper secondary stream.suprisingly my advice more towards the latter.and again don't ask why.

by the way.... to just get my mind off from hustle-bustle of medicine,i always think about our next winter vacation.where to?well,i think this place is gonna be different from the places i'd been to.

study this picture carefully.

any guesses?no?

ok,
it starts with the letter T.
yes,u'r definately correct!bought the tic!can't wait.but disember seems so far away.takpa..takpa...exam dulu baru boleh pi.uhuks.

okie-dokie.ini sahaja untuk hari ini.erm bagus tulis blog ni.boleh hilangkan rasa nk muntah.ahaks.

till then peeps.

.so near yet so far.

2008-10-20T14:35:00.000-07:00

salam.

today,
i've got m.a.i.l!
thanx myra for the inspiring sms=)

far away from the land of the rising sun.

for a while,
i forgot about my crappy week having to drag myself to hospital as early as 6.45a.m every single day.
i forgot about how early i have to wake up tomorrow
i forgot about the case i have to present to my c.o.n.s.u.l.t.a.n.t on thursday.
i forgot about my electricity bill that retched and twisted my colon into a knot.

for a while,
i'm in my own world,
on cloud 9.

Thank you for taking me away from the ugly real world,
eventhough just for a while.

the man of few words in his baju melayu raya onboard.

owh i promised myself not to write solely about jiwang-jiwang ni....but i guessed promises are made to be broken.=P....

p/s:overexcited over a letter?i have fair reasons.laut n darat.signal maxis,02,vodafone,tmnet sreamyx,irish broadband tadak.geddit?

till then,
have a nice day=)

orked.

2008-10-13T12:03:00.000-07:00

salam.

minggu ni dah start surgery.in surgical rotations,the appetiser is gynaecology.the first taste of it......not bitter but slightly sour with unpleasant smell.i didn't expect that coming.thought is going to be better than this.tidak lah teruk but.....ok,baru 1st day.hopefully things are getting better and i can adapt to whatever team my name is on smoothly.

moving on to more interesting story.nak cerita pasal orked.i think i just developed sudden interest in bunga orked.not so sudden la..but i found it calming seeing bunga orked atas rack di marks and spencer apabila ada peluang.dan saya juga membayangkan sepokok kecil bunga orked ungu berlatar belakangkan wall bilik saya yang berwarna putih.mesti cantik.and because of this i never miss stopping by at m&s everytime going shopping in town just to have a glimpse at the beautiful orchids.like just now,i nearly buy one but the instructions of how to take care of the bunga orked deter me from buying just yet since i'm quite busy with study and stuffs hence limiting my time to appreciate it when it stands and grows in my room.malam nie mst terbayang-bayang bunga tu dlm mimpi.however,i'm preparing my room to accomodate one soon.yes,very soon=)my mum mesti happy klau dia tahu pasal orked ni sebab i'm becoming more like her.each day.heh..

girls and flowers are really inseparable!dulu masa kecik-kecik stereotype je semua minat roses.perhaps because roses have good relationship with love,so everything about love must be roses.but now,as we grow old,everyone developes liking towards different species of flowers.i love orked.my 2 housemates like daisy and lily.so i guess it's more of inviduality than love or there's something more to flowers than just love.kan?
tapi...tapi....tapi ....w'pun saya tak pernah dapat bunga,i'm still so much in love.(klau dapat double la love tu kan.ahaks)

my new best friend.another living creature in my room=)

okeylah.enough ramblings.pen down.take care everyone!

my 5th eid in dublin

2008-10-06T15:12:00.000-07:00

salam all.

how's raya everyone?i'm having a blast here.with 'my family' here,raya can never be boring.on delayed updates of the holy month of ramadhan:breaking fast beramai-ramai were held on a few occasions every week be it at home or outside.
regarding eid,countless open houses for us to attend in the month of syawal.usually they start from friday streching out to the very sunday=)so mmg kenyang lah kami di sini.the foods served were marvellous.sometimes i wonder where and when these people learn how to cook that well,u know with super hectic lives as medical students.

ketupat,lemang,kuah kacang,lontong and rendang are the must have here.tu belum tambah laksa penang,mee rebus and bihun sup.dan rasanya mmg sebijik mcm yg kat malaysia.tadak beza.

although i had to go to hospital on 1st syawal morning,i made sure i finish the work early and headed off to have at least ketupat and lemang to start the food fest with.i dragged jay who was the only malay besides me at the hospital at that time who happened to call me from the OT(operation theatre) and forced him to stop what-the-crap-we-were-doing on pagi raya and went to our 1st open house instead.the weather was a horrid!it was sunny at first and the next minute we were drenching wet and nearly got blown away by the strong wind.abes baju raya masing-masing.payung dah jadi daun pisang.sempat pulak nyanyi-nyanyi dangdut menempuh perjalanan yang penuh p.a.n.c.a r.o.b.a untuk ke open house.ahaks.

all in all,raya is great!my dearest incik ichigo called me on the 4th raya telling my kueh raya that i sent to him are yummy and delicious.hey,not bad for the first timer huh?tapi takkan dia nk kata tak sedap pulak kan.nk kena la tu =p ahaha.angkat bakul pula.

here pics taken when celebrating raya:

malaysia hall dublin,4th syawal.
the crowd busy shoooing a lalat away.

me and the darling housemates.myra wasn't here.dear,u should join us once in a while=)

and last but not least.moi.1st syawal.mulut penoh ketupat.haha.

okeylah dearest semua.i ada post on-call ward round at 8 tomorrow.
jumpa lain hari okey.till then,enjoy eating everyone!tapi igt-igt tentang coronary artery diseases(sakit jantung) that u can get with access cholesterol.opppsss! i spoilt the celebration now.
daa...

yeayy!!happy for them.

2008-09-29T15:10:00.000-07:00

salam.

i'm really happy.yes happy!although the news got nothing to do with me,but i'm still happy for them:the family,spouses,children,fiance',boyfriend,friends of the crews of the hijacked vessels.

mt bunga melati 2 and mt bunga melati 5.

more news here;

http://utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2008&dt=0930&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Muka_Hadapan&pg=mh_01.htm

no more worries i guess.and tersenyum lebar la org2 kampung menyambut kepulangan mereka nanti eh.ada chance raya sama lak tu w'pun a bit later.

at first i was a bit dissappointed with the news i read this morning that says only mt melati 5 was released and it was the second vessel being hijacked after mt melati 2.now i can write about this with a big smile on my face since BOTH vessels are saved!.over kan saya.....hahah.but only people in the same shoes know how this feeling is like=)

i quote this from a family member of the crew in melati 2:

Dalam pada itu, dia akan menasihati adik tirinya itu supaya berhenti daripada terus bekerja dalam bidang perkapalan yang diceburinya itu sejak 10 tahun lalu kerana tidak mahu kejadian buruk dijadikan tebusan lanun berulang.

"Saya tak mahu dia kerja di laut lagi. Carilah kerja lain, lagipun sudah lama sangat dia berada di laut," katanya.

i nk plead the same thing dengan incik ichigo boley?or the least u can do for me is don't ever pick that route in future and stay away from gulf of aden tu key!

do not worry friends and foes,he's safe and sound i think along bintulu-japan-bintulu route and he loves going to japan!i wonder why?

oh one more thing,i just received sms from my mum at this hour (malaysian time:5;18am,irish time:10;18pm)

mak:gmah dah tidoq ka?

me,anxious and loaded with uneasiness with the sms,straight away called her up.

mak:hello...(sambil suara bernada happy)

me:hello mak(dlm hati legaaa....)gmah tak tidoq lae.awat mak?

mak:hujan ngah lebat,mak rasa nk banjir!

me:apa mak?syiannyerrr...dah masuk ayaq belom?

mak:dak la lagi.mak dok standby jaga-jaga ni tapi umah mak long hang(my mak long is my neighbour) dah masuk mak rasa.depa dari pukui 3 lae dah gheyoh- ghendah(riuh-rendah).mak teringat pulak kawan mak yang mak jahitkan tudung tingkap and tudung pintu(langsir or curtains) dia aritu.mesti rumah dia masuk ayaq gak.

me:syiannyer mak long.tapi kan mak,selamat ujan arini.bygkan klau ujan n banjir esok.lagi kelam kabut.at least ujan arini,bila dah seriyat(stop or berkurang) boleh cuci teros umah,mop semua.esok time hari raya confirm berkilat dengan hebatnya umah depa semua(mother and daughter laughed their socks off)....bla..bla..bla...(melahirkan rasa bimbang dan sedih terhadap apa yg berlaku/akan berlaku)

mak:ni ujan rahmat la gmah.bla..bla...(masih sound happy sbb tak masuk ayaq lae la tu)

and suddenly,

mak:gmah,sat sat...mak rasa tempat lap kaki tu dah basah la!

me:huh,btoi ka mak?pi pi tgok dulu sat...

mak:gmah,ayaq da masuk abes basah tmpat lap kaki tu..okaylah.mak nk pi stop ayq sat.nti kita cakap lain naaa....

me:ok...ok....assalamualaikum.

i still remember when i was home last summer.it was another 2 days before kenduri arwah yang akn dibuat for my late father and the same thing happened.i was up since 5am cleaning and mopping the house smp nk patah all the spines.but,having mak with me doing the cleaning was really,really fun.tak stress lansung,we laughed,making jokes about the flood and doing exercise while mopping.haha.seriously fun!

another episode of banjir kilat was the day my incik ichigo due to take his flight off to bintulu to board aman sendai.the night before,we planned to talk on the phone smp panas telinga tetapi apakan daya,again i was busy doing what maids do the best smp panas badan.i wasn't complaining,but going down the memory lane about these things can be really exciting or frustrating at times.

as far as i can remember,the flood never affect my house before.cuma this year yang teruk.but these are the challenges we have to face living in 'kampung'.tapi di rumah itulah saya lahir,dibesarkan dan mendapat segala kasih sayang yang diperlukan selama 23 tahun saya bernafas di muka bumi ini dan makan ketupat palas dan ketupat jawi di hari raya beserta rendang mak.huuuu.no regret.at all!

rumahku,syurgaku.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

.eid sensatiOn.

2008-09-27T17:56:00.000-07:00

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

salam.

apa habaq semua?
lagi beberapa hari ja nk melangkah ke bulan syawal.
nak raya kan?
since semua org dlm mood raya,mari kita buat tag yang "ditag"kan oleh cik nani.dia ni chummel la sesangat.=)

Berapa pasang baju raya anda taun ni dan kaler apekah?
3 pasang sahaja.
~rahsia dulu boley?nti saya pastekan gambaq setelah memakainya di hari raya kelak.hehe.

Apakah makanan raya tradisional kegemaran anda?
paling suka di pagi raya adalah ketupat daun palas segitiga.berjantina ketupat nie.jantan dan betina lain cara lipatannya.yang betina dikira reject.adaka patot?mkn dengan rendang aym mak beserta ketupat jawi dan kuah kacang.pergh....

Apakah biskut raya kegemaran anda?
~biskut makmur
~semperit

Bape banyak duit raya anda dapat n spend untuk bagi kat bebudak?
saya masih layak diberi duit raya.oleh itu,apalagi.....hanya duit kertas diterima.cap harimau ye.haha.

Apakah aktiviti malam raya korang?
kat sini,mlm raya tiada bezanya mcm mlm2 lain.klau kat kampung dah tak menang tangan tolong mak masak.rindu suasana tu....

eh dah abes.nk tag siapa pulak yerk....okey camni,sesapa yang rasa dia nk raya,silalah buat.nti saya belanja kuah semperit!aci tak?hehe.

dia kesempatan ini,ingin saya hulurkan tangan memohon kemaafan atas segala salah dan silap terutamanya kepada rakan-rakan seangkatan dan sebatalion tak kira di ireland,malaysia dan seluruh pelusuk dunia..buat rakan-rakan seperjuangan di sini,ingatlah bahawa kesedihan kita di hari raya adalah satu pengorbanan besar yang insyaAllah ada rahmat di sebaliknya.walaupun tiada keluarga di sisi di pagi syawal,kita masih ada satu sama lain bukan?datanglah ke 59 donore avenue kalau nk mkn kueh raya ya.hehe.

buat sahabat-sahabat di malaysia,ingat lah kami yang jauh ni di kala mengadap juadah raya yang tidak dinafikan enak dan lazat tu.huwaa!!!!!

akhir kata,
SALAM AIDILFITRI dan di sebalik kegembiraan yang bakal tiba,bersederhanalah dengan sentiasa mengingatiNya.

lagi satu,pandulah dengan berhati-hati=)

lovesick!

2008-09-25T16:00:00.000-07:00

salam.

today has been weird.besides school and hospital stuffs that drive me crazy,i miss my family d*mn much.i miss my seaman mcm g*la.kenapa weird?normally i could successfully surpress the emotional part of my life seperti merindu keluarga dan org mcm nk g*la itu.

tetapi hari ini simply t.a.k b.o.l.e.h!

maybe raya is just around the corner and thinking that this year will be just my mum n my sister beraya berdua back at home is really heartbreaking.my two other siblings going to be with their in-laws this year.i wished i could be there making things better w'pun tak sempurna.

and i wished he could call me up and say"it's ok.semua akn baik nanti....".

i feel like my hopes are slowly dying.tiada lagi warna-warni.hanya ada kelabu dan cuaca yang mendung tak bermatahari.

hurm...mata dh kelabu berair.

jumpa di lain masa.

definately better than studying!

2008-09-19T15:11:00.000-07:00

salam.

i was tagged by my "twin" cik azie.untuk tidak mengecewakan dia yg tgh berbhgia skrg..here goes!

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
my iBook G4::my stathescope n white coat::ketenangan fikiran::my sanity::

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
dah lupa,so far guna duit sponsor.hehe

3. Dimanakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
i like garden wedding,which is dlm taman bukan dlm hotel.dan ada maze nk lari2 dlm tu.wakaka.sila gelak!

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?
so far dh 4tahun 10bulan.i hope many years to come before we finally tie the knot=)

5. Adakah anda di lamun cinta?
kamu rasa?

6. Dimanakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
Medina,an indian restaurant right in city centre.

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
medicine @ a glance,bailley and love and pocket surgery(yeah,boooorriiiing!)

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
yang teramat mulia cik sri azimah mohd hadzir.8)

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
mak.klau bapak masih ada..

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
i guess my 1st child kot.ahaha.

11. Christina atau Britney?
christina aguilera.pastu nk nyanyi sama-sama"i'm a genie in a botoi baby!"

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
yep,ada org nk tolong ka?

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
switzerland! again and again.

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
a warm big hug dr ayahanda tercinta.tak siapa boley lawan!

15. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu.
she's my virtual friend met in blogosphere::we're in the same shoes::we share the same name,well part of the forename::working near kl central::currently madly in love::

16. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai :
go fishing with my family smp 2-3 pagi::ship,tanker dan sewaktu dengannya::my apple::my med registrar who's super cOOL::myBESTFRIENDS4-EVER::anythingTOdoWITHfashion::pudingcaramel::myincikICHIGO

17. 8 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan :
ya Allah::eh?::hekk eleh!::buduh::ceeehhhh::wei::wOw::penaaatlaa!

18. 8 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca.
3books mentioned above::lipstick jungle::19minutes::med journal(tgok nama author ja)::israk&mikraj::being happy

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali :
sesungguhnya~ungu::One step at a time~jordin spark::alhamdulillah~opick and amanda::lucky~jason mraz n colbie callait::sweet symphony~the verve::how to save a live~the fray::iris~the googoodolls::truly,madly,deeply~savage garden

20. 8 perkara yang saya pelajari tahun lalu :
jgn studi last minute::dun be too sad and depressed::appreciate what i have around me::Love my family trilion times more::always cherish friendship::too much shopping makes people broke::sgt tak boleh terima org sellfish!::NB;dekatkan diri dengan tuhan

21.i'm gonna tag 8 more people.here the 8 lucky people who hit the jackpot.haha!
aiza::jay::a'a::kerry::kai::sarahAMIN::fatin::sorang lagi nie kira volunteer la.

so i'm done doing the tag.best pulak buat tag2 nih.at least a lot more fun than answering MCQs!duhh!hahah.

being old...what do ya think?

2008-09-17T13:53:00.000-07:00

salam all.

alhamdulillah,masih mampu menulis blog w'pun terlalu byk kerja yang tak tersiapkan.hihi.since there are people still reading this blog,i must keep on writing.yes i will,for u guys!=)agak2 terharu tak?

seriously,thousand apologize for not being able to post anything more often.too much work yet so little time everyday.my day kicked off around 6.30a.m everyday and at around 11pm dah zzzzz.ward rounds,tutorials,out patients and whats not...mmg letih tapi bulan2 posa nie kena byk sabar kan.alangkah bgus klau satu hari 48 jam?

this week i'm attached to geriatrics team.geriatrics is medicine for elderly.so,basically i'm dealing with elderly people mostly stroke patients.the youngest patient is.. jap nk check list..64 tahun and my oldest patient was born on 1915.go figure!and more interestingly,she has 20 children.big applause everyone!jln ke shorga nie klau ikut dlm islam tapi apakan daya,fahaman kita berbeza makcik.

highlights on intersting patient this week
makcik J:advance frontotemporal dementia(kira penyakit lupa la nie).
dia akn jln along the corridor back n forth the whole day.yes sehari suntuk berjalan pi balik-pi balik and yg menariknya....she will repeat every sentence we've said to her.contoh:

situation 1
"J,can u go back to your bed"asked my consultant.
"yes,go back to my bed..going back to my bed.back to my bed.i'm going back to my bed."she mumbled along the way to her bed.

situation 2
"is there any pain anywhere?"
her replied:
"any pain anywhere?no pain anywhere.no pain anywhere.any pain anywhere....."and the same thing goes on"

this speech disturbance is called echolalia.it's a repetition of vocalisation made by another person caused by abnormality or insults to the frontotemporal region of the brain.

cerita makcik ni begini...dia adalah seorang yang sgt normal dan sehat walafiat sebelum ini.pada suatu hari,suaminya ke kedai untuk membeli barang.she was at home at that time and was as sprightly as usual.apabila husbandnya pulang,she wasn't at home and puas dicari masih tidak kelihatan.rupanya dia telah keluar merayau-rayau tanpa arah tujuan dengan tiba-tiba tanpa ada tanda-tanda lain hari-hari sebelumnya.it's a sudden attack dan sejak dr hari itu dia akn berjalan tanpa henti dan akan mengulangi exactly setiap ayt yg diucapkan padanya.takdir tuhan kan?adakah kita bersedia untuk menghadapi perkara sebegini di hari tua nanti?

tutup cerita pesakit.how's ramadhan treating you?bagi saya kat sini,sedikit meletihkan sbb waktu berbuka agk lewat.around 8.tapi berbuka hari-hari free.sbb saya tgal dekat sangat dgn masjid di Dublin ni.setiap hari iftar free and dapatlah kami berbuka dengan nasi beriani ayam dan kadang-kadang daging setiap hari.alhamdulillah.makan dalam dulang mcam zaman rasulullah dulu.agak-agak boleh imagine tak?=D

apa lae nk tulis eh?erm..mgu nie extra happy.incik ichigo saya anchor 3 hari di bintulu=)lebih panjang dr selalu.extra time means xtra happiness!tapi dia balik bintulu balik on the 4th raya.huuuuu....he's more bz onboard than i am.tambahan pula hujung2 tahun nie,taufan kerap di sebelah taiwan nu.haish..saya doakan awak selamat sentiasa!amin.amin.

igt lae tak pantun kanak-kanak nie?

pen merah,
pen biru,
you marah,
i love/like you.

ada org bagi pantun nie kat saya.tapi dia tukar sedikit.

baju merah,
baju biru,
you marah,
i love you.

nak memujuk.w'pun saya marah,saya tetap senyum=)lagikan teringat zaman kanak2 dulu.

btw semua,baju raya colour apa tahun nie?

okies,have a good day everyone.dan selamat mencari malam lailatul qadar.

.rindu.

2008-09-09T13:38:00.000-07:00

salam.

how's everyone?(ntah ada ntah idak org yg baca blog nie)

i'm good.safe and sound here in 59 donore avenue,south circular road dublin 8,ireland(alamat da bagi,boley pos kad raya nie=)).landed on the 6th sept around 10+pm.the journey back here was ....erm tiring and kinda long.stranded in heathrow for more than 1 hour.flight delayed due to bad weather in dublin.and..1st time balik time posa.mmg hancus la.anyway,i had chance fasting 5 days in malaysia.nikmat.on the 1st day posa rasa nk melawat PARAM(pasar ramadhan) je tetiap ari,tapi on the last day je dapat because my eldest sister is so kind to cook special meals for iftar everyday.laksa penang dia mmg perghhhhhh....best!tak dapat kat mana2 restaurant pun lah.sayaaaaang kakak.=)but on the last day i escaped to PARAM with my elder sister and my two nieces.balik rumah sepuluh jari ada beg plastik.terkejut mak tgok.
"mak dah agak,klau hang terlepas,ni la jadinya".
saya senyum je lah.rileks mak,bukan selalu dapat camni.hehe.

"Salman ibn Amir Dhabi related that the Prophet said: Break your fast with dates, or else with water, for it is pure (Abu Dawud, Tirmidhi)".

i resumed my crazy student life starting last monday.mcm gila semester nie.nausea(the feeling of throwing up)bila tgok the schedule that has been printed for us.siap on call lae.terbaik lah.i got district hospital as a starter.two buses is a must.jauh ya amat.selamat mkn free.bukan makan di siang hari,tapau la.but the staffs,be it doctors,nurses even consultants are kind and very friendly.they always have extra time giving us tutorials and asking lots of questions toO!i had 3 weeks of rotations at the same hospital last sem so i'm quite familiar with the surroundings.in fact the student advisor still remember me.u r so cute PATTY.tapi daku hairan,dia masuk kul 10am,balik kul 4pm and kerja 3-4 days in a week and the next thing i know,she'll be on holiday the following week .bgus eh kerja camni?apa2 pun,this is a new start for me. 4th year means 4x works and effort to be done.we'll see how it goes from time to time.

balik sini ja dah windu family kat kampung.igt mak and akak mst sebak.bulan2 puasa nie mereka berbuka berdua je lah.if only i could be there making it 3 of us...huhu.mak dah ok sket.w'pun ada sisa2 kesedihan(itu yg nampak.yang tak nampak Allah je yg tau),but i know she's strong,for me and my siblings.incik ichigo pun tgh kat lautan.i'm worried sick bout him.bukan sebab kapal dia lalu teluk aden tu...ntah...maybe sbb apa yg jadi involve kerjaya dia.harap2 dia sehat and dilindungiNya selalu.he called asking for me the other day.maybe his ship anchored in japan.unfortunately i was on my flight to ireland at that time.melepas.rindulah.

~:my beloveds:~

okaylah.saya dah mula melalut.selamat berpuasa dan pertingkatkan lah kesabaran di bulan yg mulia nie okay.see you in the next entry=)

shocking!

2008-08-22T12:18:00.000-07:00

salam.

i'm speechless upon hearing a news than is far beyond what i expected.
usd5m?
wth?
to the family:i'm deeply sorry to hear that.be strong.

.ini cerita kehidupan.

2008-08-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

salam.

setelah sekian lama tak menulis disebabkan beberapa faktor,saya mengambil keputusan untuk mengurangkan satu faktor iaitu kegagalan meletak gambar sebagai alasan yang tidak munasabah untuk tidak menulis di sini.

pheww...writing in malay sumtime makes me dizzy.bak kata syarifah amani dalam iklan silky girl,"dah la english pun tak betul,nak sindir-sindir pulak"(lebih kurang camtu lah,tak igt the whole script).tak,bukan apa.klau dlm english,boleh main hentam-hentam aja.klau dalam malay,main hentam2 camni jdi tak sedap.betul tak?okay back to bussiness now,i'm basically in the comfort of my home swheeeet home doing nothing,absolutely nothing.mengabes beraih ja.hehe.so at least malam ni kena tulis sumthing berisi sket.

ni nk baca berita sket....

a malaysian tanker(belong to MISC,the shipping arm of petronas) laden with palm oil,mt bunga melati 2 was hijacked by pirates in the gulf of Aden near somalia and yemen yesterday.there are 39 crews on board with 29 of them are malaysians.

i was shocked to hear the news yesterday and i pray all the crews regardless their races are being treated well and safe wherever they may be.having someone i love working in the same line,this kind of situation really would be a nightmare to me.imagine one of them is our brother,father or even friend,being captured far away from our homeland while carrying out their duty is really heartbreaking and troublesome(in terms of rescueing them).i can't even think how their spouses,children and families would feel and react in this very difficult situation.to them:my heart goes out to you and my prayers always be with all of you.sekarang terasa lebih menghargai orang yang jauh.being separated far away for a long time from the loved one really effects my emotion.when i got a chance to talk to him bila dia balik atau anchor for few days,tetiba rasa nk marah je.ye,marah sebab i got very limited time to have him with me .marah juga sebab i have to compete with his job which i lost most of the time.what if one day he goes and doesn't come back.minta Allah jauhkan.i should appreciate the time we have together,be it a few sec,minutes or even 100 years.

tunggu awak pulang.heeee.....

lagi cerita kehidupan....

my sis got an email from a dear friend.about starvation and poverty mainly in africa.full of touching and very sad pictures reflecting the lives of the unfortunate.seeing them malnourished and aneroxic(u can count every spine and rib on their body as there were bones and skin left that resembled walking skeletons) is tearing my heart apart especially if u know the complications of malnutrition to the bits.i'm sure most of them were long gone because of nothing to eat and here we are wasting the foods like nobody's bussiness.kadang-kadang sengaja saya tinggalkan makanan di pinggan kerana untuk mengelak dari terlalu kenyang sehingga menjadi tabiat.lansung terlupa di fikiran saya makanan itu amat diperlukan oleh orang lain yg terpaksa menyelongkar tong sampah mencari sesuap makanan,memakan sisa org lain dan tidak kurang yang berlapar kerana tiada apa untuk di makan. from now on,i wont do such stupid and sellfish kind of acts anymore.fikir-fikir balik sangat menyesal okey.huuuuuu.....

pesanan saya,
bersyukur atas nikmat tuhan berikan.dugaan-dugaan menimpa adalah rahmat terlindung dan kafarah dosa-dosa kita.time to reflect and improve=)

a scroll that brings smiles.

2008-08-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

salam.

waduh,lama gila tak update.soweeee sgt.dial-up tmnet sudah tidak reliable lagi.bukar sekadar lembab,malah tak boleh connect terus.

"mak tolonglah faham.kita ambil streamyx ye mak.nti boleh skype guna pc je.boleh kan mak?jimat duit ank mak.boleh sponsor mak datang ireland"(ini adalah cakap hati)

okay,kali ini cerita tentang kawan saya.my bestfriend from standard 3.lama bukan?kami mcm adik beradik.rumah saya,rumahnya jua.rumah dia?tempat persinggahan saya terutamanya utk mkn2.hehe.she just graduated.apalagi,lepas nie bleh la belanja kan liana.she will be my drugs directory.

tahniah dear.i'm proud of u!

like a biscuit

2008-07-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

salam,

igt lae dak iklan chipsmore?
"sekejap ada,sekejap tiada"

my life is like a biscuit according to my aunts.they only saw me once a year,i mean a few times during summer hols.the next time they know,i'm already left for ireland.dat's for the lucky ones.for the unlucky ones, they didn't get a chance to see mee at all for years...hurm...itu hidup saya dr kaca mata mereka.the bright side of this is once we met,they treated me so special.cook anything that i've requested and pampered me like a child.

and speaking of life like this,i noticed that i'm not the only one who's like a biscuit.incik ichigo is like a biscuit too.sekejap ada sekejap tiada.eh bukan,sekejap ada,lamaaaaa tiada.huhu.got the chance to meet him twice and now he's gone again.to the wide,rough oceans.
tapi takpa,as long as i know he's safe and sound,i'm grateful.abscence makes heart grew fonder.ahaks.thinking back,i have or had choices to lead a normal life,a life yg bukan macam biskut or hidup dikelilingi chipsmore.but i beg to differ.atau lebih tepat ketentuan yang maha Esa=)

talking about biscuit leads me to food,glorious foods!ssummer holiday means food festival for me.i ate what i want like there's no tomorrow.konon balik nk cuba kurus but i can see that my aims to shed some weight will go down the drain.all kinds of food seem too tempting to resist.living in penang aka food's heaven really gives me headache of what to eat everyday.malay,chinese or indians?tu belom lagi indon,petani,thais bagai.i had cendol with roti boy yesterday,mee rebus this afternoon and planning t0 buy satu pasar malam esok.see how horny i can get wif food?ahahah.time to repent and back to basic.eat moderately.eat before i get too hungry and stop before i'm full.is it really hard to obey?u tell me!

ish,due to some technical problems,i couldn't post any picture in this entry.tak seronok tadak picture,a bit dull jadinya.however,i'm sleepy now.nite2.see you soon miss blog=)

i'm hOme~

2008-06-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

salam,

how's everyone?

me already home.so glad finally here,reunited with my family.

touched down around 6.35.12hours flite paris-kl really tiring.

aproaching the arrival hall around 7.30..i saw the familiar face of the one and only,incik ichigo.he with one red eye,was standing there with a friend since 6.30a.m.priceless.syian awak sakit mata eh.tp npak saya trus baik kan?hehe....

half and hour later,kakak n mak arrived.missed them so much.both of them have shed some weight i noticed.mak kata...dia terkejut dengan kehilangan my father.appetite merudum.i understood.it's okay mum.it takes time to forget.we'll be okay.but seeing them again after such a long time was such a blessing.priceless

i have alot of plans this summer hols.

went to kedah to attend kenduri or wedding ceremony then stopped by at a friend's house for evening tea.nice to see my friends again here.dah la dapat 1st class treatment dr the hosts.really worth the 4hours journey.

what's next?????

hehe..tungguuu...

kita layan gambaq lah yerk...

we took over solemnisation by karaoke-ing

ok peeps.later i'll update more okeis.till then enjoy hols!

2008-06-07T18:43:00.000-07:00

salam,

These are US.kami saling menyayangi antara satu sama lain.pergh..ayat takleh blah.but seriously...

i love them.

like family.

=)

gudie luck to all of us.

mari kita ganbatte.

semoga kita berjaya!

where can u get haagen daaz and magnum classic at the same time?

2008-06-04T12:00:00.000-07:00

salam,

syukur Alhamdulillah di atas limpah kurniaNya saya masih mampu menghirup udara segar dan berfikir secara logik menggunakan akal selama 23 tahun and insyaAllah for years to come di atas muka bumi ini.

pergh...macam intro ucapan kat sekolah dulu pulak.

i'd blown 23 candles last sunday.it was a happening event picnicking under the sun with such a lovely weather,what else could i ask for.alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah.the foods were superb,the games were tragically fun(after series of frisbees tersangkut atas pokok) and last but not least,the companies were MARVELLOUS.i'm surrounded by a bunch of not only young,handsome and beautiful in fact great people u can find on earth.
for more pics,please go to my friendster page.owh btw,thanx jay for the pics=)

at 23:

i have a wonderful family.

the handsome and macho incik ichigo

friends that money can't buy

studying medicine in ireland

been to Italy,Belgium,Spain,Switzerland,London,Holland,Australia,UK on holidays!

really...i've never dreamt anything close to these when i was young but boy....God surprises me with so many things that beyond my expectation.only one word i should utter:
Alhamdulillah.

however,i feel a part of my heart is missing..

pak,ur daughter misses u so much.it's different now not to have u at home when i called.not to have you at the airport when i touch down.and not to have you when i need a hug.

i'm no weirdo

2008-05-29T09:43:00.000-07:00

salam,

i just realized i've been tagged by cik azie.yep,we share the same name.common sebenarnya nama kami neh.but different azimah different character i guess.so,while waiting for ayam masak kicap on the stove,let me think of what to write.

The rules:

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog

random and weird bits bout me~
1)i only ate half packet of instant noodle everytime.be it maggi,cintan,indo mee...semua separuh ja.well..i cooked the whole packet but i usually left half of it to eat later.it's too much for me to eat in one go.
2)there's a huge age gap btween me and my sisters and brother.my elder sister is 11 years older while my eldest sister is 16 years older.my brother is in btween 2 of them.i guess 3 of them got bored bullying each other and asked my mum for another victim.
3)saya makan slow mcm siput.ahaks.the first to start.the last to finish.and in a small quantity.a big no-no to buffet sebab nti mmbazir.tapi klau nk belanja saya akn berusaha mkn.heheh.
4)i can sleep anytime,anywhere.yep..sleeping beauty.especially on anything with wheels.dublin bus is my second moving bedroom kot.kapal terbang belom take off,saya dah tido dulu.haha.
5) my pierced ears don't allow earings with studs nor anything non-gold.memilih kan.ahaks.
6)i never owned any barbie dolls when i was a kid.i prefer teddy bears.tu pun boleh kira.
7)i don't eat tempoyak.never and never will.when i was young,i couldn't even smell it.mak kata tak boleh kawen org perak kalu camni.i say nothing wrong with it.he can go back to his mom and have tempoyak as much as he wants.no biggie=)

ok done with the tag.NOW it's my time tagging other bloggers.the lucky people are:~drum rolls~
a'a
aiza
jay
myra
fatin
ekin
sarah amin
if u have done this thing before,just skip okey.
tagging IS caring=)

wake up.time to school.

2008-05-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

salam,

today,i bought an alarm clock.
a petite one.a mini alarm clock i would call it.
one third of normal size of alarm clock.
kecik gila lah.chummel je tgok.heh.
time for fajr prayer starts at 2.49 and ends at 5.07 and it is getting earlier everyday.
so,need extra machinery besides my hp to wake me up.
kalo tak mmg gajah atau dinasour lah jawabnye.hehe.

and one more reason,

have to wake up early everyday to hospital that is bl**dy far away.
gotta say this out loud:

i freaking hate med school.

sekian,
selamat malam.

.enjoy the trip.

2008-05-23T14:53:00.000-07:00

salam.

irish yogurt.
got it for free.
not really nice.
i knew that before i even opened it.
but ate it eventually.
maybe my perception told me all yogurt taste the same.
in fact,it's free.
cuma sedikit sedap atau sedikit tasteless.
but all yogurt should taste the same.
yogurty taste.
selagi tidak keracunan,tidak salah dimakan.
next time i'm going to be more selective.
eat only the nice ones.
so that i dont let the yogurt go into waste.
like what i did today.

ahaha.actually while eating yogurt,my heart was pressuring me to write about one thing.i couldn't even finish the yogurt because i got to excited about this one thing.one happy thing that i really look forward for such a long time.it makes me smile everytime thinking about it.makes me happy when i was down.gives me hope and boast my spirit up.nope,i'm not getting married yet.

at this time next month i will be in the comfort of my own home and beloved family.when i opened my iGoogle just now,my heart is jumping up and down seeing the countdown box.a month to go.i love it.

it's all about life

2008-05-18T15:52:00.000-07:00

salam,

2nd cycle of clinical rotations done.the final cycle begins tomorrow.i have no expectation.no idea how is it going to be like to travel such a long distance and spending a long hours in the bus everyday.deep down in my heart,i have naughty plans to skip some days and just attend the compulsory things in the schedule.hope god will make it easier,not the ponteng part of course.heh.

i did spring clean my room this afternoon.threw out empty boxes and old newspapers.packing old clothes that i'm not keen of wearing them anymore and bring back home.i want to give them away so that i have more space in my wardrobe.i took out a blue t-shirt.that's the shirt worn when i first flew here.i still remember my dad was standing alone at one of the closed counter in KLIA, while my other family members were talking n laughing at the other corner.i walked slowly and stood beside him.there was a moment of silence.then he started talking to me and i noticed his eyes welled with tears.i couldn't look at him as my heart was contained with sadness.silently we cried together.the blue t-shirt made me cried again today.sadly,not with him but just with the memories left behind.i miss him.terribly.
:'(

erm..i'm beginning to have palpitations everytime receiving sms from syir.i'm just not ready to be told that he has to go back to the sea.i can feel.i can sense the bad news.but i kept telling myself,even if he's goin tomorrow,he's still coming back.as he said,
he'll come back.
he will.
for me.

i don't find these days,this week in particular is the best time for all of us.with the stress mounting for final exams,everything just got worst.however,as long as we have friends stood by us,everything just seems possible.yes,POSSIBLE!

humOngOus stOnes!

2008-05-08T15:19:00.000-07:00

salam,

owh daku sangat mengantuk sekarang.tapi takleh tidoq lae.have to wait for Isha prayer which is very late during summer time.11.30 baru masuk waktu.

i was reading on renal medicine as preparation for tomorrow's clinic at 1.30 before my eyes got sore and watery as the results of xtreme sleepiness.so here i am,typing word by word while waiting for the clock to strike 11.30 so that i can perform my prayer and off to my dreamland.

how's ur day everyone?moi?this morning i scrubbed in(not really scrubbed tho,just change my clothes) to OT for the kidney-related operation called pyelolithotomy:

Surgical removal of a renal calculus through an incision in the renal pelvis.

this is quite a major surgery because renal calculus or kidney stones are usually removed
by :
*extracorporeal shockwave lithotripsy which using ultrasonic wave to shatter the stones

*percutaneous nephrostomy to relieve obstruction

*uteroscopy+/-laser or percutaneous nephrolitotomy using keyhole techniqueto remove stones.

pyelolithotomy; open surgery to remove the stones is rarely done since more advance and less painful techniques existed as mentioned above.perhaps the patient i'd seen had a huge collection of stones or calculi buried deep in her kidney that first i thought was the kidney itself on the X-ray.how stupid i am because kidney is not radiopaque on X-ray but the stones are!hahah...i was asking my friend....
"where's the right kidney,i can't see it?"
my friend was like.....
"this is not the left kidney lah,this is the collection of stones!"
"howaaaa......this big arrrr?"
seriously,it resembles the real kidney in terms of size and shape.tipah tertipu.ahaks. they took more than 2 hours to get the stones out with the biggest piece is as big as biskut makmur atau biskut kacang di hari raya.sorry i couldn't find any other objects as comparison nor has the same size as the stone.ahaks.kira satu cointainer kecik full of the removed stones la.although i had to stand more than 2 hours,the experience is more than worth it.

later that afternoon,met wif friends,having scones wif tea while discussing global issues.GLOBAL gila key,dr mesia ke america.from phyton died with perforated bowel to depressed monkey with ascites.muahahah.reached home at 8,lapar dan mengantuk.unlike yesterday,i was released early.sempat buat retail theraphy lagi.di mana?here------->

.blue and flat.
n.i.c.e

okies.enuff for today.c u soon peeps.
muah2x!

.hello SUMMER.gudbye winter.

2008-05-07T15:35:00.000-07:00

salam,

last weekend was a blast!i had a longer weekend than usual.extra one day.thanx to all banks in ireland for always having their day-off on monday.wuhoo!

actually the holiday begun right after everyone finish their rotation for the day from their respective hospitals.the plan was to have dinner at one of the fast food restaurant we are frequent to.but i woke up at 5.30 that morning and i need to qada' my sleeping hours.so i missed the dinner with them.
but worry not,we had basketball match the next day.hehe..tadakla lawan btoi2...only 8 people turned up.so mmg pancit la main full court with only 8 of us.tak smp sejam dah mntak break.hahah.but overall....everyone managed to at least produced some sweats supaya usaha untuk bersenam tidak sesia.hehe...after the game,we just hang out at UCD,university terchenta smbil buat photography sessions.since we are attached to different hospitals...UCD agak dilupakan seketika.so this was the best time utk melepas rindu la kan.

hasil dr photoshoot pada hari itu:

eh..tgu dulu.itu baru warm up pictures.on sunday...we continued the weekend with a small picnic at st stephen green park.a huge park right in the town of Dublin.the weather was lovely,suitable for picnicking.hehe.semua ahli2 geng dipaksa turut serta.ahaha.picnic was just alasan but photography session is the hidden main agenda of gadis-gadis yang amat suka akn lensa-lensa kamera.everyone posed like there's no tomorrow.muahahah.termasuk photographer i would say.=D
despite the unbearable sunshine that shone throughout the day,we really had fun.at least i do.we ate,we sang a few songs while sumone playing guitar,we played cards,gossipping and duduk,berdiri,bangun,meniarap,lompat and tidow amek gambar.tak caya tgok nie....

eating should be the first thing first.

dr lensa ke kacamata.ke the other way around?

black vs greenwhite

r u counting cards?that's the way tina...that's the way....

the duo..singing joget lambak!hahaha.

cewek bunga

adek manis dengan tulips=)

c.h.e.n.t.a

the p.r.o.fessional
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the photographer himself.yang macho lagi kacak.next wik mana pulak?heheh=D

W.E = u.s

those were the activities done last saturday and sunday.wanna know what i did on the extra 1 day of bank holiday?tunguuu......

.sick of sickness.

2008-04-25T17:46:00.000-07:00

salam.

first and foremost,
bear with me.

i hate waking up early knowing that i have another terrible day to go through
i hate when i'm not being able to use both nostrils to breath optimally
i hate knowing my runny nose is producing mucous non-stop when it is my first time into OT.
i hate knowing that despite the flu and cough,i still have to go into OT.
I hate the fact that how well i palpate the liver,spleen or balloting the kidneys,i hardly can feel them.
i hate when i have to stare down not knowing the answer of the questions being asked
i hate when the registrar just giving me her "mean" look when i say i don't know.
i hate the smell of hospital
i hate hearing that my patient just died 3 minutes ago.
i hate going to clinic and being ignored because docs are busy with tonnes of patient.
i hate the feeling of illness

but somehow,

i love this one line of sentence....

cure sometimes,relief often,comfort always...

=)

may Allah give me more strengh and grant me patience to go through what we call life.
ameen.

.mata yang melihat.

2008-04-23T12:57:00.000-07:00

salam,

actually nothing interesting pun nk tulis.just a quick post on what happen today.

i got up at half past six today.i have to be at hospital 10 mins b4 9.woke up early just to read a few chapters on ophtalmology(a study about structure and funtions of the eye and what can go wrong).sebenarnya,dalam otak saya nie skeeetttt sgt pengetahuan tentang mata ni.structure mata nie bg saya agk complex thus need more reading so that at least i go to the eye clinic with something in my brain.i'm a bit nervous to start my three days of ophtalmology rotation because i know no matter how much i study,i won't be able to grab all the eye tests at once.too many.however, honestly speaking,the eye tests are relatively easier than the tests of the other body systems.cuma nk pick up lambat sket la.nasib saya agk baik tau harini sbb the lecturer cum eye surgeon that i used to hate sebelum nie tidak mngenakan saya.he picked one of us to perform the tests on each other and luckily i was just the other girl who got tested.so my work is easy..act like patient and i deserved an oscar.hahaha..twice.i guessed he knew that i wasn't prepared to perform any test and he let me be what i can do best.hehe.the surrounding and environment at the eye clinic are so peaceful and calm.jauh lah beza dgn A n E.haha.kurang busy and the docs nmpak relax ja.mmg lah kan.ini yg membuatkan saya terpikir nk specialise dalam ophtalmology ja.at least i dun have to work for long hours and suasana pun tenang je.well..a long way to go lagi.we'll see....=D
klau rajin do search for these tests as most of us can do this at home provided ada kelengkapan yg diperlukan la, and they are useful especially for diabetics.diabetes is the risk factor for vision problems and early preventions and measures save us from going blind.most of the eye tests can be found here=)

this website is informative and fun too!

http://www.richmondeye.com/

tomorrow i have to attend 2 cataract surgeries and a glaucoma op.will be in OT(operation theater) for the 1st time.although the ops will start at 8.30a.m,i really can't wait!

oklah nk cont with my reading....mr dervan(bukan nama sebenar),the lecturer aka the eye surgeon yg berbasikal ke uni utk mengajar itu has advised us to read a bit on cataract.takut pulak esok2 saya kena jd main actress pulak dalam OT..tak tau payah lak kan.tak ke haru?hehe.

till then,have a nice day semua!muah!

.the crazy residence years.

2008-04-20T13:06:00.000-07:00

salam.

hye,i'm back.
pooh..poooh...eww..this blog is dusty and full of cobwebs everywhere.
blame it on my daily schedule.i'm busy as a bee everyday.had long days for the past two weeks,when my clinical years have started.with the great amount of stress,sleep is the first thing that comes to mind everytime i reached home hence reducing the time i have to blog.sorry yer...but seriously,i just felt drained out everyday when i got home.
what about weekends?weekend is precious!my precious!(pronounce ala-ala makhluk dlm LOTR tu).hikhik.hang out with good buddies during weekends is a must.yeah during this time,we told stories,catching ups and melepas rindu(di sini juga sesi mengutuk interns,registrars and fellow consultants!)hahaha.....lawak gila.i thought i'm the only one who had bad days in hospitals because of my monstrous registrar,but it turned out that the rest of my buddies have their fair share of same experiences.weh korang...jd registrar atau consultant jgn ganas-ganas ok,apatah lagik interns.serious tak best!

i'm attached to endocrinology team and guess what kind of patients i met during clinics?a bunch of people with diabetes type 2 mostly and those with hypo/hyperthyroidism.on the second day,i was asked about hypothyroidism and i blew it.felt so stupid and down the whole day.huhu...tu la..masa pre-clinical malas nk studi.dlm byak2 team,endocrinology was the last thing on my list.i don't mind getting neuro,but when it comes to endocrine,god....i knew nothing!served me right!haha.but as what my mum told me,this is where i learn something.biar bodoh sekarang..jgn bodoh selamanya.kan?that's enough about mad skool,sebut pun rasa nausea(nausea=the feeling of vomitting).haha.next paragraph is sumthing personal.klau korang rajin,bacalah yerk.klau rasa tak penting,abaikan.but i think this deserves a space in my blog=)

last thursday,when i came back from hospital,i got a notice that telling me i've received a parcel and since no one at home,the parcel couldn't be delivered and was sent back to the nearest post office.(ni yg malas ni sbb the nearest tu sebenaqnya kena amek 2 bus).the next day right after a loooong day at hospital,with anxiety plus palpitation,i rushed to the post office.couldn't contain the excitement really..tersenyum sorang2 dlm bus.ahaha.the last parcel i received from malaysia was erm........alamak lama gila smp tak igt dah.lagipun,it's expensive to send anything to me here,so i told my mum no need of sending me anything.when one of the staff handed me the parcel,i just couldn't wait any longer to open it.tapi merepek sgt lah nk bukak depan tu.nti dia kata"hish budak ni,tau la dpt parcel dr jauh,jgn la desperate sgt!".so i quickly get a bus and went straight home.to cut the story short(laepun mst korang pun nk tau apa dlm parcel tu kan?)hehe..

wait...i'll let the pictures tell eveything.

the box!(tak smpat amik pic dgn wrapper dia sbb tak sabar trus bukak.ahaks)

what's inside?jeng..jeng..jeng..

the very shweet memory lane card

the bestest tea in the world,always my fave strawberry tea from c.highlands.i've tasted different kind of teas from around the world but trust me,this is the best!

the osram energy saving daylight bulb.dublin sucks,semua bulb kaler oren.sakit mata and gelap.sekarang bilik saya dh cukup pencahayaan!=D

the unique sarawak keychain(nk gantung apa ek kat keychain nie?)

and last but not least,

the veryyyy cute hoodie dress from here--->

eh,wait a sec! there's one more thing in the green plastic bag kan?hehe..yg tu biarlah rahsia key.
=p

from who?

i think i gave enough clue/clues.

terima kasih daun keladi,
lain kali boleh la hantar lagi!

ihiks!

thanx awak.the parcel really made my day especially when everything else seems to fall apart.doakan saya kat cni yerk. 2 more years and insyaAllah we'll be closer to each other.

so..that's the stories behind my hibernation.want more?

tunggu.....

i'll be back....

with more interesting stuffs

insyaAllah.

till then.take care peeps=)

a productive day.saturday it is.

2008-04-05T14:14:00.000-07:00

salam.
may u all be in the best of health and iman.

first of all,
THE WEATHER IS CRAP THESE FEW DAYS!yesterday it was 14 degree celcius and today is 3 degree celcius!wth?

however despite the freezing state of dublin,my day was wonderful alhamdulillah=)

saturday started off with EnT and ophtalmology exam,followed by lunch berjemaah kat clonskeugh mosque and the best part was of course sesi membeli belah with dearest freinds.
what a day!

it's been quite a long time we didn't hang out like this.exams,pcp project,skills workshops....all of these have taken our time all together.since semalam(or perhaps yesterdays)mr jay dah sebok2 msg kat facebook asking us to make ourselves available after exam.not to let him down,we just followed whatever plans he had in mind.turned out,today mmg productive. . i ate a lot today.A LOT!starting from tandoori chicken with rice for lunch followed by mocha frappucino and kebab SPAR for dinner.eh,ada lagi,half cup of curly fries from mcD.hoho,what an achievement for me in terms of quantity of foods i stuffed in my tummy.no leftovers today,suma licin di ngap oleh saya.(nasi di clonskeugh adalah impossible untuk dihabiskan oleh saya dan kebab SPAR selalunya adalah meal saya untuk 2 kali).maybe this is what i called post-exam hunger where the amount of food eaten proportional to the difficulty of the exam.i rather not to talk about the exam as it was very very frustrating.igt kami nk amek postgrad exam ke hapa?dahla negative marking,minus 1/2 okay...klau salah 2 dah tolak i markah.grrrr......ok just ignore about the exam.

supposedly,we'll be watching awake and 27 dresses tonight but due to some technical problems,instead of watching movie,we proceded to mcD,finished up kebab and off we went home.dah lotih sebenarnya.hiks.dengan tak cukup tidonya last nite,arini pulak berjalan sana sini,mmg all of us were exhausted.so there goes my saturday..

owh i have an interesting story to tell.last thursday,i was supposed to go to holles st maternity hospital for the 2 hours lecture on postnatal care(mother and neonates)postnatal care is the care taken or procedures done just after delivery.neonates is the newborns from day one to one month old.the 1st hour is about postnatal care of the mother and the second hour dealt with neonates.our prof(the scariest prof who scolded students who eat and drink in class,not even plain water from your own tumbler or water bottle!) actually showed us fresh placenta(in malay we called it 'uri').according to him,it was delivered early that morning.the class reaction was eeeuuwww...errgghhh...eee......grosss.....hahaha..hahah.i still remember,when i was young,when my sister gave birth,my mum was the one who cleaned,wrapped it up and buried them.i was asking my mum to have a look at it but it was a big no-no for a child to see it.ntah kenapa i pun tatau.but today,huuu..dh tgok pun and i'll be seeing it again nxt yr when i have to deliver babies in my obs and gynae rotation.it looks like a fresh meat with very red coloration and it smells.that's how i see it.hehe.cool huh.med students lain maybe dah tgok berpuluh-puluh,but as a first timer,it's erm.....pelik.hihi

sekadar gambar hiasan

for your information,i'm going to start clinical attachment this monday for 3 weeks at mater hosp before continue with surgery at st vincent's hospital for another 3 weeks and lastly to the yet unknown peripheral hospital for the final 3 weeks.wish me luck peeps.i've no idea nor expectation how is it going to be like but i do hope it's a pleasant experience and fun?...at least useful in my future career.

oklah,need to manage my room kemas-kemas.hope to see u soon.stay tuned readers!=D

never-ending works

2008-04-02T13:58:00.000-07:00

salam.

sorry for the long hybernation.took my time to recuperate.to face new challenge in life.
alhamdulillah.everything seems to be better.there are still remnants of sadness but insyaAllah,time will heal and i hope for more happy things to cheer me up.

what a hectic week i've been going through now.just finished with a group project.feel like a huge stone had been lifted up from my shoulder.the professional clinical practise(PCP)presentation this afternoon went well.alhamdulillah.although we have been bombarded with so many questions from the panel judges and fellow classmates in Q and A session,we managed to answer them well despite nervousness and shaky voices that have been disturbing us throughout the presentation.well done groupmates!let us wait for the marks patiently and i hope they gave us what we deserved after series of meetings and a significant amount of efforts that have taken most of our precious time.

next to come:PCP mcq(tomorrow) and EnT mcq(this is horrible as the exam costs us 50%of our final exam marks and it is on saturday!yeah irish people drink everyday so weekend is nothing.)

in this kind of time where free time seems impossible,it would be better if my beloveds are around.mak,kakak and syir.good friends are not excluded.their presence would definately make a difference.but erm....reality sucks.here i am,so far away from home,studying till midnite and woke up the next morning for the sake of doing exams and the cycle goes on.or should i be grateful for the life i chose?

i need a break!

strolling along the beach would be a perfect idea tambah-tambah ada ice-cream sekali..perghh..

okaylah,nak continue reading PCP.btw,sumone went up to cameron highlands untuk bergambar but ended up shopping!apa kes?ahaks!

.dari DIA kita datang.kepada DIA juga kita kembali.

2008-03-19T05:00:00.000-07:00

salam.

saya terima.
saya redha.
saya kena redha.
ini janji Allah.
setiap yang hidup pasti akn mati.
hari ini hari dia.
bagaimana dengan hari kita pula?

kata orang,hilang ibu atau bapa tiada pengganti.
mmg tiada pengganti.
dia berdiri di depan,di belakang dan di kanan kiri saya setiap masa.
dia berjanji akan doanya untuk saya setiap ketika.
dia menaburkan cintanya tanpa sempadan dan syarat untuk saya.
tenaga dan wang ringgit untuk saya?tiada ukuran.

i was born 11 years after my elder sister.
so i'm always his little girl,the stubborn one.
i still remember,when i was a little kid,when he came back from work he caught me in his arm and kissed me wildly with his misai and i struggled to make him let go of me .i hated it.he even kissed me gud nite and i wished him the same before i go to bed.every single nite..i dun remember when everything had stopped but i remember i felt shy about it because big girls don't do it anymore.
but now,when u ask about my father,that is the 1st thing that comes to mind.

i miss him when he puffed out his cheeks to mock me when i was sulking.
i miss him when he scolded me for not being punctual or woke up late in the morning.
i miss him when both of us berebut for the same kueh on the table because we happened to like the same kueh.
i miss him the most when we go fishing together.it's like a routine hobby we shared together,me,him,my mother and my sister.it's like a small picnic and we ate nasik lemak while waiting for the fish.we teased each other for not getting any fish yet.mak mesti terasa sebab tiada siapa nk tolong dia lepaskan ikan sembilang yg berduri dr kail lagi and what she or we will miss the most is he's no longer here to go fishing again.
i'll miss him when seeing the fishing rods by the wall(his is the longest and heaviest one)

saya akn rindu melihat teksi merahnya di depan rumah.
saya akn rindu naik teksi free of charge
saya akn rindu pewangi teksi yang saya akn pening setiap kali naik sbb pewangi itu oren.
dan saya akn rindu saying proudly"bapak saya seorang pemandu teksi"

he's no longer here.
he's no more with us.
he left.

to my beloved father,
rest in peace father,because we are here to look after mak,and as u had promised me before,i will always send u doa as long as i live.
semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.
ameen.

.the not so beautiful life.

2008-03-16T18:51:00.000-07:00

salam.

when i'm thinking about my own problems,they are the biggest that one could have.
but just now when someone poured out her problems to my ears,my perception changed.there's no problem that is too big nor too small.if u think yours is the most annoying and frustrating ones,go listen to other people's prob.surely u'll be grateful for what god has tested upon you.at least you are not the only one who's carrying the burden of never ending problems.lots of people out there dun have the solutions of their problems for years.even some take the short-cut,comitted suicide.nauzubillah.bila ada masalah sekarang...i easily gave up.i guess it's hard to be strong like some people.i'm scared of being alone.i'm scared of everyone is leaving me and i end up growing old alone.i'm scared if everyone is happy with their own family while i'm all alone with no one beside me.im just scared being alone.

don't go away.stay with me.that's all i'm asking for.

.kawan.

2008-03-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

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salam.

masa mula-mula nk tulis..terpikir gak,tajuk ni cm buhsan.even the word itself is plain boring and v. typical.letakla sahabat ke...teman akrab ke...rakan baik ku ke...tapi i insist nk letak juga .kawan.
ada apa dengan kawan ni?

meh saya nk cerita.pernahkan kamu rasa bahagia sebab ada kawan?pernahkan kamu-kamu menangis sebab terharu atau sedih kerana kawan?pernahkan kamu dan kamu betol2 nak peluk kawan kamu kerana rindu atau lama tak jumpa?hurmm...mungkin ini semua saya katakan kerana saya perempuan.emotional kata org laki.hahaha....maybe the situation is a bit different untuk lelaki bcos they seldom show their emotion towards a friend.

ok..berbalik tentang kawan.i've been thru all of the above.sometimes in friendship,there is up n downyer.hari ini,kamu rasa dia lah kamu kamu dunia akhirat...the bf.tahu apa?the best friend.better one,the bff which stands for best friend forever.nak lebih lagi?the bffffff.best friend forever and ever and ever.....tapi the next day maybe things will change.u fight about something and boom!no more best friend.i hate u..u hate me..but if dia btol2 kawan kamu...atau pun kamu btol2 rasa persahabatn tu ikhlas,kamu akn cari penyelesaiannya.maafkan dia.bagi peluang kepada dia.actually peluang tu untuk kamu juga.mesti lebih manis fship tu bukan?at least next time,kedua-dua kamu lebih menjaga percakapan dan batas-batas dalam persahabatan.

bila saya boleh luahkan apa sahaja yang saya rasa,be it sedih,gembira,apa hal je lah dengan seseorangan....saya rasa gembira,lega sbb at least ada org sudi mendengar..happy bila dia gelak-gelak bersama saya dan terharu bila dia menangis bersama-sama saya bila saya sedih.dan saya juga akn cuba sebaik mungkin memberi diri saya untuk dia.the principle is easy.give and take.she listen to you and u listen to her.maybe at times...i'm being selfish.or the other one is being selfish.but there must be rooms for improvement.be open-minded.talk to each other about what went wrong.that is what i've learnt from my past experiences.u realised ur mistake and u improvise.mungkin org kata friends,they come and go.but i least i keep the good ones with me.saya dah rasa pahitnya hilang kawan baik.tapi bila dia kembali,saya tahu saya tak kehilangan sebenarnya..dia ada,cuma saya tak nampak dia berdiri bersama2 saya dimana2.saya juga ada kawan,kawan smp ke syurga saya pgl.sbb dia juga msih berdiri utuh untuk saya.w'pun macam-macam dtg menduga,saya tahu dia ada.bila saya pass exam saya,saya tahu dengan siapa saya nak kongsi kelegaan dan kegembiraan itu.bila saya rasa saya tak berdaya untuk menghadapi hari-hari mendatang..saya tahu dari mana saya akn dapat semangat saya kembali klau bukan dr kawan-kawan saya.it's easier to share sumthing with the ones yg tahu and faham akn saya,keadaan diri dan hidup saya.and i called them my friends.bukankah org kata antara benda plg manis dalam dunia ni adalah cinta?saya tak nafikan tetapi jikalau kamu ada tekanan dalam percintaan,apa lagi yg tinggal?the safest relationship in the world is friendship,i think.lupakan keluarga seketika kerana saya tak mahu membandingkan pertalian darah di sini.it's about how we trust strangers and include them in our own personal life.seorang kawan saya ada berkata,"how do we cherish our friends?by including them in our dreams!"and there's a saying by Imam Ghazali,"sahabat yang baik adalah sahabat yang selalu mengingati sahabat-sahabatnya di dalam doanya".

sebenarnya entry ni dibuat setelah sesi luahan perasaan dengan kawan saya.di tgh2 perbualan kami sedar...what would we do without each other..tentunya hidup lebih rugi sedikit tanpa kawan.hidup di perantauan mcm saya juga amat memerlukan kawan-kawan di sisi.housemates,coursemates,really meant a lot to me.imagine waktu keluar makan bersama-sama...travelling together,bincang soalan apa nk keluar in exam...itu semua adalah benda-benda kecil tetapi bernilai untuk saya,even buat saya tersenyum bila fikir-fikir balik.

in conclusion,sahabat bagi saya adalah anugerah tuhan yang plg bernilai buat saya.ini mcm ayat dlm novel kan?haha...tapi i dunno how to put in words as to appreaciate my friends.so selagi boleh....saya mahu kalian bersama2 saya smp mati and klau diizinkan tuhan,sampai ke syurga.

go on and be happy=

2008-02-29T12:01:00.000-08:00

sedey la.

2008-02-26T16:51:00.000-08:00

salam.

tak byk nk cakap malam ni.
tapi sgt sedey.
nak bercerita,silap timing pula.
esok saya cuba lagi.
doakan saya.
dapat tiket murah balik mesia.
sbb saya nak sgt balik.
jumpa mak,bapak dan kakak tersayang.
doakan saya ye.

don't u want to have kids?

2008-02-25T16:04:00.000-08:00

salam.

after a dosage of love,i feel like blogging=P

p/s:ni topic 18sx kot.budak2 tutop mata.

vasectomy.
this a form of male sterilisation.more effective than female sterilisation (1/2000 failure rate after 2 negative semen analyses compared to female sterilisation with failure rate of 1/200 women).ini bermakna,secara kasarnya,u won't be able to have kids after u buat vesectomy ni.owh ya,vasectomy is ligation and removal of a small segment of vas deferens,thereby preventing release of sperm.sebenarnya saya nak cerita,once, i've read in CLEO megazine(tak igt dah issue berapa),satu interview conducted untuk peserta-peserta CLEO's most eligible bachelor.i barely remember the question but it's sumthing like what is the worst thing that can happen to you.so dlm2 byk2 choices tu ada la vasectomy ni.to be honest,yang choices lain tu semua materialistik semata where klau hilang pun still there's sumthing can be done to get it back like posh cars and CUN girlfren.malangnya,byk je contestants yg jwb they dun mind having vasectomy over losing sumthing yang agak2 material tu.hello,r u losing ur mind?u know that there will be no next generation of yours if u buat vasectomy?(unless there's another severe medical condition yang suggestive of u doing so!)sorry..ter emo pulak.bukan apa,u have other options if you intend not to have any offspring now.but who knows if u nak one day,no reversal maaannn.....i was reading my lecture notes when i came across this topic.just to share what i think is right.different people different opinions kan.case closed.

bowling.
hari ni.bola byk masuk longkang.with only one strike,mmg kena boO kat diri sendrik.selamat tak main bersama incik ichigo.konpem dia tanak main dah lenkali.tapi seronok=)wanna know why?the whole 3rd med students,malaysian,irish and canadian actually involved.1st time we do things together.bak kata aini,klau org bom Stillorgan bowling centre ni,maka pupuslah 3rd med UCD class 2010.hehe.dun worry,we all are still safe and sound here.heheh.meriah.masuk longkang pun longkang lah.asal kami bahgia.in addition,we paid only euro2 for an hour game instead of paying the usual euro8++ everytime we played.kopak beb.
no pics uploaded yet.i'll edit once i get the pictures.

okies,special note to kakak and incik ichigo....makan ubat and do sumthing bout ur pening-pening and headache tu.i'm worrying every sec here.i love u both.deeply.
nite.

.bukan goodbye,tapi jumpa lagi 2.

2008-02-24T13:53:00.000-08:00

salam.
this is the continuation of the last entry.enjoy.

Sabtu 23Feb2008
The Maples.

fOOd:
ayamBBQaini,tina,59roebuckcastle,the maples,mashed potatojeemNaiza,coleslawsahak,puding caramelmamai,lasagna,baked pastasarahNcorom,carrot cakesarahaminNjasmine,mee soupnadia,sushisyawal,popia goreng,aiskrimekin,

gAMEs:
charade.pembunuh-penduduk.

majlis ni khas untuk sahabat-sahabat saya yang akan pulang ke penang medical college(PMC) lebey kurang 2 minggu lae.for your infomation,UCD medical school is divided into 2 programmes.the full course which the students complete their whole length of medical studies here in ireland and the other one is a programme where the preclinical years will be done here while clinical years will be done in penang,malaysia.
so to show them how much we love and appreciate the friendship built,we threw them a party.

i will let the pictures tell the rest of the story=)

setting up the fire.

ayam yang diperap semalaman

pembakar-pembakar ala-ala macho.

BBQued chicken!

ice-cream!

we.

us!

and

them:

gambar atas gambar?

sumone said there's a penelope's twin here.guess which one?

3 different expressions here.happy.macam bagus.suka tapi malu perhaps?ahaha

muaaaaahhhhhss.....tok sapa fatin?

ok.ini funny.he looked entertained!didn't he?

the sharp shooters on duty were:

them!i love this pic.sharp!

and

her.penuh gaya=)

the pictures taken were filled with laughters and joy and so did we.the day went by so quickly even i didn't realise that i have to catch the last bus last nite.thank you so much dear beloved friends for the wonderful memories we have shared all this while.may this friendship remain forever and semoga kita semua dirahmatiNya sepanjang masa.see you guys soon in penang.insyaAllah.

p/s:credits to all photographers.too many of them.tenkiu again.

.bukan goodbye,tapi jumpa lagi.

2008-02-24T13:04:00.000-08:00

salam.

entry kali ni akan mengisahkan majlis makan-makan.

Tea party at 59 Donore Avenue.
alkisahnya begini...dalam perjalanan pulang setelah menonton Juno.
tina:ahad ni i nak wat pasembor
(bulat bijik mata saya mendengarnya!biaq btoi?)
aini:yeay...
jay:nak jugak.
aini:dtgla umah
jay:esok aku dtg(saya tatau dia serious ke tak sbb logik ja dia dtg since rumah kami sekangkang kera jerk)
aini:okeylah..kita panggil ramai sketlah dtg.i nk pgl sarah n the geng.
jeem:i okey jerk.nak masak apa lae?
aini:hurmm...kita wat ringan-ringan je lah.ala-ala minum ptg.i nk wat cendol
(sekali lagi bulat mata saya!)
jeem:yeay.i sukaaaa cendol!
aiza:i wat kek lah.

bertemakan tea party....maka berkumpul lah kami di 59 Donore Ave.pasembor=rojak.

antara kandungan pasembor.

the penggoreng and pemotong-pemotong tegar.look at them.so full of concentration.haha

the cupcakes.each of us had our own personalised cupcake with our initials printed on it.

the guests and host

w'pun cendol digantikan dengan kueh tikam lidah,rasanya hampir serupa n i loiiikkeeee=D.
we ate,we chatted,we played games and we enjoyed ourselves in each other's company.that's for sure=)

there's one more event makan-makan.at first i was thinking of writing it in the same entry but it looks like this entry is long enough with just one event.i shall continue in a different post.

when the heels walked gracefully on the runway...

2008-02-20T15:55:00.001-08:00

salam.

pukul 4.15....saya bergegas keluar dari tesco.st vincent hospital-clonskeugh mosque,jauh gila!tapi saya gagahkan diri.sesampainya di sana,kepala dah start berputar.selamat ada tgan aini yang mampu melegakan kepala yg berpinar tu.thanx a lot dear.selepas tu,pegang make-up...start conteng!saya bersama-sama housemates yang lain with fatin and ekin jd make-up artist.seronok.pegang berus make-up..letak foundation,matchkan lipstik.ok...nti sesapa nak kawen..we bg special discount.hehe.around 7,the fashion show started.wah......sapa kata doctors(BAKAL doctors)takdak life?kami bershopping..kami tgok wyg and see...we can even be models u know.hahah.....but in muslimah way laa...mcm-mcm fashion,from nk pi kelas,ke tempat kerja,bersukan dan ke special events.the fashion show somehow gave me more ideas on how to dress up properly as a muslimah.congratulations to all winners.i envied them!30,60,100 euro vouchers of branded clothings tau!bleh bershopping spree la korang eh.incik ichigo(saya tau kamu baca ini!),saya mau satu palette eye shadow baru bleh..macam ini---->
bronze shimmer brick compact by BOBBY BROWN(guna fatin punya tdik...the colurs really blend together kalu mix and match.

atau ini....

pink raspberry face palette by BOBBY BROWN

takpun yang ini....

this is M.A.C eyeshadow palette.on the left is how u see it when it's closed.cool kan pic tu...on the right are the colours inside.cool jugak....

apa?awak nak belikan?hohoho.....makasih la....wat susah-susah ja...ahaks.okey..itu ayat buatan sendrik kerana berangan mat jenin.heheh...tapi serious lawa.......and saya naaaakkk!!!!

haha..macam browse catalog pulak.kalau saya jdik promoter bahagian make-up ni..confirm that particular company or brand will really make money maaannnn......

UCD dolls...thanx a lot for letting us conteng your faces.what i can say is..u girls really made of natural beauty that glows when u were walking on that runway.beutiful ladies with beautiful souls=)

oklah..kepla dah pening-pening..see u guys in the next entry yap~

aku rasa sedikit manis setelah pahit.apa kamu rasa?

2008-02-19T17:03:00.000-08:00

salam.

i feel good.happy.it's been a long time since the last time i felt happy.baru sedar,dah lama perkataan 'gembira' nie hilang.tadi kumpul ramai-ramai,doing what i love makes me truly happy.some people trying very hard to feel happy.they came up with so many things to make themselves happy.tapi kekadang expectation itu tak kesampaian dan gedebuk...hati rasa bergolek-golek.sangat sakit.mungkin itulah punca ramai yang berhenti mencari kegembiraan.sakit itu membuatkan ramai manusia lebih berhati-hati berkongsi kegembiraan.sebab itulah semua yang gembira tidak perlu dikongsi.mungkin ada yang akan gembira bersama-sama,tidak kurang juga menutup telinga memejamkan mata dan membiarkan kegembiraan yang ingin dikongsi itu berlalu sahaja.bak kata org putih"just gone with the wind"....cheewahhh....kadang-kadang saya rasa ada org yang sangat memahami.ada org yang akan bergembira bersama bila mendengar rasa gembira yang saya sampaikan.tapikan....it's worthless!what i felt is worthless...saya hanya mengharapkan seseorngan untuk berkongsi apa yang saya suka,apa yang saya rasa bersama-sama.tapi saya kecewa.hurm.......

saya rasa awak akan faham,
tapi rupanya awak tidak faham,
atau mungkin awak tidak cuba faham,
kerana memahami sesuatu yang penting untuk saya,
tidak mendatangkan apa-apa untuk awak,
atau sekadar membuang masa awak,
ataupun tak cukup penting untuk difahami,
tidakkah awak sedar,
the smallest thing for you could be the most important thing for me,
perkara kecik itulah yang memberi senyuman kepada saya,
memberi saya nafas dalam kehidupan,
tak mengapa,mungkin itu semua tak perlu dicerita,
simpan sahaja di dalam dada.
senang cerita.

itu sahaja.selamat malam.

kau tahu cerita aku,aku simpan cerita kamu.

2008-02-14T15:35:00.000-08:00

salam..

kisah hari valentine di dublin.
pagi-pagi lagi dah dapat senaskhah suratkhabar HERALD di tgn."eh,kenapa pelik paper ni harini?"...nak tahu kenapa?it's pink!yes,every pages!bayangkan suratkhabar sebesar harian metro kat Malaysia tu berwarna pink setiap helaiannya and it's free of charge=)that's how people here celebrating valentine's day.pulang dr rumah kawan di The Goats..naik LUAS ke St Stephen Green Station(LUAS adalah pengangkutan awam macam LRT).masuk-masuk jerk..npk kelopak bunga ros bertaburan atas lantai tren."owh org mmg sambut Valentine".kiri kanan depan belakang saya semua pasangan yg sibuk bercium,showing some love for each other while the girls holding a rose or a bouquet of flowers in their hands .LEMAS!sampai jerk destinasi yg dituju,tanpa berlengah lagi terus cabut keluaq.for me,today is the same as every other day.nothing special.bukan culture saya and i have no one to celebrate with.

kisah JUMPER.

pi tgok wyg dengan aiza.jatuh cinta la dengan hayden christensen tu.haaaaa......kenapa dia sgt gorgeous!i wanna jump around the world with him.paris,rome,egypt(on top of the sphinx)..everywhere possible with a blink of eyes.klau dia tak sudi..nk mntak tolong hiro nakamura lah.pi jepun.dok tunggu org lain bawak pi jepun...mcm nak tak nak jerk.=(..berbalik kepada cerita tadik,the story was ok.wasn't up to my expectation tho.bukan tak best..cuma 'kureng' sket....hurmmmm...pi tgok sendrik lah,baru tau macam mana kan.it's the art of teleporting that never fail to amaze me!

the jedi cum jumper

kisah esok hari.
esok ada psychiatry seminar at St Vincent Hosp from 2-4pm.another long day.org seronok-seronok nak main bowling bagai,saya akn berada di hospital buat sekian kalinya minggu ini.tak apa....balik kepada nawaitu asal..studi itu ibadah..buat dengan ikhlas key azimah.
ptg ada date dengan housemates tersayang.nk tau pi mana?tungguuu.......

oklah semua.mahu beradu.harini hari stress.saya mahu berehat.tata.jumpa lgi.

unwell.

2008-02-13T13:34:00.000-08:00

salam.

baru jerk cakap pasai dah lama tak demam.harini dah separa demam.haiiihh...dugaan.woke up this morning feeling a lil bit unwell.after performing suboh prayer,sms my housemate, telling her i was not going to the 1st lecture.then,had a mug of honeynut cornflakes(syarat je ni sbb nak mkn ubat) and telan sepeket lempsip.to tell the truth,i hate the taste of soluble drugs(the kind yg kena larutkan dalam air dulu tu..)rasa macam air 100 plus,tapi tak sedap punya version.but what to do,that's the only thing i have in my drawer.immediately after that,i went back to sleep.sedaq-sedaq,alarm dah bunyi.10.30!gone 3 lectures.haha.unfortunately,i couldn't bermanja2 longer under the duvet since i have group meeting at 1 followed by clinical skills workshop at 2.alhamdulillah i felt better,jumped off the bed,took my shower and off i went to uni.

group meeting tak berjalan lancar.we got a topic that is closely related to our life as a medical student.the title is Medical students:professional behaviour and fitness to practice.we have to continue the discussion tomorrow because it took more than an hour and it was time for our workshop.at least we came up with a draft on how our project will be done.progression is important.and with 'samurai' present,i'm sure the project is going to be finished on time.kaaannn myra.i told you.he is what he is!
samurai is one of my groupmate that acts like he's the bos and always wanted everything to be carried out his way.fyi the nickname was given by my irish friends.why samurai?he's cha ya nun aliff.hehe.see the relevance?

hari ini sebelah mataku kaburrrr....with vision 20:20(alhamdulillah...masih terjaga),not being able to utilise one eye optimally sgtlah menyusahkan.masa dalam workshop tadik,the tutor asked one of us a favor.saya dengan baik hatinya mengangkat tgn to volunteer.she put a drop of eye solution into my left eye and 5 mins later my left eye became blurry.actually the solution is to make the pupil(part of our eye,kira bahagian hitam tu)dilates so it's easier for my friends to spot the vessels.gosh mmg ia dilated atau mengembang dengan berjayanya leaving me with one eye half-blind.macam mana saya tahu ia mengembang sedangkan itu mata saya sendrik?actually i looked into another volunteer's eye who had the same eye solution dropped into her eye.terkejut gila tgok betapa besarnya it dilates and tanya my friend"pupil aku besaq tu jugak ke?"hahah....but being able to contribute sumthing to be learnt by others is satisfying enough=).sekarang nak baca pun kena slow2 sbb focus guna satu mata jerk.esok ada small MCQ exam for professional clinical practice module.wish me luck friends.10%...10% nie...

sila bezakan saiz bahagian hitam mata kanan dan mata kiri 2 gambar di atas

ok.gtg.lae 3 lecture kena revise.have a good day everyone.

it's already 12.40 a.m

2008-02-10T16:37:00.000-08:00

salam all.

apa habaq semua?
harap-harap sehat la hendaknya.i'm fine.hehe.alhamdulillah..dah lama rasanya tak demam atau kena selesema.petanda baik.i used to get sick easily.sekejap-sekejap demam.selesema toksah cakaplah.minggu ni baik,minggu depan kena balik.but i guess i've been ignoring my health back then till i start taking few precautions to avoid from being sick that often.hurmm...usaha itu perlu sebenarnya.a dose of vit C everynight before bedtime works on me(dengan kehendak Allah jua)=)

actually i miss blogging.eventhough i have no interesting topic to write about,the urge to just type whatever i can has gone over the threshold of laziness.another petanda baik.hihi.sekejap saja weekends.esok dah isnin...owh another monday blues.another cycle of early morning days will begin tomorrow.if only i could extend this precious weekend....huhuhhu.esok after lectures kena pi crumlin children hospital for 2 hours session.seeing patients and taking history,these are definately what i'll be doing tomorrow.klau masuk ward takpa gak,ni depa guna the same approach as what we've been doing in last sem.is not that i hate going to crumlin,but the lecture or seminar or sesi bersama patients tu amatlah membosankan(selamat jumpa kanak-kanak,terubat sket hati ni).plus the travelling really sucks my energy dry.the only thing that i like is the journey back home will only take one bus instead of 2.straight away home after hospital session.bahagia.enuff said.

aren't they adorable?lately i have this easy feeling being around babies and kids.adakah ini petanda baik juga?kihkihkih

owh lupa,penantian dah berakhir.i'm glad u'r home at last.enjoy and make it worthwhile....

okielah,it's time to Zzzzz....let's hope for a better day!nite.

hoyyyeeeeahhhhh...rasa nk lompat-lompat gitu=)

2008-02-04T09:45:00.000-08:00

salam,

apologize sgt kepada semua org sebab kelambatan nk post entry baru.been bz with school.yeah,new semester is pretty hectic with lectures in the morning and workshops or hospital visits in the afternoon.pendek katanya,keluaq pagi...balik dh gelap.during winter,night time is longer than daytime.around 5 dah gelap.cuaca pun sgt lah unpredictable.it could be bright with sunshine in the morning and raining in the afternoon.sejuk!

first of all,results for last winter exam were out this morning.alhamdulillah...everything is good for me.the exam is the hardest so far sepanjang saya bergelar"mad student" ni.it's horrible!still remember i nearly cried after gastrointestinal diseases paper.gosh....mmg susah lah.no idea what crap did i write as anwers but well...it's done and the result tak mengecewakan=))

after checking my result,the first one that i called is my mother.couldn't contain my happiness and the sense of relief in me.she sounded happy upon hearing it.very happy.and i'm happy to make her happy. while we were in the middle of conversation(with giggling and laughing with each other)i heard my mum shrieked so suddenly.bunyi mcm a rat just crossed her feet.saya pula yg panic.i asked her what had happened?she hesitate to tell me at first,but after a few times begging,she told me at last.rupanya...my dad just poke her hip when he came across her talking on the phone on the way to the kitchen.saja je nak kejutkan my mum.hahahahah.....no wonder dia malu2 nk bitau what happen.tetiba timbul rasa bahagia di hati kecil saya.that simple gesture really touched me deeply.they have never done those kind of silly things since i was born.not in front of me.my parents are not a romantic couple, to tell u the truth.but what had happened makes me realize....in their 60's and after 41 years married to each other ...they are still into each other.in fact the love has grown stronger after all this while.they even shared the same hobby,FISHING!!they both,very passionate about fishing.sampai jiran2 pun tahu,klau ketuk pintu,no one answer tu mmg sah lah diorang kat pantai lah tu.now i know why my mum fought so hard for what she believed is hers,while other women would simply give up and let theirs slipped away.....ehem..tetiba emotional pula.
love u both so deeply!that's all i can say.

and...to my bestest friend,
one sms has changed my day.
love u too ;P

hurmm...apa nk cerita lae yerk...owh ya,ttg semester baru.honestly i like this semester more than the last one.in this semester we have lectures,skills workshops and hospital visits.if we are lucky,we get to visit patients in the ward and do history takings or physical exams on them.now i feel like a medical student.=)bukan apa,after 3 and a half yrs(plus foundation)going to lectures,reading and do exams at the end of semesters,i eventually felt sick n bored.at least now we have chances to really experience what we have been taught all these years.all the modules pun mostly interesting...psychiatry,paed,obstetric and gynaecology,history taking,therapeutic intervention and not to forget professional clinical practice.last subject tu spoilt sket sbb there's a project we need to do even in 3rd yr.i thought i'm done with group project this sem but...hmmmmm.....ada lagik.it's ok..it's a part and parcel of being a student.

oklah,enuff for today.nti ada cerita best lae saya post lagi key.till then,take care everyone.senyum selalu=)

kebahagian dalam tanganNya=)

2008-01-07T14:19:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum wbt.

apa kabar hati?apa kabar iman?hopefully both are both well maintained physically and spiritually=)dengan mengingati Allah,hati akn menjadi tenang...owh itu selingan.heh.

i just got back from UCD sport centre,played basketball and galah panjang(org penang panggil 'toi') with my besties,then dropped by at the mosque,had my dinner at the restaurant.briyani with tandoori chicken.sedap tak terkata tapi kaannn...saya lae teringin roti garlic naan makan dengan aym tandoori kat penang nun.tambah2 sprinkle some lemon juice sket...perghhh.....now i miss everything back home=(

balik-balik trus flat atas katil.the games had sucked out my energy dry.nk melangkah pun tak larat.huhu...so apalagi..buka lappy baca blog.tapikan..entah kenapa...most of the blogs that i've read so far are having the same theme for their entries:sadness!macam bulan nie bulan kesedihan pula.gosh..azimah fears this word so much till she couldn't mutter it.yeah...this word reminds her of something really hurtfull and v.painful that she had endured once.in fact,it nearly drove her mad.but here she is..still holding on,in fact stronger than before.cheewaaahh ayat poyo.tapi btul...personally i think every problem that being tested on us brings hikmah that only HIM could tell.or you could think this way,every obstacle that we face should bring us closer to HIM,the almighty.isn't it good as we being tested repeatedly(smp kdg2 kita rasa,kenapa asek2 kita ja yg dapat?) meaning God loves us more?Alhamdulillah..itulah the magic word yang paling seswai kan kengkawan.be patient as patience is part of imaan.

okeylah..kita tamau sedey-sedey....senyummmmm selalu key.tomorrow i have to start packing for another leisure trip .this time to spain!mst ada org kata,ish budak nie...asik jalan jer....tak studi ke?byak duit?here are the explanations:
~this is the longest holiday i have before stepping into clinical years(summer hols is exceptional).my usual 3 weeks of ester hols will be cut short in to a week ONLY!
~i didn't go anywhere last yr during 3 weeks of ester hols except to newcastle and i was back in dublin the next day because of some financial prob.
~i worked my ass off during weekends and school hols to gain some $$$.well... it was last sem to cover my hols this year plus an increase in allowance starting last sem.alhamdulillah.

so,pray for my safety during the trip,selamat sampai ke spain and selamat pulang kembali ke dublin to face another form of challenges in the medical world that i love so much(what?am i joking?)

till then,take care folks=)
salam

a long way to 2.5

2008-01-06T07:18:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum wbt,

hello everyone.how's ur day?mine better than yesterday i guess.today is sunday.nak keluar pun kedai-kedai untuk bershopping akn tutup lebih awal.my initial plan was to spring clean my room which is very dusty and messy and the moment.but after doing some cleaning at the sink area,saya terlupa i suppose to call my mak today and so i did.we talked about a lot of things.byk betul nk bergossip.somehow tadik saya terperasan yg she worries when i told her i only had a slice of bread for brunch and i haven't figure out yet what to eat for lunch or err...dinner!itulah seorang mak.sekecik2 issue is sumthing to worry about if it is involving her child.mak,i'm still healthy and tembam w'pun makan roti jerk.dun u worry key..and lately my nafsu makan tak membimbangkan sgt...in fact i force myself to eat.

2.5.by that number,jika tiada aral,i will become a doctor..my dream...her dream....their dreams.and i hope by 2.5,i don't have to wait alone anymore.waiting for something my heart wants so terribly...kerana sekarang saya terasa letih menunggu.tired of convincing myself it could be next week,or next month........god knows!
tapi saya tak pernah menyesal.cliche!tapi itu saya.i found what i really want.so apalah sangat penantian tu klau yg nk dibandingkan dengan org lain yang telah menunggu dan masih terus menunggu.sesungguhnya kesabaran adalah nikmat dalam kepayahan.u learn and be grateful of what u have learnt.sesungguhnya tuhan ada rahsiaNya.....saya percaya!=)
actually i'm missing my seaman.sob..sob..sob..

p/s:mak tanya"dah gemuk eh sekarang?".saya jawab"tak,tak mkn byk pun".sungguh.tak tipu.heheh....saya wonder kenapa mak lagi concern?mak ada calon barukah?

till then.salam=D

melayu di mana-mana-part 2

2008-01-05T17:37:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t.

apa kabar sekalian yg membaca.ok setelah sekian lama tergendala,sekarang baru nak sambung perjalanan cerita tentang swiss.owh sebelum saya mula part 2 nie,let me tell u something.from now on,the language and words in this blog will be kept simple by the owner.if i feel like writing in malay,then malay would be the language and vice versa.by doing this,i feel free to let go whatever in my mind.so bear with me if the language becomes like rojak,ok?

before we left st.moritz

so hari tu saya stop dekat st.moritz kan.from st.moritz,we boarded a train,to zermatt.the journey took about 8hrs to reach zermatt.basically the train is for sight-seeing.mahal jugak la untuk nak naik train ni.tetapi keadaan train nie sgt best.well facilitated i would say.ada explanation about the places as we passed by.but we couldn't be bothered to listen to it since we've been busy appreciating the nature.masyaAllah..that's the only word that i kept on saying all the way.ciptaan yg maha Esa mmg superbly perfecto!then we had our lunch on the train.mahal mmg mahal tapi best and i actually tried ratatouille.yeeerrrr...cm dalam movie tu.hehe.it's vegetables.no meat!=)w'pun ada beberapa insiden kurang menyenangkan berkaitan dengan seats yg kami duduki,alhamdulillah we managed to stick together and amazed by the wonders of nature.

in the glacier express.nice train.it was built for sight-seeing with open air concept.full of glass windows instead of normal erm...(train bina guna apa eh?my bad but i hope u geddit.)

pemandangan sepanjang perjalanan,masyaAllah!

sesampainya di zermatt,it's quite dark already.nothing much to do.so apalagi..while waiting for the train to interlaken,we shopped for souvenirs at the nearby shops.zermatt is a small town tapi i kind of like this small town.i imagined myself in a movie,strolling along shops and restaurants dengan salji memutih dan pokok christmas bergemerlapan.cheeewwwaaahhh...owh ya,it was a few days before christmas.so mmg cantik la dengan lampu kelip-kelapnyer.

a small town called zermatt

around 6.13pm,we continued our journey to interlaken where we spent most of our nights at.one more thing that never fail to amaze me is the trains.bermacam-macam jenis train with different velocity.ada yg setingkat,2tingkat,berkerusi lembut,tak kurang juga kodi berkerusi kayu.tapi the service v.punctual and sharp.bagus betul.never late.cuma sekali je the train stopped suddenly dalam terowong.cuak juga sbb dh malam but alhamdulillah..kami berjaya sampai ke interlaken ost dengan selamatnya.we had to change train again to go to interlaken west,where our hostel is.nak cari hostel malam2 cm agak susah,but we managed.hehe.since dh malam and it was almost a day we spent on train,we had a gudnite sleep.

the next day,off we went to wengen.plan asal is to find a place to ski.hehe.dah dtg jauh-jauh ni,kena la try walaupun i had no idea how to ski,sumthing most of us never have done before.from interlaken we went up to wengen.perjalanan ke wengen mmg dipenuhi dengan pemandangan yang cantik.tak percaya?nti i letak gambar:

wengen ni besar sket dr zermatt.people with skiinyer attire were everywhere.and scenery kat sini jugak mcm dalam muvie.masa tgah jalan2 nk cari tempat sewa pakaian ski,ada la satu makcik omputih ni tegur.maybe we looked so lost kot.hehe.she was v.kind to give some advice on where to rent the ski attire,where to ski and the xtra bit is wether we qualified to ski or not.sounds dissapointing to us but she said,we better forget it.what????penat2 dtg jauh2 dia ckp tak payah.however..we didn't listen to her.we rented whatever is needed and before that we beli tiket to kleine shidegg to ski.masa try2 baju suma,org kedai tu cakap why don't u guys try kat bukit kecik kat belakang sana.and akhirnya we spent the half the day practising kat bukit kecik tu bersama budak kecik tgh belajaq dan ditertawakan oleh mereka sebagai bonus.but it was fun.well...i had fun,although badan sakit2 sbb jatuh countless of time.=) owh ya..we didn't go to kleine shidegg after realising that it's not necessary at all.hehe.bukit kecik pun dh pancit.hehe..

wengen...a colection of pictures that potrait it.

having fun skiing or err....posing?=D

okies..i think i better stop.this entry ig getting unbelievably looonnnggg...hehe.nti saya smbung okie.next one coming soon definately before i'm going to spain pulak this wednesday.c ya.
salam~

p/s:credit to jay baharin for the beautiful pics

it's already 2008!

2008-01-02T17:26:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t,

first of all,HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!i'm suppose to write this entry yesterday but i was in no mood of writing.sorry for the delay but hey,baru 2 haribulan kan..so i assume my new year wishes still can be accepted right?huhu.when i mentioned about new year,something else occur in mind...new year resolutions...haa...soklan cepu perak tu...hehe.what is/are your resolution(s)?mine?i have a few...not too many.bukan apa,takut klau list down banyak-banyak tak termampu nk buat.hehe.so here goes:
~i want to be someone better from last year(ini mmg repetition since we need to move ahead with improvement!)
~improve my grade(medicine is hard but at least i want to try to score better in clinical years!yes peeps,i'm stepping up into another level that requires more skills besides brain!=D)
~this one is purely this year's resolution.i want to practice what i truly believe.be a better muslim,heart and soul.lots have to be done for this one.and not to forget,sacrifices are to be made...but i'm ready..may God always guide me through.....
~nak shed some weight.haha..sound funny tapi nak cubalah.hahah...
~yang lain biarlah rahsia...hehe

okies...whatever your resolutions are,i wish u all the very best of luck in achieving them.biarpun kadang-kadang kita tak berjaya mencapai apa yang kita nak,usaha yang dilakukan sesungguhnya tidak sia-sia...setiap yang baik itu ada ganjarannya dan mulia di mata tuhan.=)ganbatte!!

sekian.salam tahun baru!

melayu di mana-mana-part 1

2007-12-28T01:48:00.000-08:00

salam to all.

this is a delayed entry.i supposed to write this entry as soon after i got back from switzerland but syndrom M(malas le) mengatasi segala.it's better late than never right?okies this is roughly about my visit to switzerland,the heaven on earth!

there were 7 of us in this trip.we pushed off around 12.30 in the afternoon from dublin airport and landed at zurich airport 1 hour and 55 minutes later.the swiss time is an hour advance from dublin time.sesampainya kami di sana,we straight away looking for bank and money changer to withdraw some money.1 swiss franc equivalent to .63 euro.after that we went to find a license to move around switzerland.train tiket laa....in switzerland,train is the main mode of transportation.after a short discussion,we agreed to buy 8 days swiss pass that enabled us to board trains,busses and also ferries everywhere,anytime around this country.best kaan...but there goes my 200++euro!yep it's expensive.looking at the bright side,we can go anywhere freely.takyah susah2 nk beli tiket baru,beratur and etc.lagipun nawaitu mmg nk jalan.hihi.after we had our lunch,we straight away heading to st moritz,the 1st destination.nk sampai sini mmg susah.in order to reach st. moritz,we need to change trains. we got off the 1st train and bila tgok tiket tu,tak paham pula how the train system works.we misunderstood the schedule and lebey malang lae we missed the 2nd train by 2 mins only.it's hard for tourists like us who do not understand french and bahasa swiss ni.luckily the 7 brains work well together and we managed to find another route to st.moritz.we arrived v.late,around 11 pm.the journey was around 3-4 hours and it's already dark.st.moritz is beautiful even at night.this a heaven for professional skiing fans.our hostel situated quite far from the train station but shortly after we arrived,a bus came and took us to our hostel.well not exactly in front of the hostel's door,we got to walk around 10mins gak la.it was hard to locate the hostel.we knocked the wrong hotel at first.when we found our hostel,it was locked since it's nearly midninght.luckily ada makcik mcgyver tekan2 lock buttons kat tepi pintu and the pintu was unlocked.klau tak alamat tidoq luaq hostel ler.i think the temperature at that time was below 0 degree celcius.freeeziiinnnggg!!!

in the train on the way to st.moritz

st moritz

beautiful huh?look at the peaks.white with snow

the next morning,we had our breakfast at the hostels.it's buffet style and the bfast served beyond our expectations.i had the most delicious,yummy cereal ever.betull!!the cheese and breads all looked like they were home-made and served with style.

what a refreshing morning!

if u notice,there a bunch of malaysians sitting at the next table.we met them before we had our bfast.yg paling best,one of them is my friend from manchester.we 1st met at BTN.what a small world.dtg jauh2 pun jumpa malaysians.kawan pulak tu.seronok sgt...last i met her was when i spent a few nights at her place during this time last year.

next:

more stories in the next post!tunggguuu....

credit to jay baharin for the pics.

.christmas eve.

2007-12-24T14:47:00.000-08:00

salam.

bonjour everyone.just got home from switzerland this evening.WOW!!!i think i fell in love with swiss.seriously the best ever holiday with friends!wacko travel buddies make me gone mad all the way!the places are beautiful with so many breathtaking views sampai rasa klau amik gambaq pun rugi sbb termiss byk menda.lots to appreciate in swiss.GOD's creations are PERFECTLY beautiful.it's naturally beautiful!pics will be uploaded soon since the cameraman might still be in jet-lag mood.hehe.

sneak preview:

2007-12-17T10:17:00.000-08:00

salam.

before i go and make myself a cuppa hot choc atau nama lebeh glamor lagik milo,i would like to post one entry at least during this exam week.exam nearly over leaving me another paper to go.huuuu..seriously this time, all the papers were HARD!i'm expecting worse for tomorrow's.haiya,why couldn't the lecturer at least give us chance to score before we step into clinical years.ni npak gaya cam laluan sukar dan berduri ja.sob..sob..sob..nak studi pun tadak mood,it gets dark v.early during winter days making me feel like sleeping as early as 5pm.sgt tatahan nk abes exam.huhu...tapi sumthing really keeps me going,the thought of going to swiss right after i finish my exam.at the same time,sgt cuak juga sbb swiss is much more colder than dublin and hurmm i dunno how am i goin to survive there.hish....all the preps(appropriate clothes and attire) were done!so tomorrow after 8 lepas exam balik and dah kena start packing.itu lagik satu kemalasan.well....itu akn dipikiqkan kemudian ye tuan2 dan puan2..sekarang ni satu paper lae.i hate haematology.complicated!!!!!huwaa.....yaAllah permudahkanlah!diseases related to blood are not easy and v.confusing.furthemore we cannot rely on past-years questions for clinical vignette since there are hardly repetition in this module unlike other subjects(rajinnyerr lecturers subject ni wat soklan.don't u have other family and personal agenda to attend to?)oklah...malas nk merambu macam2 lae.exam tetap exam but gud news is after an episode of negotiation with my mum,she said this"this time takpa,klau leh lulus pun dh cukup bagus."hoooyyyeaaahhh....thanks mak.i won't take it for granted.i promise...

ok sblom i stop ni gambo gila-gila time stress camni.hehe..

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the precious!

2007-12-10T13:11:00.000-08:00

salam.

alhamdulillah,after nearly 2 weeks(esok genap 2 mgu!)of torturous waiting,the precious has finally arrived!dh nak sakit jiwa tunggu.i think lacking of patience brought me to this stage,pre-schizophrenic state.my lappy akhirnya boleh di switch on dengan bantuan just-arrived power adaptor.nice timing since my winter exam gonna kick-off tomorrow.tak boleh la enjoy sgt with my fave series sbb kena study.huhuh..tapi alhamdulillah again,i again have access to my online study materials which have been abandoned all this while.ni baru Allah tarik nikmat kebendaan and i know i will get it replaced.what if Allah tarik nikmatnya yg lain yg irreplaceable?nau'zubillah hi min zalik.tapi what had happened reminds me that we must always be grateful of what we have no matter how small or big that thing is because we never know the consequences we might face for losing it.alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah...~with an ear-2-ear smile on my face~
been trying to upload the pics of the precious but failed.maybe the the pics are not in the right format because i snapped the pics using my hp.takpalah,next time sbb i couldn't afford to waste more time since i got loads to read(tulih blog takpa pulak?ahaks!)

p/s:doakan saya boleh menjawab exam dengan baik ye kengkawan.pesan imam ghazali:hadiah terbaik buat seorang sahabat ialah sentiasa mengingati mereka di dalam doa kita=)

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cobaan...

2007-12-07T02:55:00.000-08:00

salam.

hari ni saya sgt bengang!dah jumaat tapi adaptor yg saya pesan still not in the country yet.i've traced the parcel,and that's what i got.what do you mean not in the country yet?it's nearly 2 weeks for god sake.what a torturous weeks i have to endure!huwaa...selasa start exam.so friends in ireland,dun ever pesan any brg from china,hongkong atau countries yg sewaktu dengannya.take ages for delivery.kunun nk sampai 6 working days!bloody lies!if only i knew it would take this long to arrive,i probably buy the new one from apple store here straight away.i dun care if i have to pay extra 50euro but dapat on the spot is better than have to wait sampai berjanggut.ya Allah berikanlah aku kesabaran...huhuhu.(mind the language!)

okie...sudahlah meluahkan kemarahan tu kan.sakit ati and cepat tua.today is my mum's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,MAK!u r the greatest mom on earth.i'm thankful to god for giving me YOU!the mom yg tak nag,the mom yg never missed going to school ambil my report card dr sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah,the mom yg never hit me,never once!sekadar cubit2 syg tu normal la kan,and finally the mom yg i can tell everything about me,my life to her.my first and most important advisor dalam segala hal even personal ones.may Allah grant u dengan keberkatan umur yg panjang dan sentiasa disirami nur dan hidayahNya.i love u mak!(so ada org nak belanja new green jubah for u as a buffday pressie eh?best le tu...wait for my hadiah pulak eh)~smile~

okies peeps,doakan saya yg akn start exam tak lama lagi nie key.best of luck to my fellow UCDians.kita boleh!

i need them.thank you!

2007-12-05T14:06:00.000-08:00

salam.

di kala saya asyik dirundung malang,tuhan kurniakan pelangi untuk menyinari hari saya di kala hujan rintik-rintik ni.i received 2 booster shots today.to boost up my self-esteem and to motivate me to stay strong thru thick and thin of life.

one:got a called from sendai,japan.although i received them once every fortnights,this time was different.i thought the vessel is already on it's way back to bintulu sbb the duration is over a week already.selalunya seminngu dia dah smp japan.so i didn't put too much hope in hearing his voice again this week.but miracle does happen kan.hehe.he said the journey was a bit delayed.i really need a bit of advice and some love.these few days have been rough.few times i felt like breaking down and cry.but well...i managed to save my tears for later days.haha.i woke up this morning to pick up call from him.everytime he called,i must be in my selekeh condition dengan suara bgun tidoq.so kan dh kantoi bgun lambat.everytime.huh!but that doesn't matter at all as long as he heard me saying good morning and i heard him saying he misses me everytime.hehe.poyo!ahaks.

two:i received few offline messages that keep my smile throughout the day.my fiend,former classmate and roomate when i were in mrsm pendang is coming over to join me in UCD.teruja gila rasa.to tell the truth,i envied my friends who have lots of their classmates studying together under one roof.sampai boleh bukak persatuan.since i were from new mrsm,tak byak students yg fly ke cni.just two of us,me and shereen,but she's working here.the situation is different.at least with her presence,semangat sket saya kat cni.see u soon rai.for your info,she's pursuing her phd here.yes at 22!amazing kan..she's getting her phd while im only half way thru my 1st degree.tapikan...we are chasing DRs here,so not bad lah kan.hehe.

abes cerita ttg mereka.apa cerita tentang saya?well nothing much.i slept for 3 bloody hours just now.hello azimah,blom malam lagi and furthermore you'll be sitting major exams next week kaaannn?huhu..igtkan saya bila saya terleka ye kengkawan esp my housemates.wake me up when i fall asleep except at night la kan.ahahah.

ok,i got to go.got lots to revise.doakan adaptor lappy saya will arrive soon and SAFELY,then i'll blog like no tomorrow.=)

.akuMAHUkamu.

2007-12-01T07:49:00.000-08:00

salam.
hari ini entry akn dibuat dalam bahasa melayu.sila tahan mata dengan ayat-ayat skema tahap cipan ini.hehe.yerk,arini tetiba rasa nak merepek dalam bahasa melayu.bila tingat orang malaysia dan orang laut,automatik rasa nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu.

katanya mungkin minggu depan dia balik ke bintulu dan trus boleh balik rumah.sign off.baguslah kalu begitu kerana saya mahu kamu hari-hari.bukan seminggu sekali.bukan di tengah laut,di sempadan filipina,atau di perairan jepun.bukan.abaikan perenggan ini jika kamu loya atau nk muntah.harap-harap apa yang kamu kata itu akn menjadi kenyataan kerana pada minggu kamu balik saya akn mula peperiksaan musim sejuk.selepas tamat peperiksaan saya akn berangkat ke swiss untuk bercuti.bagus bukan perkiraan masa.awak balik saya mesti akn bercuti.tapi bagus juga,tinggal kan awak untuk seketika.baru adil.beri masa kepada awak pula untuk merindui saya(ayat ini umpama emetic agent untuk saya juga,tak tau maksudnya apa?sila google dlam kamus perubatan)hikhik.selepas itu kita ada lebih kurang 2 minggu sebelom saya ke spain pula untuk 10 hari.owh saya akn tinggalkan awak lagik?kesian....eh cuti awak kan 2 bulan.lama tu.apalah sgt sepuluh hari tu berbanding 4 bulan saya tunggu awak kan...heheh.lepas tu saya akn pulang semula ke dublin dan 2 hari selepas itu saya akn masuk ke fasa ulang-alik hospital.sekian sahaja luahan hati saya.

entah dapat entah tidak dia sign off(maaf, saya tidak berjaya tukar sign-off ke bahasa melayu) dah berjela luahan perasaan dari saya.apa boleh buat,inikan tujuan blog diwujudkan.hehe.baik,saya mahu bersiap untuk makan malam bersama kawan-kawan.alhamdulillah di kala awak tiada,mereka ada.kawan sampai ke syurga,maksud saya.insyaAllah.

.hiccups.

2007-11-28T12:08:00.000-08:00

salam.
bonjour!
i'm in computer lab at the moment and now it's already 8 past 8.faham ke?2008hr.hehe.im laptopless,eh no,adaptorless...hurmm...actually my power adaptor had burnt itself down last few days leaving me bored without access to the virtual world for a while.actualy i'm not totally disconnected,it's just i couldn't online while i'm home.that's the big problem actually cos i really...i mean reaaalllyyy depend on laptop for entertainment at home.my ugly betty,my house m.d,my youtubing all gone for a while.sobsobsob...i hope the new one is on it's way to donore avenue because i'm already bored to death.huwaaa.....

on the other notes,i just had my french oral and aural tests just now.the aural test aka listening test went well i guess.there were 3 questions altogether and i managed to answer all altough a lil bit confused on the 2nd questions.the same thing goes to the oral test.there were 2 examiners(my teacher and another one is a guest examiner whom i've never seen b4).they asked me a few questions before i were asked to introduce myself.actually the teacher already told us to prepare a short introduction of ourselves before hand.so during intro time,i spoke as much as i like but i'm kinda not sure how to pronounce a few words in french masa tgh wat intro tu.hurrmmmm...but it's over now.overall alhamdulillah.=)after this i just need to concentrate on my written test which is shceduled on 12th dec.wish me luck peeps!

okies,i better stop now since i need to catch 2 busses to get home.i'm starving huhuhu...see ya next time okey.

au revoir!

2007-11-18T14:52:00.000-08:00

salamz.

let me tell u about what i do today.me and my friend went for a movie just now.initial plan was to watch AMERICAN GANGTER.sadly the tickets sold out eventhough we arrived 5 minutes BEFORE to movie is to start.then we moved to another movie,INTO THE WILD and again luck wasn't on our side,the seats were all taken leaving 2 separate seats right in the middle of the row.hurmmm..mmg susah nak masuk and we gave up.then we planned to get another ticket of any movie available.but since the qeueu was long,we straight away masuk selamba ja dalam movie ini.

THE JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB

the short synopsis
Six book club members, six Austen books, six interwoven story lines over six months in the busy modern setting of Sacramento, where city and suburban sprawl meet natural beauty. While the contemporary stories never slavishly parallel the Austen plots, the six characters find echoes.
i found this movie quite interesting despite the not-so-famous casts.this story has flow that leads u from one plot to another.it's like reading a story book,said my friend.rasa relax aja sepanjang movie nie.flow yang slow tapi tak mmbuhsankan.it's a story of life.a few people with variety of issues to deal with in their lives.i really enjoyed this movie.

harini hujan macam sepanjang hari.sejuk sampai ke tulang.sekarang mmg dah masuk winter.it's freeziiing,kata seorang irish dengan loghatnya yang pekat.i still remember during my first year here,the weather was my worst enemy.rasa nak nangis hari2 sebab sejuk.sampaikan tak boleh tidur every night.pernah one time,i wore 4 pairs of sock.bila sejuk2 begini mula fikiran melayang ke malaysia.panas yang amat nikmat berbanding di sini.tapi kan,saya terfikir,kalau saya rindu malaysia pun,i know i'm going back during the summer hols.and akan balik ke sini semula selepas berakhirnya cuti.tapi when everything is over one day,when i got what i want(medical degree) and i'm back to malaysia for good,apa saya akn buat kalau saya rindu tempat yang sejuk ni..sbb saya dah mula sayangkan ireland,selesa di sini.akan saya ceritakan nanti apa yang saya akn rindui di sini bila i feel like it.for now,i'm going to enjoy my time here as much as possible.lagi lebih kurang 3 tahun sebelum saya tamat belajar di sini.ya,akan saya gunakan masa ini sebaik-baiknya!

apa kabar agaknya orang laut di sana.harini his birthday.i wish you a very happy birthday dear.may Allah bless u always and jadilah seorang lelaki yang matang selari dengan usia yang makin meningkat.semoga Allah grant u dengan umur panjang yang penuh keberkatan.ameeen.

oklah.nak siap2 nak tidoq.tomorrow we are going to play futsal.nak join?

.insufficient words.

2007-11-16T06:38:00.000-08:00

salam.

many things to write yet too little words in my head.isn't it ironic?well...i'll give a try.mana tahu klau2 the word flow comes back once my fingers touch the keyboard.

yesterday was a bollywood day.went out with sarah+corom and aiza+ku.ye,saya sorg jer partnerless but whatever.i suited myself just nice since all of them are my classmates.OM SHANTI OM.that's the title.ye,kat dublin pun ada cita hindustan.since i have unlimited card that enable me to watch as many movies as i want,why waste it.the story best la jugak and the dancing part plus the costumes deserved awards.is not surprising because the director is a well-known choreographer in bollywood.hoho..im not a number one bollywood fan but having growing up with two sisters that really into bollywood movies,im kinda well updated with what's happening in their film industry.the movie is long and WITHOUT intermission.huhu,right after that all of us pun complaining lapar and tros pegi medina restaurant makan.indian foods jugak.what la...mmg bollywood day eh.after that continue with another movie,boewulf.this movie is complicated,hence im not goin to eloborate.the moral of that movie is,women(especially pretty ones) are men's weakness.so guys out there,dun be easily fooled by pretty women and their sweet promises unless u really know those women well.

~ it's been 4 years.but is not lung enough to really understand some people.betul org cakap,it takes a lifetime to really know someone,inside out.you,i hope i still know u,respect u,see u they way u are even in 4o yrs to come.i promise i'll take care a gud care of myself.at least tak demam lagi when the next time u call;P

till then t.care people.

.unwell.

2007-11-12T13:20:00.000-08:00

salam.

today i've been tested again.poor health and not-so-satisfying marks of two of my exam papers that have been released today.
let's talk about health first.yeah..i caught a cold.luckily no sign of flu tagging along.usually mereka ini combo.it's sudden.yesterday i was feeling a lot better,even running on the threadmill for 20mins non-stop.went to gym with aini and did some work-outs.i guess the gym day was too heavy for me.ye la...baru 1st day pegi dh berangan nk wat itu ini,try machine bagai.anyway,many thanx to aini for letting me follow u to the gym and thanx a mill tina for lending me the card.owh,after 4 classes in a row this afternoon,me and my friends spent some time playing volleyball.to be frank,75% of us are still babies in this game.so practically,we just learned how to serve the ball dr main volley betul2.but it was fun especially when we have too many things to be stuffed in our head earlier.
CNS and endocrine diseases results were out!damn,they aren't good.not that i fail,it's just i expected more.im frustrated.even promise mak and akak to improve this time.however,i still have 75% baki untuk dicari bila exit exam winter nanti.to mak and kakak,im very sorry i didn't do well and the results weren't up to your expectations this time.i promise i'll work harder.
kadang-kadang sakit dan ujian yang diterima adalah warnings from the Almighty to remind us of our purpose of living in this world and it could be kafarah for the sins that we've been doing..secara sedar mahupun tidak.ya Tuhan...i pray for your blessings and guide me to the right path,YOUR way of life.ameen..

.mixedfeelings.

2007-11-06T14:34:00.000-08:00

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via FoxyTunes

salam.

hurrmm..something had happened today but im not telling ;p.
To someone i love so dearly,

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

2007-11-06T14:16:00.001-08:00

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Now playing: Katharine McPhee - Over It
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yeay!exam is over!

2007-11-05T10:36:00.000-08:00

salam.

it's my pleasure to inform that the mid-term exam has ended last saturday.at least i have another 4 weeks without extensive studies to be done.walla...what a feeling!to relax myself, i just finished 5 episodes of grey's anatomy season 3 and now enjoying myself with sarcasticism of dr House.u guys must be wondering tadak cita lain ke budak2 medic ni nk tgok?gi kelas belajaq medic,balik umah studi@revise ttg perubatan.a medical student does what a medical student has to do.poyo.ahaks.sebenaqnya to be honest,if i were not a med student,i still watch grey's.however,house is kinda sampingan when there's no any other good american series to watch.dun call me skema med student yet b'cos some of my coursemates don't really enjoy watching grey's kerana ia byk dicampur dengan unsur-unsur cinta yang keterlaluan.so they prefer to watch the sarcastic dr gregory house than the kind yet sexy meredith grey with her mcdreamy..kesimpulannya saya tidaklah begitu skema ya kawan-kawan.

ok.now let me tell u what i did yesterday.i woke up after a long sleep to help my housemate in the kitchen preparing food because she's throwing a small party for her bf.baked a cake and making our own version of KFC kinda of fun.finger licking good i must say.ahaks.so the 5 of us,joined later by sarah and the gang went to that guy's house to suprise him and selamat ia menjadi.he was so shocked!haha...dis time ko kena g****.

after makan2 and a bit of gosipping around(eh tak sempat)we pushed off to roebuck's castle for another open house.the last i think for this year's aidilfitri because syawal is approaching to it's end(to those who haven't started on posa 6 yet,cepat2la...masih blom terlewat).upon ariving,we saw a lot of our classmates were there and some had already left.the foods were delicious.nasi beriyani+roti jala+kari ayam+vege as the main dish.the desserts are sira pisang and choc cake.we got 1st class treatment as the hosts were kind enough to let us stay till v.late in the evening.a lot of activities were done during our stay.we ate sesuka ati,chit-chatting and last but not least playing ps2 with the guys.

the hardcore gamers

owh they were born to be pro at the electronic games.i nearly lost my voice cheering and yelling as the games became more and more exciting when the players take turn losing and winning and belasah each other.

the cheerlearders!

i tried my luck main ps2 tu but as a first timer,i suck at it.haha...bukan reti pun,cuma picit2 the controller sesuka ati.hahah.
but it was fun.the party was great and the people enjoying it.i did.a good way of chilling out after nearly two of stressful revision weeks.i hope the friendship built during this kind of occasion last forever even when we are no longer students.

in the kitchen lepas makan

okay,ini topik lain tapi semasa menonton rancangan2 berunsur perubatan ni,saya terfikir,adakah saya bersedia menhadapi cabaran2 seperti doktor2 di dalam cerita2 seperti grey's dan house itu.mereka tidur dan berehat bila betul2 perlu sahaja dan keadaan amatlah berbeza dengan hidup saya sekarang.w'pun exam berderet2 tapi saya still ada masa untuk diri sndrik.and the worst is leaving my family behind to save another human being's life.apapun2 saya selalu kena ingat and constantly remind myself tentang tujuan asal saya menjadi seorang doktor dan membantu manusia lain and objektif utama hanya untuk mencari keredhaanNYA.apa2pun wish me luck peeps!

these are my beloved classmates that will graduate in 2010,God-willing!i hope by looking at this picture in 10 years to come,it will freshen up my memory of our bond as friends and a lot of things we've been thru together.all the best to us!owh btw,the background is a fountain situated in our beloved uni.it's one of the prominent landmarks of UCD.

till then,permisi dulu yerk.nk smbg house M.D
=)

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.a trace of happiness.

2007-10-30T18:23:00.000-07:00

.feeling.grey.

2007-10-26T17:14:00.000-07:00

salam.

exams coming up.
no reason to stay here long.
pouring out a few words would be good.
especially in the state of mind where i cannot think much.
my crowded brain says i need to stay calm and and quiet for i dunno how long.
as i'm falling deeper into infinite darkness and hardly explained sadness.
please pray for colours to come back and for rainbow to follow the sun.
so the heat and light can bring back the forgotten smiles.

never been happier

2007-10-19T16:10:00.000-07:00

salam.
how are u guys getting on with lives?
hari ini i held an open house.basically we people in dublin would organize a small party to celebrate eid every year.inviting some friends over and cook some foods for them.it's a way of celebrating the eid and strengthen the bond called friendship.it's fun once in a while to have a get together like this especially for medical students like us who's life evolves around books most of the time.at least this would open some space for us to socialise and rest our brain from the stress of studying.
around 60 people came and to my surprise,the food wasn't enough.not like last year where there were a lot of left-overs that ended up in the rubbish bin.however today we have to rush cooking more to top up the balance which is obviously not enough for people who present at that time and for those who still searching their way to our house.alhamdulillah..we always ready for plan B just in case we face a situation like this and the xtra food was ready in no time.i believe everyone had a good time including us the hosts.knowing our guests having a few rounds of meals enough to prove that the food was edible if not as tasty as what they eat at home.owh btw,the menu are fried rice with grilled chickens and vege soup and curry mee.the desserts are banana fritters and fruit punch.u guys must be wondering how come we didn't include any ketupat or lemang or any decent raya delicacies in our menu.the reason being, we are kinda bored with ketupat and lemang ang lontong.so we decided to have it a bit different this time.well...as far as i concerned,the guests just loved the food provided.hehe.apa-apapun i hope none of them is having diarrhoea(hish..selalu eja ni btoi,arini konpius lak)or in malay,cirit birit caused by the food.the early birds arrived around 12 and the last guest left around 10pm.in a nutshell,the open house went well although im nearly get heart attacked when seeing the food was depleting very fast before we carried out the plan B.apa-apapun looking forward for next year open house and insyaAllah,the menu will be different.
now is time for personal matter.yesterday after i finished my haematology and immunosupression disease's tutorial,i got a sms from incik syir.he's in Bintulu already.wow,that's fast!usually it took more than 2 weeks b4 i can hear from him again.but this week is not even 2 weeks yet and he's already texting me asking how am i doing.the timing just nice,cos things didn't really going great for me this week and it's nice to have sumbody dear to you asking how's ur life treating u.he anchored last nite and only this morning his ship got offshored.klau ship smp malam,dia kena anchor somewhere dulu,tak boleh tros masuk port sbb less people working at night and not enuff staffs to incharge of the loading of the LNG.so segala proses meloading gas akn dijalankan keesokkan harinya and the next morning juga kapal akn masuk port.berlainan klau kapal smp pagi,dia akn tros masuk port and and the next morning(around 5 dah prepare enggine)the kapal will be onshore again.so this time i have xtra time with him and the precious xtra bit really makes me happy.smp org rumah tanya awat kerap sgt dia call today?hahaha..ermm..i guess he misses me=).you,have a smooth sailing journey.see u when i get to see u.take care of yourself as i always pray for ur safety wherever u may go.
oklah.mata dah mengantuk and i'll continue when i have enough material to write about.till then,take care.

bila tibanya Syawal...

2007-10-16T15:31:00.000-07:00

salam,
bila rasa gembira tepuk tangan,clap!!clap!!hehe.Syawal dis yr is meriah with many open houses attended and more is coming up.

here the cronology of my raya celebrations dis year:

1st Syawal:
when to malaysian hall early in the morning to perform eid prayer.met so many malaysians.good opportinity to seek forgiveness and make some new friends.the best thing is the prayer was conducted according to malaysian stail.the takbir was exactly being said using malaysian rhythm and khutbah was read in malay.ohhoo..i miss my beloved country already.

happy smiley faces on the early morning of eid.these are my beloved classmates

after that,went back home.ate homemade ketupats and lemang with rendang tok,kuah kacang and lontong.sedappp..mmmg sdap!hehe
then bermulalah episod open house-hunting!the 1st was at ballsbridge.great people,great foods!

this house is like a hotel,with a spacious living room and a beautiful chandelier.but i'm more interested in standing by the window.nice scenery.

2nd house,the maples!great people greater foods!yeah,ketupat jawi or nasi impit with roti jala and rendang,ayam masak merah,lontong.mmg best!

2nd Syawal:
malaysian embassy organised another open house this year.unfortunately it was held at the backyard of malaysian hall,not in the Astra Hall like previous yrs.we have to stand while eating.but great oppurtinity to meet other malaysian and hurrmm... making new friends.food was okay,but i guess to much ketupat kinda makes me muak.

di malaysian hall

4th Syawal:
The white oaks's turn today.ketupat again with rendang,tandoori chicken and kari ayam.sarah n co masak.tak muak ok.i love the tandoori chicken!but unlucky me cos i couldn't get to taste the rendang.tina said it was sooo sedap.it was cleared when i was performing zuhr prayer.takpalah..i'll ask sarah to cook again next time.

mengintai dr tirai dapur.hehe

among the guests

next?
my house goin to "bukak rumah" dis coming friday.jemputlah dtg after jumaat prayer.lots of foods!i promise!see ya aight!

okies.till then.wait for more reports on what's happening in dublin in the next entry ok.chioww!

p/s:yeay got plan for winter hols!massive plan!semuga semua berjalan lancar.ameen!

special edition

2007-10-10T13:50:00.000-07:00

salam ramadhan kepada semua.

sebenarnya sedih nk ucap salam ramadhan tu sbb the ramadhan is about to leave us soon.beberapa hari je boleh sembahyang terawikh,bersahur dan of course berpuasa.sekejap je rasa.
dah lama blog di tak diupdate.ya,saya agk busy.kelas,tutorial...cukup untuk membuatkan saya malas dan ketiadaan idea.semester ni,w'pun kelas tidak beberapa byk,tetapi kebanyakkan start pada awal pagi.my greatest weakness to wake up early in the morning.huhu.so ptg ini,saya telah menamatkan tutorial yg sepatutnya berlansung esok petang dengan jayanya.ini bermakna esok adalah hari yg akn di look forward=P
bulan ramadhan tahun ini byk membawa makna kepada saya.entah kenapa tetapi saya rasa byk petunjuk yang saya dapat dalam bulan ini.petunjuk kepada persoalan-persoalan yang tiada jawapan sebelum ini,baik tentang hal-hal peribadi mahupun yang general.saya lebih nampak apa yang saya nak dalam kehidupan saya dan juga makna sebenar kenapa saya dihantar ke bumi sejuk beku ini pada usia muda dan menghabiskan saki baki zaman remaja saya di sini.mungkin tuhan mahu saya melihat banyak perkara dari perspektif berbeza,supaya saya tahan dan tabah menghadapi apa saja ujian yang diberikanNya dalam apa jua keadaan sekalipun.kenapa bahasa saya agak puitis?hurrmmm..kerana jiwa saya penuh dengan rasa kecil diri kepadaNya.ya,apabila saya evaluate diri saya,saya akn rasa sayu dan syahdu.huhu.rasa kecil tidak berdaya.
okielah,untuk tidak memanjangkan rasa sedih saya dengan peninggalan ramadhan dan mixed feelings yang tidak sepatutnya di layan,ada beberapa perkara yg membuatkan saya look forward to syawal.Allah dah kurniakan Syawal selepas ramadhan.oleh itu saya patut bersyukur kerana ia adalah petanda kemenangan.tahun ini raya agk special.kami serumah berpakat untuk mmbuat kueh raya.ya,kueh raya buatan sendri.special bukan?so far,3 jenis berjaya disiapkan.biskut makmur(my fave),biskut peanut butter dan biskut coklat.terima kasih aini kerana menjadi ibu kepada kami=)
sekarang juga lagu raya kedengaran di mana2 sahaja.baik stesen radio melayu hatta radio inggeris.bagus bukan.betapa aidilfitri disambut dengan meriah sekali.seronoknya jika dapat beraya di malaysia.ahh..lupakan.3 tahun lae insyaAllah.

yang paling penting,saya berharap syawal kali ini akn mmbawa 1000 kegembiraan buat orang-orang yang saya sayangi.

mak dan bapak:
w'pun saya tiada untuk menyambutnya bersama kalian,kalain tetap di hati saya,pada hari raya,hari esok dan hari-hari mendatang.seribu keampunan saya pinta atas segala keterlanjuran yang saya lakukan di dalam mahupun di luar sedar.kerana kalian saya masih berdiri,masih berlari dan bersemangat menempuh apa saja yang ditakdirkan untuk saya.

kakak-kakak dan abg tercinta:
tiada bandingan kasih sayang kalian semua.maaf atas segala kedegilan,kemalasan saya dan terima kasih kerana sanggup berkorban untuk saya.masih berbekas di hati di mana kalian dipukul atas kesalahan saya.sanggup manjadi pak sanggup kerana takut adik yg kecik menjadi mangsa amarah akibat kesalahan sendiri.dunia saya bercahaya kerana kalian.

anak-anak saudara saya tersayang:
tahun ni lae sekali tak dapat main mercun,pasang pelita sama-sama.study hard and smart kerana perjalanan hidup ini tidak mudah dan memerlukan byk bekalan ilmu dan pengorbanan.salam lebaran anak-anak sedara ku sayang.

syir:
tahun nie sekali lagi kita berhari raya di benua berbeza.percayalah,iA pengorbanan kita ada ganjarannya.kerja baik-baik dan maaf segala kesalahan dan pengucapan yg mengguris hati.

sahabat-sahabat:
maaf diatas segala khilaf.semuga persahabatan kita sampai ke syurga.

salam lebaran dari saya yang jauh di bumi ireland.

welcoming the second half of ramadhan.

2007-09-29T17:37:00.000-07:00

salam.

how's life everyone?hopefully all of us is blessed with good health to endure the second half of this holy month of ramadhan.jaga perut,jaga mulut and tak lupa sucikan niat=)insyaAllah byk ganjarannya.

hmmmph....actually i dun have any particular topic to write today.just signed in cos i miss my blog.since i'm here,let's talk bout sumthing yerk...

puasa dan kedatangan Syawal...
it's already 2 weeks we've been fasting.feel like only yesterday i uttered my niat to start fasting.time really flies huh...listening to raya songs that already been playing quite regularly in malaysia's radio stations actually touched me emotionally.it's been 3 years i celebrated eid here.this year going to be my fourth time.sad?missing ketupat?lemang?mercun?erm..no feelings sgt dah about all those stuffs.however,i miss the main events during eid,asking for forgiveness and duit raya from parents,family and relatives.huhuh..still remember everytime raya,usually early in the morning,me and my siblings would line up and usually my eldest sis will lead the way,we asked for forgiveness from our parents and most of the times we cried thinking back of the bad things we've done to them.they too,maybe touched by our sincerity,cried while hugging us.but my mum has this special way of not showing her true feelings.she would laugh once my sis start to apologise.i mean really laughed so that she can supress her automatic reaction to cry together with us.mak mana tak tersentuh kalau anak-anak dia menangis mcm budak kecik mintak ampun dan maaf kan?tapi mak saya mmg terror lah.she did not cry.haha.in twenty years time,i would follow what she does.haha...

the exciting part,DUIT RAYA!!!!
okies,talking about duit raya,i didn't get those for years since i'm here.if kumpul2 rasanya leh beli apa ek....hmmmm..laptop baru kot.hehe.tipulah.usually my dad gave me the most out of all people.still remember when i managed to fast the whole month without any holes.masa tu belom ehem..ehem lae.hihi.earlier, i told my dad if i manage to fast the whole ramadhan,he has to gimme something in return.but he said,it's not right to expect any rewards since i should do it merely for GOD.i took his words without any objection cos i know it is true.to my suprise, on the hari raya,he gave me a green envelope with 6 pieces of red notes inside.i jumped with joy cos that amount was so big at that time and that's the most anyone ever gave me as duit raya.he told me the large amount of money is not a bribe or anything related to make me posa penuh,but it was for the effort i put thruout the whole month.owh..how i missed him.sob..sob..sob...we are not that close to each other as im not his fave daughter(my 2nd sis is his apple),but i think he's getting more and more important now to me.i tend to miss him more each day.sumthing i dun really feel when i was younger.yeah,we always have issues between us back then.apa-apapun,masa raya i'm definately going to call them and wish them 'selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin',the precious few words that is so significant and meaningful once a year.must not forget!

the jiwang but not so jiwang part...
it's been nearly 2 weeks i didn't hear from my seaman,fyi,it's normal for us not keeping in touch with each other up to 2 weeks.no sms,phone calls,emails whatsoever.nothing.so to u guys out there who have full access and limitless time to communicate with ur loved ones(could be ur bf,family,friends),do appreciate it.i'm not sad neither regret any bits of this.this is what i chose.i'm just thinking how was his ramadhan so far.fasting onboard is definately different.seronokkah berbuka?cukup tak makan?bagun sahur ke?am i thinking too much,worrying for no reason?doa saya,tak kira di mana saja dia berada,Allh akn lebarkan peliharaanNya kepada dia dan hopefully u are stronger under any circumstances.

okie,that's all for now.i have some reading materials to finish off.
see u guys soon.

~a.m.h~

2007-09-27T19:58:00.000-07:00

salamz.

i

need

HELP!

in dire need of h2o

2007-09-24T16:29:00.000-07:00

salam.

1stly,mind the title as it's just another way of showing how lazy i am to go to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water after stuffing my tummy with junk foods(yeah i'm a junkie,not drug fortunately!).pemalassss kamu azimah.

okies,today was very windy.why windy day suddenly becomes so significant to be talked about in my ilham?this is becos today we planned to take pictures(me and beloved hosmates)to be sent to local newspapers in malaysia.salam perantauan lah kengkawan.early this morning,all of us,beautifully dressed up in BnW(black n white)were so ever ready and excited to take pics.halfway to the bus stop,we were blown away by strong,crazy wind.abes tudoooonnngggg!!!huwaaa..however,right after class(4 classes in a row,can u imagine how our faces looked like?) we managed to stand still for a while as our newly-appointed photographer does his works.well done and thanx jay for putting up with our karenah and demands.among the kewl pics of 'kami best'!haha

aren't they gorgeous?

exclusively on this blog only!haha..strugling against the wind=D

thorns among roses or should i say the bodyguards?

ok tak pics tu?hehe

oklah..

the clock shows 10 mins to 1 a.m.i better go and get some sleep cos class is at 9 tomorrow.early morning classes suck!
nite.sweetdreams people=)

p/s:saya akan short satu kad raya wajib this year.isn't that devastating?

no more decent place to live.

2007-09-22T17:01:00.000-07:00

hello.how's ur ramadhan people?i hope each n everyone of us is given the best health to endure this blessed month of ramadhan.eventhough there's no PARAM(PAsar RAmadhan) here in eire,i'm grateful to the almighty for the rezki yang serasanya lebih istimewa dari bulan2 biasa.here in Dublin,me and my housemates are having quite a few very different activities during ramadhan.the main one will be the iftar-hunting activity.since we live in a small community of muslims here,ramadhan is being treated very special.there'll be free IFTARs(break fast session as arab people called it).free iftar means free fuuuuuuuddddd!!!well.. we are not that sengkek to asik nak mkn free jerk.tapi iftar ni bukan diberi kepada org miskin atau yang memerlukan tetapi diberi kepada sesiapa saja yg available untuk menghadirkan diri ke masjid berdekatan sebagai tanda mnghormati ramadhan dan untuk meningkatkan pahala di bulan mulia ini.get it?however,the most obvious thing to be highlighted here is malaysian students represent the biggest percentage of all people present.hihi...

monday-friday:free IFTAR at Dublin mosque and medina
friday-sunday:free IFTAR at clonskeagh(pronounce as clonski)mosque

so right after class,me and the other 4 housemates will start texting each other to set up time and place for the IFTAR on that day.believe me,it's fun =D.at least tak terasa sgt berpuasa and at the same time being so far away from our beloved families.

besides that,we have been doing night(or late night) chatting or discussion sessions.lepas berbuka masing2 akn buka topic baru yang hot dan menariiikkkk.
please read:we try our best not to bad-mouthing others.penat2 berpuasa siang hari,takkan nk buang pahala di malam hari pulak kan.

the topics cover from domestic to international issues.but mostly are about our beloveds at home la.recently the most talked-about topic is NURIN JAZLIN JAZIMIN murder!

speechles.devastated!that's how i felt when i first heard about the news.how could a human being actually did that to another young,cute,innocent human being who just started to learn what life really means.she was sexually abused and murdered without mercy.the worst being her dead body stuffed in a bag and was left in a public place and to be found the next morning.ya Allah,rahmatilah rohnya dan tempatkanlah dia bersama hambaMU yang beriman.ameen.

i would like to suggest that the responsible beast(if he/she were to be found) to be humiliated in public and stoning to be performed on him/her to pay for what he/she does!(kalau ikut ati ni,nak jerk *SULA cam org dulu-dulu).since i'm in no position to fix the punishment,let the authorities handle that and please put more efforts in hunting the murderer before more innocent children being victimised by that beast.

*SULA means a long rod/a piece of wood is inserted from the anus to the mouth as a punishment for commiting adultery.

okies.i would like to stop now or else ntah apa2 yg akan saya tulis di sini nanti.=P
have a gud day everyone and jgn lupa bangun sahur.dapat pahala.

p/s:there's a rise in allowance peeps.anyone would like to open table,for iftar perhaps?

ahlan wasahlan ramadhan al mubarak

2007-09-11T13:48:00.000-07:00

salam.

may this find u in the best of health.

dah lama tak post apa2 kat cni.bukan tiada masa atau kesempatan,cuma kurang kerajinan.acceptable?of course not.my apologies then.

well...fasting month is gonna kick off soon..very soon.i hope everyone is ready or try to be ready to welcome it since no month is like ramadhan where we have lots of chances and oppurtinities to multiply our pahala.in a short way of saying this,bulan ni adalah bulan manusia di mana setiap perbuatan kita terutamanya puasa adalah akn dinilai sendrik oleh Allah s.w.t pahalanya.interesting,isn't it?here,in ireland we r going to start fasting on the 13th sept,thursday..mari ramai2 buat pahala.hehe.

owh ya..btw,im already here,di bumi sejuk beku ni ya tuan2 dan puan2 sekalian.no matter how hard i tried to find reasons to give to my mum so that i dun have to drag myself into this country,here i am again,eventually.haha.it's funny on how i still think i can come up with reasons not to be back here padahal i still have 3 years to go.i think i'm still in denial.muahaha

my room as expected,full of dust and in a great mess until i did some spring cleaning the next day after my arrival.in order to be happy here,i need to makesure that i have a clean and comfortable space for myself after a long day at school.this semester's timetable is suck!classes start at 9 everyday except on wed and i have 2 busses to catch every single day.guess wut time should i wake up every morning...naaahhh u dun wanna know.enuff talking bout school.

when i was browsing over the internet a moment ago,there's sumthing dat caught my attention.there's a club for seafarers and their partners tak kira lah either u r their gf,fiancee or wives.as long as u personally related to them u r welcomed to join the club.tak sangka actually ada org yg so prihatin dat actually set up a club to gather org2 laut ini.bravolah kepada foundernya kerana we do need support from each other.haha.and i tgk lah member2 dia..klau yg pompuan,kat shout out box mesti tulis...come back soon,can't wait for u to come back ...or tak sabar tunggu bila..bila...n bla..bla...haha.dat's roughly how we the gf,tunang or wives feel whenever their partners are sailing off.in my case,things are much worse at home in malaysia compared when i'm here.the classes and assignments keep me busy and time just flies without i even realize it.it doesn't mean i forget him.cuma life goes on.i have other bigger responsibilities.unless if i'm married to him,then i nanges kot missing him every sec.haha.yes mummy,u r right.the time is not right yet.not just yet!apa-apa hal pun,i'm joining da club.just to get some ideas on how others(the ones who are in the same shoes) are doing.=)but seriously tak boleh baca the wives punya ayat2 rindu towards their hubbies...sedey laaaa...

i need to print some notes for 2moro lectures.be here again tomorrow ke..lusa ke..God knows bila but promise,i'll come back.
till then take care.

salam ramadhan,
a.m.h

i need moreeeee time plis!

2007-08-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

salam.
duduk tak duduk,berdiri and bangun,lagi kurang 2 mgu aku nak balik ireland.aku sedih.mak aku lae sedih.actually dia yg counting days lebih dr aku.at first aku igt dia tak amek pot sgt pasai berapa banyak hari lae aku kat umah,tidoq-makan-tidoq-makan,tapi tekaan gue mmg salah.she does care in fact too much.penah bulan lepas aku kuaqkan plastik yg balut beg besaq yang selalu ikut aku pi balik pi balik ireland.(plastik tu dibalut oleh mak aku yg sgt prihatin takut beg aku berhabuk dok lama sgt 3 bulan tepi dinding).cdangnya nak masuk kan brg yg aku beli untuk kegunaan aku kat ireland,yelah kalau tak bubuh sekarang nescaya gue lupa.then sedar2 she's already behind me saying"apa gmah buat dengan beg tu?nak balik sana dah ka?" and dia pluk aku sekali gus!
adeihhhh berair mata gue.tapi kerana aku ayu aku jawab"apa mak nie,gmah just masuk2 kan barang yg pi beli tadik..takut lupa.nti lupa mak marah lak'.hehe ayu tak aku?haha

p/s:entry kali nie macam poyo dgn bahsa rojak max.suka baca,tak suka dipersilakan bounce baby!

itu cerita sedeh....eh sebenaqnya aku tiada cerita gembira untuk dibuat karangan di sini.cuma aku ingin meminta maaf kerana aku tidak dapat menghadirkan dirik aku ke majlis konvo seorang kawan.actually i planned to go there.that's the only thing that i've ever planned like months ahead.it was part of 'must do' list in my head.tapi aku kira kesilapan aku jugak,i had a fight with my sister the night before that left me wordless and speechless for 3 days straight.to make things worse i'm her loyal penumpang dalam kereta dia.(takkan nak kata she's my loyal driver pulak since the car and driving skill yg maha hebat tu milik dia!).so to ****,im really sorry i couldn't make it to ur big day.i know how much it meant for you and i hope we can be friends again.love u.

dan,
baju raya aku dah 80% siap.i contributed some skills in combining the pieces of cloth together.hehe..bangga tuh.u know menjahit is not easy especially if u have 'tangan bangku',if u know what i mean.but it's fun to make it a part of mother-daughter activity.merapatkan ukhwah gitu.haha.that's not funny i know.

forgive me for rantling too much today.i missed someone so badly.

-end-

a.m.h

sleepless nights

2007-08-04T10:35:00.000-07:00

so much fear to endure...

in silence i pray...

when reality strikes,i'll be more than ready....

GOD is always with me :)

nothing sad happen.cuma terfikir lebih kurang sebulan nak balik ireland.gimme goosebumps.buduh!

the must tell!

2007-08-04T10:31:00.000-07:00

Salam.

BWM

Or

Wolkswagon beetle

Or

Mini cooper?

Wait-a-minute!!!!this is not the highlight for the day.i ain’t buying any cars whatsoever.the most important thing for today is ….~drumrolls~I’m goin to announce that i passed the driving test and to add more sugar in it,I’m also allowed to ride a motorcyle on the road after this(selalunya bawak dalam kampung ja…)muahahah…I likeeee!at first I thought it’s enuff to get a driving license since it’s not really suitable for a woman to ride a motorbike.however my parents insisted that I take both tests since I always merempit dalam kampung.now leh le merempit kat jalan raya pulak…OOOpppppssss…terpecah rahsia.heheh.honestly it’s a big sigh for me not having to repeat neither of the tests because I felt 2/3 of my summer hols was spent on this driving lessons and belajar cara-cara menghayun tangan sebanyak 3 kali apabila mahu membelok di kala menunggang motosikal honda cup separa hancur.couldn’t imagine if I have to prolong the hours driving with sumbody nagging besides me in the car
For not using the right gear or not slowing down the vehicle when i came to a sharp curve(wpun meter hadlaju menunjukkan baru 40km/j)!w’pun begitu, I owe a lot to my driving instructor for teaching me how to handle a car from scratch till I passed the test only at the first attempt!u rawk pakcik!!!!!

Ok sudah…sudah…nti dicap org mengangkat bakul sendri pulak.klau ada buah deriyan lam bakul tu takpa gak.hee….tomorrow,im goin back to a place that made me a person who I am now.changing me from a girl to a grown up lady,teaching me how to survive in the lack of pretty much everything….and in that place also,I learnt to control myself when facing a terrible moment in my life…a moment that changed it all…..

Need my beauty sleep now….and prepare to go back to the good old days……..