welcoming the second half of ramadhan.

salam.

how's life everyone?hopefully all of us is blessed with good health to endure the second half of this holy month of ramadhan.jaga perut,jaga mulut and tak lupa sucikan niat=)insyaAllah byk ganjarannya.

hmmmph....actually i dun have any particular topic to write today.just signed in cos i miss my blog.since i'm here,let's talk bout sumthing yerk...

puasa dan kedatangan Syawal...
it's already 2 weeks we've been fasting.feel like only yesterday i uttered my niat to start fasting.time really flies huh...listening to raya songs that already been playing quite regularly in malaysia's radio stations actually touched me emotionally.it's been 3 years i celebrated eid here.this year going to be my fourth time.sad?missing ketupat?lemang?mercun?erm..no feelings sgt dah about all those stuffs.however,i miss the main events during eid,asking for forgiveness and duit raya from parents,family and relatives.huhuh..still remember everytime raya,usually early in the morning,me and my siblings would line up and usually my eldest sis will lead the way,we asked for forgiveness from our parents and most of the times we cried thinking back of the bad things we've done to them.they too,maybe touched by our sincerity,cried while hugging us.but my mum has this special way of not showing her true feelings.she would laugh once my sis start to apologise.i mean really laughed so that she can supress her automatic reaction to cry together with us.mak mana tak tersentuh kalau anak-anak dia menangis mcm budak kecik mintak ampun dan maaf kan?tapi mak saya mmg terror lah.she did not cry.haha.in twenty years time,i would follow what she does.haha...

the exciting part,DUIT RAYA!!!!
okies,talking about duit raya,i didn't get those for years since i'm here.if kumpul2 rasanya leh beli apa ek....hmmmm..laptop baru kot.hehe.tipulah.usually my dad gave me the most out of all people.still remember when i managed to fast the whole month without any holes.masa tu belom ehem..ehem lae.hihi.earlier, i told my dad if i manage to fast the whole ramadhan,he has to gimme something in return.but he said,it's not right to expect any rewards since i should do it merely for GOD.i took his words without any objection cos i know it is true.to my suprise, on the hari raya,he gave me a green envelope with 6 pieces of red notes inside.i jumped with joy cos that amount was so big at that time and that's the most anyone ever gave me as duit raya.he told me the large amount of money is not a bribe or anything related to make me posa penuh,but it was for the effort i put thruout the whole month.owh..how i missed him.sob..sob..sob...we are not that close to each other as im not his fave daughter(my 2nd sis is his apple),but i think he's getting more and more important now to me.i tend to miss him more each day.sumthing i dun really feel when i was younger.yeah,we always have issues between us back then.apa-apapun,masa raya i'm definately going to call them and wish them 'selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin',the precious few words that is so significant and meaningful once a year.must not forget!

the jiwang but not so jiwang part...
it's been nearly 2 weeks i didn't hear from my seaman,fyi,it's normal for us not keeping in touch with each other up to 2 weeks.no sms,phone calls,emails whatsoever.nothing.so to u guys out there who have full access and limitless time to communicate with ur loved ones(could be ur bf,family,friends),do appreciate it.i'm not sad neither regret any bits of this.this is what i chose.i'm just thinking how was his ramadhan so far.fasting onboard is definately different.seronokkah berbuka?cukup tak makan?bagun sahur ke?am i thinking too much,worrying for no reason?doa saya,tak kira di mana saja dia berada,Allh akn lebarkan peliharaanNya kepada dia dan hopefully u are stronger under any circumstances.

okie,that's all for now.i have some reading materials to finish off.
see u guys soon.

~a.m.h~