usia antara masa..

Seorang ahli ibadah bernama Isam Bin Yusuf, sangat warak dan khusyuk
solatnya. Namun, dia selalu khuatir kalau-kalau ibadahnya kurang
khusyuk dan selalu bertanya kepada orang yang dianggapnya lebih
ibadahnya, demi untuk memperbaiki dirinya yang selalu dirasainya
kurang khusyuk.

Pada suatu hari, Isam menghadiri majlis seorang abid bernama Hatim
Al-Assam dan bertanya, "Wahai Aba Abdurrahman, bagaimanakah caranya
tuan solat?" Hatim berkata, "Apabila masuk waktu solat, aku berwudhuk
zahir dan batin."
Isam bertanya, "Bagaimana wudhuk zahir dan batin itu? " Hatim berkata,
"Wudhuk zahir sebagaimana biasa iaitu membasuh semua anggota
wudhuk dengan air". Sementara wudhuk batin ialah membasuh anggota dengan
tujuh perkara :-
* Bertaubat
* Menyesali dosa yang telah dilakukan
* Tidak tergila-gilakan dunia
* Tidak mencari/mengharap pujian orang (riya')
* Tinggalkan sifat berbangga
* Tinggalkan sifat khianat dan menipu
* Meninggalkan sifat dengki."

Seterusnya Hatim berkata, "Kemudian aku pergi ke masjid, aku kemaskan
semua anggotaku dan menghadap kiblat.
Aku berdiri dengan penuh kewaspadaan dan aku rasakan:
1.aku sedang berhadapan dengan Allah,
2.Syurga di sebelah kananku,
3.Neraka di sebelah kiriku,
4.Malaikat Maut berada di belakangku, dan
5.aku bayangkan pula aku seolah-olah berdiri di atas titian 'Siratal
mustaqim' dan menganggap bahawa solatku kali ini
adalah solat terakhir bagiku, kemudian aku berniat dan bertakbir dengan
baik."

"Setiap bacaan dan doa didalam solat, aku faham maknanya kemudian aku
rukuk dan sujud dengan tawadhuk, aku bertasyahud dengan penuh
pengharapan dan aku memberi salam dengan ikhlas. Beginilah aku bersolat
selama 30 tahun."

Apabila Isam mendengar, menangislah dia kerana membayangkan ibadahnya
yang kurang baik bila dibandingkan dengan Hatim.

astaghfirullah hal 'azim...

to be honest,it's hard for me to really concentrate in my solah.i dunno is it because the level of imaan in me isn't enuff or perhaps im too engrossed n obsessive about dunya until i forgot that akhirah is the eternity..bila nak berubah?bila nak betul2 insaf wahai azimah?

aku kan menghilang..dalam pekat malam...

Mimpi yg sempurna

Mungkinkah, bilaku bertanya
Pada Bintang-bintang
Dan bila Kumula merasa
Bahasa kesunyian.....

Sedarkan
Aku yang berjalan
Dalam kehampaan
Terdiam terpada terbatah
Semua dalam keraguan...

Aku dan semua
Yang terluka
kerana kita....

Aku kan menghilang
Dalam pekat malam
Lepasku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Tentang erti kita
Dalam mimpi yang sempurna....

Aku dan semua
Yang terluka
kerana kita

Aku kan menghilang
Dalam pekat malam
Lepasku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Tentang erti kita

Aku kan menghilang
Dalam pekat malam
Lepasku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Tentang erti kita
Dalam mimpi yang sempurna.....

i listen to this song nearly 20times already.no reason,i just like it so much.i prefer the acoustic version more(sbb ada suara kanak2 comel as an intro..).peterpan rocks!i wish i could go to their concert or performance one day...bestnyerr!!!of all indon bands,i love peterpan.their songs maybe not to loud to my ears kot.

i had a date last saturday.i actually went all the wayyy to newcastle to date.huhu..mmg saya org yg pelik.sumtimes i just followed my heart.whenever it says the love inside me need to be refilled,i do exactly what it takes!i went there on the saturday and im oledy back here in dublin on the next day which is sunday.penat?damn exausted to make me slept 21hours non-stop!haha another crazy thing i did yesterday.anyone can break my record?heheh.but everything worth a while..we spent the whole day together jalan2..shopping(yeah i shopped like mad and left him pancit half-way)!hihihi..i wonder next time would he agree to date with me again?heheh..arrived 10mins earlier than i was scheduled,waited around 1/2 hour for him.then we straight away headed to southshields n boarded the ferry to northshields.kami mmg suka naik feri.it reminds us of feri pulau pinang.kan..kan..i thought we can duduk menghayati alam dalam feri tuh,sekali dlm cam 5menet je dah smp.it's very nearrrrr!hahahah...but it's ok.as long as dapat lepas gian naik feri.straight away upon arriving,we took bus to the shopping centre 10 mins from the terminal.erm dia cam tempat murah,nike factory outlet,m&s outlets,next,body shop depot n many more.i bought a pair of shoes and the body shops gift sets.after letih berjalan,we treated ourselves with mocha mixed with chocolate,his fave!and cont our journey back to newcastle city centre.shop some more n dinner time...chicken cottage!i dun need any fancy or expensive restaurant as chicken cottage has exactly what i need to feed my empty stomach.bestnyerr klau ada kat dublin!and later that night we watched ghost rider.azimah tak tido!heheh..w'pun penat,i enjoyed the muvi!(tapikan saya beli a big bucket of popcorn just in case i ngantuk untuk dikunyah which was finished by u-know-who laa kan..)finally we took a train n off we went to the airport.i have no problem in saying gudbye to him everytime we met before.i mean no tears..just a bit of sadness but this time the feeling is even greater.but still i didn't cry=)i hope we can meet again in the near future although the chances is not even 1 percent.uncertainty is the major obstacle in our r/ship.the nature of his work and the distance than separates us make things really difficult!but deep inside i know we'll survive=)..

okies...i have to end my entry here cos im very sleepy rite now.actually im quite frustrated with what i've been working on just now,no get my blog a new skin n layout.but after nearly 3hrs,i gave up!tak bley..nak sgt tanya incik syir but dia bz ngan assignment.besok masih ada..

gudie nite dublin.

painless happiness

remember i told u i was sick that day?i'm actually still not in a good state of health yet.blame the exams for making my sickness from bad to worse,from symptoms to physical manifestations!last nite my eyes turned red.yap both of them!making me look like pontianak with my pale face.and to worsen the condition,there's a sticky fluid coming out from my eyes which acting like a glue making my eyelids stuck together.i couldn't read as the accumulation of fluid lead to blurry vision and my nicely printed notes had transformed to pages full of cursived-type handwrittings.i was scheduled for the principles if infection paper the next morning at 9 and i'm screwed!

however,this morning,the exam went well.not as screwed as i thought it would be.but my eyes did attract attentions from my fellow friends.they thought i had stayed up all nite burning midnite oil for the POI paper but fyi,i was soundly asleep 15mins to 1.it's considered early for a 'burung hantu' like me tho..when i talked to him jz now he told me he slept at 4 and woke up at 6,and cont his sleep another 1-2 hours or so.wut an opposite incident!he rarely slept that late.well..he is very punctual in everything he does even in his sleep-wake cycle while i on the other hand is in the extreme opposite!=D but i guess that's how we are connected to each other.he's my alarm clock while im his adrenaline inhibitor to make him loosen up a bit..(although kekadang i raised his blood pressure even more.hihi)eh enuff merapu on that matter.the most important thing is,be able to catch up with ur loved one after a looongggg hectic week enuff to make u healthier,happier and even prettier!

planning to go jln2 today but hurrmmmm..maybe nope.nak utter a word pun susah,ada hati nak meronggeng pulak.hehe.okies.enuff for now.hopefully tomorrow i get my voice back and i can chill out sebaik mungkin!hehe.

glad u came.

unfortunately.
i caught a cold n sorethroat.
exams in 2days to come.
3 halls lozenges+1 strepsil,5 n a half tiny bits of panadol.
wut else do i need?
perhaps a pillow n a warm duvet.


huhu..


yesterday she already went back to france.
how i enjoyed spending time with her.
im glad u came dear!



perfume.
been thinking so much bout it.
my mind was hooked!
red bottle and fruity smell.
should i or should i not?