.mata yang melihat.

salam,



actually nothing interesting pun nk tulis.just a quick post on what happen today.

i got up at half past six today.i have to be at hospital 10 mins b4 9.woke up early just to read a few chapters on ophtalmology(a study about structure and funtions of the eye and what can go wrong).sebenarnya,dalam otak saya nie skeeetttt sgt pengetahuan tentang mata ni.structure mata nie bg saya agk complex thus need more reading so that at least i go to the eye clinic with something in my brain.i'm a bit nervous to start my three days of ophtalmology rotation because i know no matter how much i study,i won't be able to grab all the eye tests at once.too many.however, honestly speaking,the eye tests are relatively easier than the tests of the other body systems.cuma nk pick up lambat sket la.nasib saya agk baik tau harini sbb the lecturer cum eye surgeon that i used to hate sebelum nie tidak mngenakan saya.he picked one of us to perform the tests on each other and luckily i was just the other girl who got tested.so my work is easy..act like patient and i deserved an oscar.hahaha..twice.i guessed he knew that i wasn't prepared to perform any test and he let me be what i can do best.hehe.the surrounding and environment at the eye clinic are so peaceful and calm.jauh lah beza dgn A n E.haha.kurang busy and the docs nmpak relax ja.mmg lah kan.ini yg membuatkan saya terpikir nk specialise dalam ophtalmology ja.at least i dun have to work for long hours and suasana pun tenang je.well..a long way to go lagi.we'll see....=D
klau rajin do search for these tests as most of us can do this at home provided ada kelengkapan yg diperlukan la, and they are useful especially for diabetics.diabetes is the risk factor for vision problems and early preventions and measures save us from going blind.most of the eye tests can be found here=)

this website is informative and fun too!

http://www.richmondeye.com/

tomorrow i have to attend 2 cataract surgeries and a glaucoma op.will be in OT(operation theater) for the 1st time.although the ops will start at 8.30a.m,i really can't wait!

oklah nk cont with my reading....mr dervan(bukan nama sebenar),the lecturer aka the eye surgeon yg berbasikal ke uni utk mengajar itu has advised us to read a bit on cataract.takut pulak esok2 saya kena jd main actress pulak dalam OT..tak tau payah lak kan.tak ke haru?hehe.

till then,have a nice day semua!muah!

.the crazy residence years.

salam.

hye,i'm back.
pooh..poooh...eww..this blog is dusty and full of cobwebs everywhere.
blame it on my daily schedule.i'm busy as a bee everyday.had long days for the past two weeks,when my clinical years have started.with the great amount of stress,sleep is the first thing that comes to mind everytime i reached home hence reducing the time i have to blog.sorry yer...but seriously,i just felt drained out everyday when i got home.
what about weekends?weekend is precious!my precious!(pronounce ala-ala makhluk dlm LOTR tu).hikhik.hang out with good buddies during weekends is a must.yeah during this time,we told stories,catching ups and melepas rindu(di sini juga sesi mengutuk interns,registrars and fellow consultants!)hahaha.....lawak gila.i thought i'm the only one who had bad days in hospitals because of my monstrous registrar,but it turned out that the rest of my buddies have their fair share of same experiences.weh korang...jd registrar atau consultant jgn ganas-ganas ok,apatah lagik interns.serious tak best!

i'm attached to endocrinology team and guess what kind of patients i met during clinics?a bunch of people with diabetes type 2 mostly and those with hypo/hyperthyroidism.on the second day,i was asked about hypothyroidism and i blew it.felt so stupid and down the whole day.huhu...tu la..masa pre-clinical malas nk studi.dlm byak2 team,endocrinology was the last thing on my list.i don't mind getting neuro,but when it comes to endocrine,god....i knew nothing!served me right!haha.but as what my mum told me,this is where i learn something.biar bodoh sekarang..jgn bodoh selamanya.kan?that's enough about mad skool,sebut pun rasa nausea(nausea=the feeling of vomitting).haha.next paragraph is sumthing personal.klau korang rajin,bacalah yerk.klau rasa tak penting,abaikan.but i think this deserves a space in my blog=)

last thursday,when i came back from hospital,i got a notice that telling me i've received a parcel and since no one at home,the parcel couldn't be delivered and was sent back to the nearest post office.(ni yg malas ni sbb the nearest tu sebenaqnya kena amek 2 bus).the next day right after a loooong day at hospital,with anxiety plus palpitation,i rushed to the post office.couldn't contain the excitement really..tersenyum sorang2 dlm bus.ahaha.the last parcel i received from malaysia was erm........alamak lama gila smp tak igt dah.lagipun,it's expensive to send anything to me here,so i told my mum no need of sending me anything.when one of the staff handed me the parcel,i just couldn't wait any longer to open it.tapi merepek sgt lah nk bukak depan tu.nti dia kata"hish budak ni,tau la dpt parcel dr jauh,jgn la desperate sgt!".so i quickly get a bus and went straight home.to cut the story short(laepun mst korang pun nk tau apa dlm parcel tu kan?)hehe..

wait...i'll let the pictures tell eveything.



the box!(tak smpat amik pic dgn wrapper dia sbb tak sabar trus bukak.ahaks)

what's inside?jeng..jeng..jeng..

the very shweet memory lane card



the bestest tea in the world,always my fave strawberry tea from c.highlands.i've tasted different kind of teas from around the world but trust me,this is the best!

the osram energy saving daylight bulb.dublin sucks,semua bulb kaler oren.sakit mata and gelap.sekarang bilik saya dh cukup pencahayaan!=D

the unique sarawak keychain(nk gantung apa ek kat keychain nie?)

and last but not least,

the veryyyy cute hoodie dress from here--->


eh,wait a sec! there's one more thing in the green plastic bag kan?hehe..yg tu biarlah rahsia key.
=p

from who?

i think i gave enough clue/clues.

terima kasih daun keladi,
lain kali boleh la hantar lagi!

ihiks!

thanx awak.the parcel really made my day especially when everything else seems to fall apart.doakan saya kat cni yerk. 2 more years and insyaAllah we'll be closer to each other.

so..that's the stories behind my hibernation.want more?

tunggu.....

i'll be back....

with more interesting stuffs

insyaAllah.

till then.take care peeps=)

a productive day.saturday it is.

salam.
may u all be in the best of health and iman.


first of all,
THE WEATHER IS CRAP THESE FEW DAYS!yesterday it was 14 degree celcius and today is 3 degree celcius!wth?

however despite the freezing state of dublin,my day was wonderful alhamdulillah=)

saturday started off with EnT and ophtalmology exam,followed by lunch berjemaah kat clonskeugh mosque and the best part was of course sesi membeli belah with dearest freinds.
what a day!

it's been quite a long time we didn't hang out like this.exams,pcp project,skills workshops....all of these have taken our time all together.since semalam(or perhaps yesterdays)mr jay dah sebok2 msg kat facebook asking us to make ourselves available after exam.not to let him down,we just followed whatever plans he had in mind.turned out,today mmg productive. . i ate a lot today.A LOT!starting from tandoori chicken with rice for lunch followed by mocha frappucino and kebab SPAR for dinner.eh,ada lagi,half cup of curly fries from mcD.hoho,what an achievement for me in terms of quantity of foods i stuffed in my tummy.no leftovers today,suma licin di ngap oleh saya.(nasi di clonskeugh adalah impossible untuk dihabiskan oleh saya dan kebab SPAR selalunya adalah meal saya untuk 2 kali).maybe this is what i called post-exam hunger where the amount of food eaten proportional to the difficulty of the exam.i rather not to talk about the exam as it was very very frustrating.igt kami nk amek postgrad exam ke hapa?dahla negative marking,minus 1/2 okay...klau salah 2 dah tolak i markah.grrrr......ok just ignore about the exam.

supposedly,we'll be watching awake and 27 dresses tonight but due to some technical problems,instead of watching movie,we proceded to mcD,finished up kebab and off we went home.dah lotih sebenarnya.hiks.dengan tak cukup tidonya last nite,arini pulak berjalan sana sini,mmg all of us were exhausted.so there goes my saturday..

owh i have an interesting story to tell.last thursday,i was supposed to go to holles st maternity hospital for the 2 hours lecture on postnatal care(mother and neonates)postnatal care is the care taken or procedures done just after delivery.neonates is the newborns from day one to one month old.the 1st hour is about postnatal care of the mother and the second hour dealt with neonates.our prof(the scariest prof who scolded students who eat and drink in class,not even plain water from your own tumbler or water bottle!) actually showed us fresh placenta(in malay we called it 'uri').according to him,it was delivered early that morning.the class reaction was eeeuuwww...errgghhh...eee......grosss.....hahaha..hahah.i still remember,when i was young,when my sister gave birth,my mum was the one who cleaned,wrapped it up and buried them.i was asking my mum to have a look at it but it was a big no-no for a child to see it.ntah kenapa i pun tatau.but today,huuu..dh tgok pun and i'll be seeing it again nxt yr when i have to deliver babies in my obs and gynae rotation.it looks like a fresh meat with very red coloration and it smells.that's how i see it.hehe.cool huh.med students lain maybe dah tgok berpuluh-puluh,but as a first timer,it's erm.....pelik.hihi


sekadar gambar hiasan

for your information,i'm going to start clinical attachment this monday for 3 weeks at mater hosp before continue with surgery at st vincent's hospital for another 3 weeks and lastly to the yet unknown peripheral hospital for the final 3 weeks.wish me luck peeps.i've no idea nor expectation how is it going to be like but i do hope it's a pleasant experience and fun?...at least useful in my future career.

oklah,need to manage my room kemas-kemas.hope to see u soon.stay tuned readers!=D

never-ending works

salam.

sorry for the long hybernation.took my time to recuperate.to face new challenge in life.
alhamdulillah.everything seems to be better.there are still remnants of sadness but insyaAllah,time will heal and i hope for more happy things to cheer me up.

what a hectic week i've been going through now.just finished with a group project.feel like a huge stone had been lifted up from my shoulder.the professional clinical practise(PCP)presentation this afternoon went well.alhamdulillah.although we have been bombarded with so many questions from the panel judges and fellow classmates in Q and A session,we managed to answer them well despite nervousness and shaky voices that have been disturbing us throughout the presentation.well done groupmates!let us wait for the marks patiently and i hope they gave us what we deserved after series of meetings and a significant amount of efforts that have taken most of our precious time.

next to come:PCP mcq(tomorrow) and EnT mcq(this is horrible as the exam costs us 50%of our final exam marks and it is on saturday!yeah irish people drink everyday so weekend is nothing.)

in this kind of time where free time seems impossible,it would be better if my beloveds are around.mak,kakak and syir.good friends are not excluded.their presence would definately make a difference.but erm....reality sucks.here i am,so far away from home,studying till midnite and woke up the next morning for the sake of doing exams and the cycle goes on.or should i be grateful for the life i chose?

i need a break!



strolling along the beach would be a perfect idea tambah-tambah ada ice-cream sekali..perghh..

okaylah,nak continue reading PCP.btw,sumone went up to cameron highlands untuk bergambar but ended up shopping!apa kes?ahaks!

.dari DIA kita datang.kepada DIA juga kita kembali.

salam.

saya terima.
saya redha.
saya kena redha.
ini janji Allah.
setiap yang hidup pasti akn mati.
hari ini hari dia.
bagaimana dengan hari kita pula?

kata orang,hilang ibu atau bapa tiada pengganti.
mmg tiada pengganti.
dia berdiri di depan,di belakang dan di kanan kiri saya setiap masa.
dia berjanji akan doanya untuk saya setiap ketika.
dia menaburkan cintanya tanpa sempadan dan syarat untuk saya.
tenaga dan wang ringgit untuk saya?tiada ukuran.

i was born 11 years after my elder sister.
so i'm always his little girl,the stubborn one.
i still remember,when i was a little kid,when he came back from work he caught me in his arm and kissed me wildly with his misai and i struggled to make him let go of me .i hated it.he even kissed me gud nite and i wished him the same before i go to bed.every single nite..i dun remember when everything had stopped but i remember i felt shy about it because big girls don't do it anymore.
but now,when u ask about my father,that is the 1st thing that comes to mind.

i miss him when he puffed out his cheeks to mock me when i was sulking.
i miss him when he scolded me for not being punctual or woke up late in the morning.
i miss him when both of us berebut for the same kueh on the table because we happened to like the same kueh.
i miss him the most when we go fishing together.it's like a routine hobby we shared together,me,him,my mother and my sister.it's like a small picnic and we ate nasik lemak while waiting for the fish.we teased each other for not getting any fish yet.mak mesti terasa sebab tiada siapa nk tolong dia lepaskan ikan sembilang yg berduri dr kail lagi and what she or we will miss the most is he's no longer here to go fishing again.
i'll miss him when seeing the fishing rods by the wall(his is the longest and heaviest one)

saya akn rindu melihat teksi merahnya di depan rumah.
saya akn rindu naik teksi free of charge
saya akn rindu pewangi teksi yang saya akn pening setiap kali naik sbb pewangi itu oren.
dan saya akn rindu saying proudly"bapak saya seorang pemandu teksi"

he's no longer here.
he's no more with us.
he left.

to my beloved father,
rest in peace father,because we are here to look after mak,and as u had promised me before,i will always send u doa as long as i live.
semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.
ameen.

.the not so beautiful life.

salam.

when i'm thinking about my own problems,they are the biggest that one could have.
but just now when someone poured out her problems to my ears,my perception changed.there's no problem that is too big nor too small.if u think yours is the most annoying and frustrating ones,go listen to other people's prob.surely u'll be grateful for what god has tested upon you.at least you are not the only one who's carrying the burden of never ending problems.lots of people out there dun have the solutions of their problems for years.even some take the short-cut,comitted suicide.nauzubillah.bila ada masalah sekarang...i easily gave up.i guess it's hard to be strong like some people.i'm scared of being alone.i'm scared of everyone is leaving me and i end up growing old alone.i'm scared if everyone is happy with their own family while i'm all alone with no one beside me.im just scared being alone.

don't go away.stay with me.that's all i'm asking for.

.kawan.

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salam.

masa mula-mula nk tulis..terpikir gak,tajuk ni cm buhsan.even the word itself is plain boring and v. typical.letakla sahabat ke...teman akrab ke...rakan baik ku ke...tapi i insist nk letak juga .kawan.
ada apa dengan kawan ni?

meh saya nk cerita.pernahkan kamu rasa bahagia sebab ada kawan?pernahkan kamu-kamu menangis sebab terharu atau sedih kerana kawan?pernahkan kamu dan kamu betol2 nak peluk kawan kamu kerana rindu atau lama tak jumpa?hurmm...mungkin ini semua saya katakan kerana saya perempuan.emotional kata org laki.hahaha....maybe the situation is a bit different untuk lelaki bcos they seldom show their emotion towards a friend.

ok..berbalik tentang kawan.i've been thru all of the above.sometimes in friendship,there is up n downyer.hari ini,kamu rasa dia lah kamu kamu dunia akhirat...the bf.tahu apa?the best friend.better one,the bff which stands for best friend forever.nak lebih lagi?the bffffff.best friend forever and ever and ever.....tapi the next day maybe things will change.u fight about something and boom!no more best friend.i hate u..u hate me..but if dia btol2 kawan kamu...atau pun kamu btol2 rasa persahabatn tu ikhlas,kamu akn cari penyelesaiannya.maafkan dia.bagi peluang kepada dia.actually peluang tu untuk kamu juga.mesti lebih manis fship tu bukan?at least next time,kedua-dua kamu lebih menjaga percakapan dan batas-batas dalam persahabatan.

bila saya boleh luahkan apa sahaja yang saya rasa,be it sedih,gembira,apa hal je lah dengan seseorangan....saya rasa gembira,lega sbb at least ada org sudi mendengar..happy bila dia gelak-gelak bersama saya dan terharu bila dia menangis bersama-sama saya bila saya sedih.dan saya juga akn cuba sebaik mungkin memberi diri saya untuk dia.the principle is easy.give and take.she listen to you and u listen to her.maybe at times...i'm being selfish.or the other one is being selfish.but there must be rooms for improvement.be open-minded.talk to each other about what went wrong.that is what i've learnt from my past experiences.u realised ur mistake and u improvise.mungkin org kata friends,they come and go.but i least i keep the good ones with me.saya dah rasa pahitnya hilang kawan baik.tapi bila dia kembali,saya tahu saya tak kehilangan sebenarnya..dia ada,cuma saya tak nampak dia berdiri bersama2 saya dimana2.saya juga ada kawan,kawan smp ke syurga saya pgl.sbb dia juga msih berdiri utuh untuk saya.w'pun macam-macam dtg menduga,saya tahu dia ada.bila saya pass exam saya,saya tahu dengan siapa saya nak kongsi kelegaan dan kegembiraan itu.bila saya rasa saya tak berdaya untuk menghadapi hari-hari mendatang..saya tahu dari mana saya akn dapat semangat saya kembali klau bukan dr kawan-kawan saya.it's easier to share sumthing with the ones yg tahu and faham akn saya,keadaan diri dan hidup saya.and i called them my friends.bukankah org kata antara benda plg manis dalam dunia ni adalah cinta?saya tak nafikan tetapi jikalau kamu ada tekanan dalam percintaan,apa lagi yg tinggal?the safest relationship in the world is friendship,i think.lupakan keluarga seketika kerana saya tak mahu membandingkan pertalian darah di sini.it's about how we trust strangers and include them in our own personal life.seorang kawan saya ada berkata,"how do we cherish our friends?by including them in our dreams!"and there's a saying by Imam Ghazali,"sahabat yang baik adalah sahabat yang selalu mengingati sahabat-sahabatnya di dalam doanya".

sebenarnya entry ni dibuat setelah sesi luahan perasaan dengan kawan saya.di tgh2 perbualan kami sedar...what would we do without each other..tentunya hidup lebih rugi sedikit tanpa kawan.hidup di perantauan mcm saya juga amat memerlukan kawan-kawan di sisi.housemates,coursemates,really meant a lot to me.imagine waktu keluar makan bersama-sama...travelling together,bincang soalan apa nk keluar in exam...itu semua adalah benda-benda kecil tetapi bernilai untuk saya,even buat saya tersenyum bila fikir-fikir balik.

in conclusion,sahabat bagi saya adalah anugerah tuhan yang plg bernilai buat saya.ini mcm ayat dlm novel kan?haha...tapi i dunno how to put in words as to appreaciate my friends.so selagi boleh....saya mahu kalian bersama2 saya smp mati and klau diizinkan tuhan,sampai ke syurga.