.sick of sickness.

salam.

first and foremost,
bear with me.

i hate waking up early knowing that i have another terrible day to go through
i hate when i'm not being able to use both nostrils to breath optimally
i hate knowing my runny nose is producing mucous non-stop when it is my first time into OT.
i hate knowing that despite the flu and cough,i still have to go into OT.
I hate the fact that how well i palpate the liver,spleen or balloting the kidneys,i hardly can feel them.
i hate when i have to stare down not knowing the answer of the questions being asked
i hate when the registrar just giving me her "mean" look when i say i don't know.
i hate the smell of hospital
i hate hearing that my patient just died 3 minutes ago.
i hate going to clinic and being ignored because docs are busy with tonnes of patient.
i hate the feeling of illness

but somehow,

i love this one line of sentence....

cure sometimes,relief often,comfort always...

=)

may Allah give me more strengh and grant me patience to go through what we call life.
ameen.

.mata yang melihat.

salam,



actually nothing interesting pun nk tulis.just a quick post on what happen today.

i got up at half past six today.i have to be at hospital 10 mins b4 9.woke up early just to read a few chapters on ophtalmology(a study about structure and funtions of the eye and what can go wrong).sebenarnya,dalam otak saya nie skeeetttt sgt pengetahuan tentang mata ni.structure mata nie bg saya agk complex thus need more reading so that at least i go to the eye clinic with something in my brain.i'm a bit nervous to start my three days of ophtalmology rotation because i know no matter how much i study,i won't be able to grab all the eye tests at once.too many.however, honestly speaking,the eye tests are relatively easier than the tests of the other body systems.cuma nk pick up lambat sket la.nasib saya agk baik tau harini sbb the lecturer cum eye surgeon that i used to hate sebelum nie tidak mngenakan saya.he picked one of us to perform the tests on each other and luckily i was just the other girl who got tested.so my work is easy..act like patient and i deserved an oscar.hahaha..twice.i guessed he knew that i wasn't prepared to perform any test and he let me be what i can do best.hehe.the surrounding and environment at the eye clinic are so peaceful and calm.jauh lah beza dgn A n E.haha.kurang busy and the docs nmpak relax ja.mmg lah kan.ini yg membuatkan saya terpikir nk specialise dalam ophtalmology ja.at least i dun have to work for long hours and suasana pun tenang je.well..a long way to go lagi.we'll see....=D
klau rajin do search for these tests as most of us can do this at home provided ada kelengkapan yg diperlukan la, and they are useful especially for diabetics.diabetes is the risk factor for vision problems and early preventions and measures save us from going blind.most of the eye tests can be found here=)

this website is informative and fun too!

http://www.richmondeye.com/

tomorrow i have to attend 2 cataract surgeries and a glaucoma op.will be in OT(operation theater) for the 1st time.although the ops will start at 8.30a.m,i really can't wait!

oklah nk cont with my reading....mr dervan(bukan nama sebenar),the lecturer aka the eye surgeon yg berbasikal ke uni utk mengajar itu has advised us to read a bit on cataract.takut pulak esok2 saya kena jd main actress pulak dalam OT..tak tau payah lak kan.tak ke haru?hehe.

till then,have a nice day semua!muah!

.the crazy residence years.

salam.

hye,i'm back.
pooh..poooh...eww..this blog is dusty and full of cobwebs everywhere.
blame it on my daily schedule.i'm busy as a bee everyday.had long days for the past two weeks,when my clinical years have started.with the great amount of stress,sleep is the first thing that comes to mind everytime i reached home hence reducing the time i have to blog.sorry yer...but seriously,i just felt drained out everyday when i got home.
what about weekends?weekend is precious!my precious!(pronounce ala-ala makhluk dlm LOTR tu).hikhik.hang out with good buddies during weekends is a must.yeah during this time,we told stories,catching ups and melepas rindu(di sini juga sesi mengutuk interns,registrars and fellow consultants!)hahaha.....lawak gila.i thought i'm the only one who had bad days in hospitals because of my monstrous registrar,but it turned out that the rest of my buddies have their fair share of same experiences.weh korang...jd registrar atau consultant jgn ganas-ganas ok,apatah lagik interns.serious tak best!

i'm attached to endocrinology team and guess what kind of patients i met during clinics?a bunch of people with diabetes type 2 mostly and those with hypo/hyperthyroidism.on the second day,i was asked about hypothyroidism and i blew it.felt so stupid and down the whole day.huhu...tu la..masa pre-clinical malas nk studi.dlm byak2 team,endocrinology was the last thing on my list.i don't mind getting neuro,but when it comes to endocrine,god....i knew nothing!served me right!haha.but as what my mum told me,this is where i learn something.biar bodoh sekarang..jgn bodoh selamanya.kan?that's enough about mad skool,sebut pun rasa nausea(nausea=the feeling of vomitting).haha.next paragraph is sumthing personal.klau korang rajin,bacalah yerk.klau rasa tak penting,abaikan.but i think this deserves a space in my blog=)

last thursday,when i came back from hospital,i got a notice that telling me i've received a parcel and since no one at home,the parcel couldn't be delivered and was sent back to the nearest post office.(ni yg malas ni sbb the nearest tu sebenaqnya kena amek 2 bus).the next day right after a loooong day at hospital,with anxiety plus palpitation,i rushed to the post office.couldn't contain the excitement really..tersenyum sorang2 dlm bus.ahaha.the last parcel i received from malaysia was erm........alamak lama gila smp tak igt dah.lagipun,it's expensive to send anything to me here,so i told my mum no need of sending me anything.when one of the staff handed me the parcel,i just couldn't wait any longer to open it.tapi merepek sgt lah nk bukak depan tu.nti dia kata"hish budak ni,tau la dpt parcel dr jauh,jgn la desperate sgt!".so i quickly get a bus and went straight home.to cut the story short(laepun mst korang pun nk tau apa dlm parcel tu kan?)hehe..

wait...i'll let the pictures tell eveything.



the box!(tak smpat amik pic dgn wrapper dia sbb tak sabar trus bukak.ahaks)

what's inside?jeng..jeng..jeng..

the very shweet memory lane card



the bestest tea in the world,always my fave strawberry tea from c.highlands.i've tasted different kind of teas from around the world but trust me,this is the best!

the osram energy saving daylight bulb.dublin sucks,semua bulb kaler oren.sakit mata and gelap.sekarang bilik saya dh cukup pencahayaan!=D

the unique sarawak keychain(nk gantung apa ek kat keychain nie?)

and last but not least,

the veryyyy cute hoodie dress from here--->


eh,wait a sec! there's one more thing in the green plastic bag kan?hehe..yg tu biarlah rahsia key.
=p

from who?

i think i gave enough clue/clues.

terima kasih daun keladi,
lain kali boleh la hantar lagi!

ihiks!

thanx awak.the parcel really made my day especially when everything else seems to fall apart.doakan saya kat cni yerk. 2 more years and insyaAllah we'll be closer to each other.

so..that's the stories behind my hibernation.want more?

tunggu.....

i'll be back....

with more interesting stuffs

insyaAllah.

till then.take care peeps=)

a productive day.saturday it is.

salam.
may u all be in the best of health and iman.


first of all,
THE WEATHER IS CRAP THESE FEW DAYS!yesterday it was 14 degree celcius and today is 3 degree celcius!wth?

however despite the freezing state of dublin,my day was wonderful alhamdulillah=)

saturday started off with EnT and ophtalmology exam,followed by lunch berjemaah kat clonskeugh mosque and the best part was of course sesi membeli belah with dearest freinds.
what a day!

it's been quite a long time we didn't hang out like this.exams,pcp project,skills workshops....all of these have taken our time all together.since semalam(or perhaps yesterdays)mr jay dah sebok2 msg kat facebook asking us to make ourselves available after exam.not to let him down,we just followed whatever plans he had in mind.turned out,today mmg productive. . i ate a lot today.A LOT!starting from tandoori chicken with rice for lunch followed by mocha frappucino and kebab SPAR for dinner.eh,ada lagi,half cup of curly fries from mcD.hoho,what an achievement for me in terms of quantity of foods i stuffed in my tummy.no leftovers today,suma licin di ngap oleh saya.(nasi di clonskeugh adalah impossible untuk dihabiskan oleh saya dan kebab SPAR selalunya adalah meal saya untuk 2 kali).maybe this is what i called post-exam hunger where the amount of food eaten proportional to the difficulty of the exam.i rather not to talk about the exam as it was very very frustrating.igt kami nk amek postgrad exam ke hapa?dahla negative marking,minus 1/2 okay...klau salah 2 dah tolak i markah.grrrr......ok just ignore about the exam.

supposedly,we'll be watching awake and 27 dresses tonight but due to some technical problems,instead of watching movie,we proceded to mcD,finished up kebab and off we went home.dah lotih sebenarnya.hiks.dengan tak cukup tidonya last nite,arini pulak berjalan sana sini,mmg all of us were exhausted.so there goes my saturday..

owh i have an interesting story to tell.last thursday,i was supposed to go to holles st maternity hospital for the 2 hours lecture on postnatal care(mother and neonates)postnatal care is the care taken or procedures done just after delivery.neonates is the newborns from day one to one month old.the 1st hour is about postnatal care of the mother and the second hour dealt with neonates.our prof(the scariest prof who scolded students who eat and drink in class,not even plain water from your own tumbler or water bottle!) actually showed us fresh placenta(in malay we called it 'uri').according to him,it was delivered early that morning.the class reaction was eeeuuwww...errgghhh...eee......grosss.....hahaha..hahah.i still remember,when i was young,when my sister gave birth,my mum was the one who cleaned,wrapped it up and buried them.i was asking my mum to have a look at it but it was a big no-no for a child to see it.ntah kenapa i pun tatau.but today,huuu..dh tgok pun and i'll be seeing it again nxt yr when i have to deliver babies in my obs and gynae rotation.it looks like a fresh meat with very red coloration and it smells.that's how i see it.hehe.cool huh.med students lain maybe dah tgok berpuluh-puluh,but as a first timer,it's erm.....pelik.hihi


sekadar gambar hiasan

for your information,i'm going to start clinical attachment this monday for 3 weeks at mater hosp before continue with surgery at st vincent's hospital for another 3 weeks and lastly to the yet unknown peripheral hospital for the final 3 weeks.wish me luck peeps.i've no idea nor expectation how is it going to be like but i do hope it's a pleasant experience and fun?...at least useful in my future career.

oklah,need to manage my room kemas-kemas.hope to see u soon.stay tuned readers!=D

never-ending works

salam.

sorry for the long hybernation.took my time to recuperate.to face new challenge in life.
alhamdulillah.everything seems to be better.there are still remnants of sadness but insyaAllah,time will heal and i hope for more happy things to cheer me up.

what a hectic week i've been going through now.just finished with a group project.feel like a huge stone had been lifted up from my shoulder.the professional clinical practise(PCP)presentation this afternoon went well.alhamdulillah.although we have been bombarded with so many questions from the panel judges and fellow classmates in Q and A session,we managed to answer them well despite nervousness and shaky voices that have been disturbing us throughout the presentation.well done groupmates!let us wait for the marks patiently and i hope they gave us what we deserved after series of meetings and a significant amount of efforts that have taken most of our precious time.

next to come:PCP mcq(tomorrow) and EnT mcq(this is horrible as the exam costs us 50%of our final exam marks and it is on saturday!yeah irish people drink everyday so weekend is nothing.)

in this kind of time where free time seems impossible,it would be better if my beloveds are around.mak,kakak and syir.good friends are not excluded.their presence would definately make a difference.but erm....reality sucks.here i am,so far away from home,studying till midnite and woke up the next morning for the sake of doing exams and the cycle goes on.or should i be grateful for the life i chose?

i need a break!



strolling along the beach would be a perfect idea tambah-tambah ada ice-cream sekali..perghh..

okaylah,nak continue reading PCP.btw,sumone went up to cameron highlands untuk bergambar but ended up shopping!apa kes?ahaks!