lovesick!

salam.

today has been weird.besides school and hospital stuffs that drive me crazy,i miss my family d*mn much.i miss my seaman mcm g*la.kenapa weird?normally i could successfully surpress the emotional part of my life seperti merindu keluarga dan org mcm nk g*la itu.

tetapi hari ini simply t.a.k b.o.l.e.h!

maybe raya is just around the corner and thinking that this year will be just my mum n my sister beraya berdua back at home is really heartbreaking.my two other siblings going to be with their in-laws this year.i wished i could be there making things better w'pun tak sempurna.

and i wished he could call me up and say"it's ok.semua akn baik nanti....".

i feel like my hopes are slowly dying.tiada lagi warna-warni.hanya ada kelabu dan cuaca yang mendung tak bermatahari.

hurm...mata dh kelabu berair.

jumpa di lain masa.

.ini cerita kehidupan.

salam.



setelah sekian lama tak menulis disebabkan beberapa faktor,saya mengambil keputusan untuk mengurangkan satu faktor iaitu kegagalan meletak gambar sebagai alasan yang tidak munasabah untuk tidak menulis di sini.

pheww...writing in malay sumtime makes me dizzy.bak kata syarifah amani dalam iklan silky girl,"dah la english pun tak betul,nak sindir-sindir pulak"(lebih kurang camtu lah,tak igt the whole script).tak,bukan apa.klau dlm english,boleh main hentam-hentam aja.klau dalam malay,main hentam2 camni jdi tak sedap.betul tak?okay back to bussiness now,i'm basically in the comfort of my home swheeeet home doing nothing,absolutely nothing.mengabes beraih ja.hehe.so at least malam ni kena tulis sumthing berisi sket.


ni nk baca berita sket....

a malaysian tanker(belong to MISC,the shipping arm of petronas) laden with palm oil,mt bunga melati 2 was hijacked by pirates in the gulf of Aden near somalia and yemen yesterday.there are 39 crews on board with 29 of them are malaysians.

i was shocked to hear the news yesterday and i pray all the crews regardless their races are being treated well and safe wherever they may be.having someone i love working in the same line,this kind of situation really would be a nightmare to me.imagine one of them is our brother,father or even friend,being captured far away from our homeland while carrying out their duty is really heartbreaking and troublesome(in terms of rescueing them).i can't even think how their spouses,children and families would feel and react in this very difficult situation.to them:my heart goes out to you and my prayers always be with all of you.sekarang terasa lebih menghargai orang yang jauh.being separated far away for a long time from the loved one really effects my emotion.when i got a chance to talk to him bila dia balik atau anchor for few days,tetiba rasa nk marah je.ye,marah sebab i got very limited time to have him with me .marah juga sebab i have to compete with his job which i lost most of the time.what if one day he goes and doesn't come back.minta Allah jauhkan.i should appreciate the time we have together,be it a few sec,minutes or even 100 years.


tunggu awak pulang.heeee.....


lagi cerita kehidupan....

my sis got an email from a dear friend.about starvation and poverty mainly in africa.full of touching and very sad pictures reflecting the lives of the unfortunate.seeing them malnourished and aneroxic(u can count every spine and rib on their body as there were bones and skin left that resembled walking skeletons) is tearing my heart apart especially if u know the complications of malnutrition to the bits.i'm sure most of them were long gone because of nothing to eat and here we are wasting the foods like nobody's bussiness.kadang-kadang sengaja saya tinggalkan makanan di pinggan kerana untuk mengelak dari terlalu kenyang sehingga menjadi tabiat.lansung terlupa di fikiran saya makanan itu amat diperlukan oleh orang lain yg terpaksa menyelongkar tong sampah mencari sesuap makanan,memakan sisa org lain dan tidak kurang yang berlapar kerana tiada apa untuk di makan. from now on,i wont do such stupid and sellfish kind of acts anymore.fikir-fikir balik sangat menyesal okey.huuuuuu.....



pesanan saya,
bersyukur atas nikmat tuhan berikan.dugaan-dugaan menimpa adalah rahmat terlindung dan kafarah dosa-dosa kita.time to reflect and improve=)