melayu di mana-mana-part 1

salam to all.

this is a delayed entry.i supposed to write this entry as soon after i got back from switzerland but syndrom M(malas le) mengatasi segala.it's better late than never right?okies this is roughly about my visit to switzerland,the heaven on earth!

there were 7 of us in this trip.we pushed off around 12.30 in the afternoon from dublin airport and landed at zurich airport 1 hour and 55 minutes later.the swiss time is an hour advance from dublin time.sesampainya kami di sana,we straight away looking for bank and money changer to withdraw some money.1 swiss franc equivalent to .63 euro.after that we went to find a license to move around switzerland.train tiket laa....in switzerland,train is the main mode of transportation.after a short discussion,we agreed to buy 8 days swiss pass that enabled us to board trains,busses and also ferries everywhere,anytime around this country.best kaan...but there goes my 200++euro!yep it's expensive.looking at the bright side,we can go anywhere freely.takyah susah2 nk beli tiket baru,beratur and etc.lagipun nawaitu mmg nk jalan.hihi.after we had our lunch,we straight away heading to st moritz,the 1st destination.nk sampai sini mmg susah.in order to reach st. moritz,we need to change trains. we got off the 1st train and bila tgok tiket tu,tak paham pula how the train system works.we misunderstood the schedule and lebey malang lae we missed the 2nd train by 2 mins only.it's hard for tourists like us who do not understand french and bahasa swiss ni.luckily the 7 brains work well together and we managed to find another route to st.moritz.we arrived v.late,around 11 pm.the journey was around 3-4 hours and it's already dark.st.moritz is beautiful even at night.this a heaven for professional skiing fans.our hostel situated quite far from the train station but shortly after we arrived,a bus came and took us to our hostel.well not exactly in front of the hostel's door,we got to walk around 10mins gak la.it was hard to locate the hostel.we knocked the wrong hotel at first.when we found our hostel,it was locked since it's nearly midninght.luckily ada makcik mcgyver tekan2 lock buttons kat tepi pintu and the pintu was unlocked.klau tak alamat tidoq luaq hostel ler.i think the temperature at that time was below 0 degree celcius.freeeziiinnnggg!!!


in the train on the way to st.moritz


st moritz


beautiful huh?look at the peaks.white with snow

the next morning,we had our breakfast at the hostels.it's buffet style and the bfast served beyond our expectations.i had the most delicious,yummy cereal ever.betull!!the cheese and breads all looked like they were home-made and served with style.


what a refreshing morning!

if u notice,there a bunch of malaysians sitting at the next table.we met them before we had our bfast.yg paling best,one of them is my friend from manchester.we 1st met at BTN.what a small world.dtg jauh2 pun jumpa malaysians.kawan pulak tu.seronok sgt...last i met her was when i spent a few nights at her place during this time last year.

next:


more stories in the next post!tunggguuu....

credit to jay baharin for the pics.

.christmas eve.

salam.

bonjour everyone.just got home from switzerland this evening.WOW!!!i think i fell in love with swiss.seriously the best ever holiday with friends!wacko travel buddies make me gone mad all the way!the places are beautiful with so many breathtaking views sampai rasa klau amik gambaq pun rugi sbb termiss byk menda.lots to appreciate in swiss.GOD's creations are PERFECTLY beautiful.it's naturally beautiful!pics will be uploaded soon since the cameraman might still be in jet-lag mood.hehe.

sneak preview:

salam.

before i go and make myself a cuppa hot choc atau nama lebeh glamor lagik milo,i would like to post one entry at least during this exam week.exam nearly over leaving me another paper to go.huuuu..seriously this time, all the papers were HARD!i'm expecting worse for tomorrow's.haiya,why couldn't the lecturer at least give us chance to score before we step into clinical years.ni npak gaya cam laluan sukar dan berduri ja.sob..sob..sob..nak studi pun tadak mood,it gets dark v.early during winter days making me feel like sleeping as early as 5pm.sgt tatahan nk abes exam.huhu...tapi sumthing really keeps me going,the thought of going to swiss right after i finish my exam.at the same time,sgt cuak juga sbb swiss is much more colder than dublin and hurmm i dunno how am i goin to survive there.hish....all the preps(appropriate clothes and attire) were done!so tomorrow after 8 lepas exam balik and dah kena start packing.itu lagik satu kemalasan.well....itu akn dipikiqkan kemudian ye tuan2 dan puan2..sekarang ni satu paper lae.i hate haematology.complicated!!!!!huwaa.....yaAllah permudahkanlah!diseases related to blood are not easy and v.confusing.furthemore we cannot rely on past-years questions for clinical vignette since there are hardly repetition in this module unlike other subjects(rajinnyerr lecturers subject ni wat soklan.don't u have other family and personal agenda to attend to?)oklah...malas nk merambu macam2 lae.exam tetap exam but gud news is after an episode of negotiation with my mum,she said this"this time takpa,klau leh lulus pun dh cukup bagus."hoooyyyeaaahhh....thanks mak.i won't take it for granted.i promise...


ok sblom i stop ni gambo gila-gila time stress camni.hehe..





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the precious!

salam.

alhamdulillah,after nearly 2 weeks(esok genap 2 mgu!)of torturous waiting,the precious has finally arrived!dh nak sakit jiwa tunggu.i think lacking of patience brought me to this stage,pre-schizophrenic state.my lappy akhirnya boleh di switch on dengan bantuan just-arrived power adaptor.nice timing since my winter exam gonna kick-off tomorrow.tak boleh la enjoy sgt with my fave series sbb kena study.huhuh..tapi alhamdulillah again,i again have access to my online study materials which have been abandoned all this while.ni baru Allah tarik nikmat kebendaan and i know i will get it replaced.what if Allah tarik nikmatnya yg lain yg irreplaceable?nau'zubillah hi min zalik.tapi what had happened reminds me that we must always be grateful of what we have no matter how small or big that thing is because we never know the consequences we might face for losing it.alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah...~with an ear-2-ear smile on my face~
been trying to upload the pics of the precious but failed.maybe the the pics are not in the right format because i snapped the pics using my hp.takpalah,next time sbb i couldn't afford to waste more time since i got loads to read(tulih blog takpa pulak?ahaks!)


p/s:doakan saya boleh menjawab exam dengan baik ye kengkawan.pesan imam ghazali:hadiah terbaik buat seorang sahabat ialah sentiasa mengingati mereka di dalam doa kita=)

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Now playing: Radio MISG - Kamal Uddin - Durood & Salaam
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cobaan...

salam.

hari ni saya sgt bengang!dah jumaat tapi adaptor yg saya pesan still not in the country yet.i've traced the parcel,and that's what i got.what do you mean not in the country yet?it's nearly 2 weeks for god sake.what a torturous weeks i have to endure!huwaa...selasa start exam.so friends in ireland,dun ever pesan any brg from china,hongkong atau countries yg sewaktu dengannya.take ages for delivery.kunun nk sampai 6 working days!bloody lies!if only i knew it would take this long to arrive,i probably buy the new one from apple store here straight away.i dun care if i have to pay extra 50euro but dapat on the spot is better than have to wait sampai berjanggut.ya Allah berikanlah aku kesabaran...huhuhu.(mind the language!)

okie...sudahlah meluahkan kemarahan tu kan.sakit ati and cepat tua.today is my mum's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,MAK!u r the greatest mom on earth.i'm thankful to god for giving me YOU!the mom yg tak nag,the mom yg never missed going to school ambil my report card dr sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah,the mom yg never hit me,never once!sekadar cubit2 syg tu normal la kan,and finally the mom yg i can tell everything about me,my life to her.my first and most important advisor dalam segala hal even personal ones.may Allah grant u dengan keberkatan umur yg panjang dan sentiasa disirami nur dan hidayahNya.i love u mak!(so ada org nak belanja new green jubah for u as a buffday pressie eh?best le tu...wait for my hadiah pulak eh)~smile~

okies peeps,doakan saya yg akn start exam tak lama lagi nie key.best of luck to my fellow UCDians.kita boleh!

i need them.thank you!

salam.

di kala saya asyik dirundung malang,tuhan kurniakan pelangi untuk menyinari hari saya di kala hujan rintik-rintik ni.i received 2 booster shots today.to boost up my self-esteem and to motivate me to stay strong thru thick and thin of life.

one:got a called from sendai,japan.although i received them once every fortnights,this time was different.i thought the vessel is already on it's way back to bintulu sbb the duration is over a week already.selalunya seminngu dia dah smp japan.so i didn't put too much hope in hearing his voice again this week.but miracle does happen kan.hehe.he said the journey was a bit delayed.i really need a bit of advice and some love.these few days have been rough.few times i felt like breaking down and cry.but well...i managed to save my tears for later days.haha.i woke up this morning to pick up call from him.everytime he called,i must be in my selekeh condition dengan suara bgun tidoq.so kan dh kantoi bgun lambat.everytime.huh!but that doesn't matter at all as long as he heard me saying good morning and i heard him saying he misses me everytime.hehe.poyo!ahaks.

two:i received few offline messages that keep my smile throughout the day.my fiend,former classmate and roomate when i were in mrsm pendang is coming over to join me in UCD.teruja gila rasa.to tell the truth,i envied my friends who have lots of their classmates studying together under one roof.sampai boleh bukak persatuan.since i were from new mrsm,tak byak students yg fly ke cni.just two of us,me and shereen,but she's working here.the situation is different.at least with her presence,semangat sket saya kat cni.see u soon rai.for your info,she's pursuing her phd here.yes at 22!amazing kan..she's getting her phd while im only half way thru my 1st degree.tapikan...we are chasing DRs here,so not bad lah kan.hehe.

abes cerita ttg mereka.apa cerita tentang saya?well nothing much.i slept for 3 bloody hours just now.hello azimah,blom malam lagi and furthermore you'll be sitting major exams next week kaaannn?huhu..igtkan saya bila saya terleka ye kengkawan esp my housemates.wake me up when i fall asleep except at night la kan.ahahah.

ok,i got to go.got lots to revise.doakan adaptor lappy saya will arrive soon and SAFELY,then i'll blog like no tomorrow.=)

.akuMAHUkamu.

salam.
hari ini entry akn dibuat dalam bahasa melayu.sila tahan mata dengan ayat-ayat skema tahap cipan ini.hehe.yerk,arini tetiba rasa nak merepek dalam bahasa melayu.bila tingat orang malaysia dan orang laut,automatik rasa nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu.

katanya mungkin minggu depan dia balik ke bintulu dan trus boleh balik rumah.sign off.baguslah kalu begitu kerana saya mahu kamu hari-hari.bukan seminggu sekali.bukan di tengah laut,di sempadan filipina,atau di perairan jepun.bukan.abaikan perenggan ini jika kamu loya atau nk muntah.harap-harap apa yang kamu kata itu akn menjadi kenyataan kerana pada minggu kamu balik saya akn mula peperiksaan musim sejuk.selepas tamat peperiksaan saya akn berangkat ke swiss untuk bercuti.bagus bukan perkiraan masa.awak balik saya mesti akn bercuti.tapi bagus juga,tinggal kan awak untuk seketika.baru adil.beri masa kepada awak pula untuk merindui saya(ayat ini umpama emetic agent untuk saya juga,tak tau maksudnya apa?sila google dlam kamus perubatan)hikhik.selepas itu kita ada lebih kurang 2 minggu sebelom saya ke spain pula untuk 10 hari.owh saya akn tinggalkan awak lagik?kesian....eh cuti awak kan 2 bulan.lama tu.apalah sgt sepuluh hari tu berbanding 4 bulan saya tunggu awak kan...heheh.lepas tu saya akn pulang semula ke dublin dan 2 hari selepas itu saya akn masuk ke fasa ulang-alik hospital.sekian sahaja luahan hati saya.

entah dapat entah tidak dia sign off(maaf, saya tidak berjaya tukar sign-off ke bahasa melayu) dah berjela luahan perasaan dari saya.apa boleh buat,inikan tujuan blog diwujudkan.hehe.baik,saya mahu bersiap untuk makan malam bersama kawan-kawan.alhamdulillah di kala awak tiada,mereka ada.kawan sampai ke syurga,maksud saya.insyaAllah.

.hiccups.

salam.
bonjour!
i'm in computer lab at the moment and now it's already 8 past 8.faham ke?2008hr.hehe.im laptopless,eh no,adaptorless...hurmm...actually my power adaptor had burnt itself down last few days leaving me bored without access to the virtual world for a while.actualy i'm not totally disconnected,it's just i couldn't online while i'm home.that's the big problem actually cos i really...i mean reaaalllyyy depend on laptop for entertainment at home.my ugly betty,my house m.d,my youtubing all gone for a while.sobsobsob...i hope the new one is on it's way to donore avenue because i'm already bored to death.huwaaa.....

on the other notes,i just had my french oral and aural tests just now.the aural test aka listening test went well i guess.there were 3 questions altogether and i managed to answer all altough a lil bit confused on the 2nd questions.the same thing goes to the oral test.there were 2 examiners(my teacher and another one is a guest examiner whom i've never seen b4).they asked me a few questions before i were asked to introduce myself.actually the teacher already told us to prepare a short introduction of ourselves before hand.so during intro time,i spoke as much as i like but i'm kinda not sure how to pronounce a few words in french masa tgh wat intro tu.hurrmmmm...but it's over now.overall alhamdulillah.=)after this i just need to concentrate on my written test which is shceduled on 12th dec.wish me luck peeps!

okies,i better stop now since i need to catch 2 busses to get home.i'm starving huhuhu...see ya next time okey.

au revoir!

salamz.

let me tell u about what i do today.me and my friend went for a movie just now.initial plan was to watch AMERICAN GANGTER.sadly the tickets sold out eventhough we arrived 5 minutes BEFORE to movie is to start.then we moved to another movie,INTO THE WILD and again luck wasn't on our side,the seats were all taken leaving 2 separate seats right in the middle of the row.hurmmm..mmg susah nak masuk and we gave up.then we planned to get another ticket of any movie available.but since the qeueu was long,we straight away masuk selamba ja dalam movie ini.

THE JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB


the short synopsis
Six book club members, six Austen books, six interwoven story lines over six months in the busy modern setting of Sacramento, where city and suburban sprawl meet natural beauty. While the contemporary stories never slavishly parallel the Austen plots, the six characters find echoes.
i found this movie quite interesting despite the not-so-famous casts.this story has flow that leads u from one plot to another.it's like reading a story book,said my friend.rasa relax aja sepanjang movie nie.flow yang slow tapi tak mmbuhsankan.it's a story of life.a few people with variety of issues to deal with in their lives.i really enjoyed this movie.

harini hujan macam sepanjang hari.sejuk sampai ke tulang.sekarang mmg dah masuk winter.it's freeziiing,kata seorang irish dengan loghatnya yang pekat.i still remember during my first year here,the weather was my worst enemy.rasa nak nangis hari2 sebab sejuk.sampaikan tak boleh tidur every night.pernah one time,i wore 4 pairs of sock.bila sejuk2 begini mula fikiran melayang ke malaysia.panas yang amat nikmat berbanding di sini.tapi kan,saya terfikir,kalau saya rindu malaysia pun,i know i'm going back during the summer hols.and akan balik ke sini semula selepas berakhirnya cuti.tapi when everything is over one day,when i got what i want(medical degree) and i'm back to malaysia for good,apa saya akn buat kalau saya rindu tempat yang sejuk ni..sbb saya dah mula sayangkan ireland,selesa di sini.akan saya ceritakan nanti apa yang saya akn rindui di sini bila i feel like it.for now,i'm going to enjoy my time here as much as possible.lagi lebih kurang 3 tahun sebelum saya tamat belajar di sini.ya,akan saya gunakan masa ini sebaik-baiknya!

apa kabar agaknya orang laut di sana.harini his birthday.i wish you a very happy birthday dear.may Allah bless u always and jadilah seorang lelaki yang matang selari dengan usia yang makin meningkat.semoga Allah grant u dengan umur panjang yang penuh keberkatan.ameeen.

oklah.nak siap2 nak tidoq.tomorrow we are going to play futsal.nak join?

.insufficient words.

salam.

many things to write yet too little words in my head.isn't it ironic?well...i'll give a try.mana tahu klau2 the word flow comes back once my fingers touch the keyboard.

yesterday was a bollywood day.went out with sarah+corom and aiza+ku.ye,saya sorg jer partnerless but whatever.i suited myself just nice since all of them are my classmates.OM SHANTI OM.that's the title.ye,kat dublin pun ada cita hindustan.since i have unlimited card that enable me to watch as many movies as i want,why waste it.the story best la jugak and the dancing part plus the costumes deserved awards.is not surprising because the director is a well-known choreographer in bollywood.hoho..im not a number one bollywood fan but having growing up with two sisters that really into bollywood movies,im kinda well updated with what's happening in their film industry.the movie is long and WITHOUT intermission.huhu,right after that all of us pun complaining lapar and tros pegi medina restaurant makan.indian foods jugak.what la...mmg bollywood day eh.after that continue with another movie,boewulf.this movie is complicated,hence im not goin to eloborate.the moral of that movie is,women(especially pretty ones) are men's weakness.so guys out there,dun be easily fooled by pretty women and their sweet promises unless u really know those women well.

~ it's been 4 years.but is not lung enough to really understand some people.betul org cakap,it takes a lifetime to really know someone,inside out.you,i hope i still know u,respect u,see u they way u are even in 4o yrs to come.i promise i'll take care a gud care of myself.at least tak demam lagi when the next time u call;P

till then t.care people.

.unwell.

salam.

today i've been tested again.poor health and not-so-satisfying marks of two of my exam papers that have been released today.
let's talk about health first.yeah..i caught a cold.luckily no sign of flu tagging along.usually mereka ini combo.it's sudden.yesterday i was feeling a lot better,even running on the threadmill for 20mins non-stop.went to gym with aini and did some work-outs.i guess the gym day was too heavy for me.ye la...baru 1st day pegi dh berangan nk wat itu ini,try machine bagai.anyway,many thanx to aini for letting me follow u to the gym and thanx a mill tina for lending me the card.owh,after 4 classes in a row this afternoon,me and my friends spent some time playing volleyball.to be frank,75% of us are still babies in this game.so practically,we just learned how to serve the ball dr main volley betul2.but it was fun especially when we have too many things to be stuffed in our head earlier.
CNS and endocrine diseases results were out!damn,they aren't good.not that i fail,it's just i expected more.im frustrated.even promise mak and akak to improve this time.however,i still have 75% baki untuk dicari bila exit exam winter nanti.to mak and kakak,im very sorry i didn't do well and the results weren't up to your expectations this time.i promise i'll work harder.
kadang-kadang sakit dan ujian yang diterima adalah warnings from the Almighty to remind us of our purpose of living in this world and it could be kafarah for the sins that we've been doing..secara sedar mahupun tidak.ya Tuhan...i pray for your blessings and guide me to the right path,YOUR way of life.ameen..

.mixedfeelings.

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salam.

hurrmm..something had happened today but im not telling ;p.
To someone i love so dearly,

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

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yeay!exam is over!

salam.

it's my pleasure to inform that the mid-term exam has ended last saturday.at least i have another 4 weeks without extensive studies to be done.walla...what a feeling!to relax myself, i just finished 5 episodes of grey's anatomy season 3 and now enjoying myself with sarcasticism of dr House.u guys must be wondering tadak cita lain ke budak2 medic ni nk tgok?gi kelas belajaq medic,balik umah studi@revise ttg perubatan.a medical student does what a medical student has to do.poyo.ahaks.sebenaqnya to be honest,if i were not a med student,i still watch grey's.however,house is kinda sampingan when there's no any other good american series to watch.dun call me skema med student yet b'cos some of my coursemates don't really enjoy watching grey's kerana ia byk dicampur dengan unsur-unsur cinta yang keterlaluan.so they prefer to watch the sarcastic dr gregory house than the kind yet sexy meredith grey with her mcdreamy..kesimpulannya saya tidaklah begitu skema ya kawan-kawan.

ok.now let me tell u what i did yesterday.i woke up after a long sleep to help my housemate in the kitchen preparing food because she's throwing a small party for her bf.baked a cake and making our own version of KFC kinda of fun.finger licking good i must say.ahaks.so the 5 of us,joined later by sarah and the gang went to that guy's house to suprise him and selamat ia menjadi.he was so shocked!haha...dis time ko kena g****.

after makan2 and a bit of gosipping around(eh tak sempat)we pushed off to roebuck's castle for another open house.the last i think for this year's aidilfitri because syawal is approaching to it's end(to those who haven't started on posa 6 yet,cepat2la...masih blom terlewat).upon ariving,we saw a lot of our classmates were there and some had already left.the foods were delicious.nasi beriyani+roti jala+kari ayam+vege as the main dish.the desserts are sira pisang and choc cake.we got 1st class treatment as the hosts were kind enough to let us stay till v.late in the evening.a lot of activities were done during our stay.we ate sesuka ati,chit-chatting and last but not least playing ps2 with the guys.

the hardcore gamers

owh they were born to be pro at the electronic games.i nearly lost my voice cheering and yelling as the games became more and more exciting when the players take turn losing and winning and belasah each other.

the cheerlearders!

i tried my luck main ps2 tu but as a first timer,i suck at it.haha...bukan reti pun,cuma picit2 the controller sesuka ati.hahah.
but it was fun.the party was great and the people enjoying it.i did.a good way of chilling out after nearly two of stressful revision weeks.i hope the friendship built during this kind of occasion last forever even when we are no longer students.


in the kitchen lepas makan

okay,ini topik lain tapi semasa menonton rancangan2 berunsur perubatan ni,saya terfikir,adakah saya bersedia menhadapi cabaran2 seperti doktor2 di dalam cerita2 seperti grey's dan house itu.mereka tidur dan berehat bila betul2 perlu sahaja dan keadaan amatlah berbeza dengan hidup saya sekarang.w'pun exam berderet2 tapi saya still ada masa untuk diri sndrik.and the worst is leaving my family behind to save another human being's life.apapun2 saya selalu kena ingat and constantly remind myself tentang tujuan asal saya menjadi seorang doktor dan membantu manusia lain and objektif utama hanya untuk mencari keredhaanNYA.apa2pun wish me luck peeps!


these are my beloved classmates that will graduate in 2010,God-willing!i hope by looking at this picture in 10 years to come,it will freshen up my memory of our bond as friends and a lot of things we've been thru together.all the best to us!owh btw,the background is a fountain situated in our beloved uni.it's one of the prominent landmarks of UCD.

till then,permisi dulu yerk.nk smbg house M.D
=)

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.a trace of happiness.

.feeling.grey.

salam.

exams coming up.
no reason to stay here long.
pouring out a few words would be good.
especially in the state of mind where i cannot think much.
my crowded brain says i need to stay calm and and quiet for i dunno how long.
as i'm falling deeper into infinite darkness and hardly explained sadness.
please pray for colours to come back and for rainbow to follow the sun.
so the heat and light can bring back the forgotten smiles.

never been happier

salam.
how are u guys getting on with lives?
hari ini i held an open house.basically we people in dublin would organize a small party to celebrate eid every year.inviting some friends over and cook some foods for them.it's a way of celebrating the eid and strengthen the bond called friendship.it's fun once in a while to have a get together like this especially for medical students like us who's life evolves around books most of the time.at least this would open some space for us to socialise and rest our brain from the stress of studying.
around 60 people came and to my surprise,the food wasn't enough.not like last year where there were a lot of left-overs that ended up in the rubbish bin.however today we have to rush cooking more to top up the balance which is obviously not enough for people who present at that time and for those who still searching their way to our house.alhamdulillah..we always ready for plan B just in case we face a situation like this and the xtra food was ready in no time.i believe everyone had a good time including us the hosts.knowing our guests having a few rounds of meals enough to prove that the food was edible if not as tasty as what they eat at home.owh btw,the menu are fried rice with grilled chickens and vege soup and curry mee.the desserts are banana fritters and fruit punch.u guys must be wondering how come we didn't include any ketupat or lemang or any decent raya delicacies in our menu.the reason being, we are kinda bored with ketupat and lemang ang lontong.so we decided to have it a bit different this time.well...as far as i concerned,the guests just loved the food provided.hehe.apa-apapun i hope none of them is having diarrhoea(hish..selalu eja ni btoi,arini konpius lak)or in malay,cirit birit caused by the food.the early birds arrived around 12 and the last guest left around 10pm.in a nutshell,the open house went well although im nearly get heart attacked when seeing the food was depleting very fast before we carried out the plan B.apa-apapun looking forward for next year open house and insyaAllah,the menu will be different.
now is time for personal matter.yesterday after i finished my haematology and immunosupression disease's tutorial,i got a sms from incik syir.he's in Bintulu already.wow,that's fast!usually it took more than 2 weeks b4 i can hear from him again.but this week is not even 2 weeks yet and he's already texting me asking how am i doing.the timing just nice,cos things didn't really going great for me this week and it's nice to have sumbody dear to you asking how's ur life treating u.he anchored last nite and only this morning his ship got offshored.klau ship smp malam,dia kena anchor somewhere dulu,tak boleh tros masuk port sbb less people working at night and not enuff staffs to incharge of the loading of the LNG.so segala proses meloading gas akn dijalankan keesokkan harinya and the next morning juga kapal akn masuk port.berlainan klau kapal smp pagi,dia akn tros masuk port and and the next morning(around 5 dah prepare enggine)the kapal will be onshore again.so this time i have xtra time with him and the precious xtra bit really makes me happy.smp org rumah tanya awat kerap sgt dia call today?hahaha..ermm..i guess he misses me=).you,have a smooth sailing journey.see u when i get to see u.take care of yourself as i always pray for ur safety wherever u may go.
oklah.mata dah mengantuk and i'll continue when i have enough material to write about.till then,take care.

bila tibanya Syawal...

salam,
bila rasa gembira tepuk tangan,clap!!clap!!hehe.Syawal dis yr is meriah with many open houses attended and more is coming up.

here the cronology of my raya celebrations dis year:

1st Syawal:
when to malaysian hall early in the morning to perform eid prayer.met so many malaysians.good opportinity to seek forgiveness and make some new friends.the best thing is the prayer was conducted according to malaysian stail.the takbir was exactly being said using malaysian rhythm and khutbah was read in malay.ohhoo..i miss my beloved country already.



happy smiley faces on the early morning of eid.these are my beloved classmates

after that,went back home.ate homemade ketupats and lemang with rendang tok,kuah kacang and lontong.sedappp..mmmg sdap!hehe
then bermulalah episod open house-hunting!the 1st was at ballsbridge.great people,great foods!


this house is like a hotel,with a spacious living room and a beautiful chandelier.but i'm more interested in standing by the window.nice scenery.

2nd house,the maples!great people greater foods!yeah,ketupat jawi or nasi impit with roti jala and rendang,ayam masak merah,lontong.mmg best!




2nd Syawal:
malaysian embassy organised another open house this year.unfortunately it was held at the backyard of malaysian hall,not in the Astra Hall like previous yrs.we have to stand while eating.but great oppurtinity to meet other malaysian and hurrmm... making new friends.food was okay,but i guess to much ketupat kinda makes me muak.


di malaysian hall





4th Syawal:
The white oaks's turn today.ketupat again with rendang,tandoori chicken and kari ayam.sarah n co masak.tak muak ok.i love the tandoori chicken!but unlucky me cos i couldn't get to taste the rendang.tina said it was sooo sedap.it was cleared when i was performing zuhr prayer.takpalah..i'll ask sarah to cook again next time.


mengintai dr tirai dapur.hehe



among the guests

next?
my house goin to "bukak rumah" dis coming friday.jemputlah dtg after jumaat prayer.lots of foods!i promise!see ya aight!

okies.till then.wait for more reports on what's happening in dublin in the next entry ok.chioww!

p/s:yeay got plan for winter hols!massive plan!semuga semua berjalan lancar.ameen!

special edition

salam ramadhan kepada semua.

sebenarnya sedih nk ucap salam ramadhan tu sbb the ramadhan is about to leave us soon.beberapa hari je boleh sembahyang terawikh,bersahur dan of course berpuasa.sekejap je rasa.
dah lama blog di tak diupdate.ya,saya agk busy.kelas,tutorial...cukup untuk membuatkan saya malas dan ketiadaan idea.semester ni,w'pun kelas tidak beberapa byk,tetapi kebanyakkan start pada awal pagi.my greatest weakness to wake up early in the morning.huhu.so ptg ini,saya telah menamatkan tutorial yg sepatutnya berlansung esok petang dengan jayanya.ini bermakna esok adalah hari yg akn di look forward=P
bulan ramadhan tahun ini byk membawa makna kepada saya.entah kenapa tetapi saya rasa byk petunjuk yang saya dapat dalam bulan ini.petunjuk kepada persoalan-persoalan yang tiada jawapan sebelum ini,baik tentang hal-hal peribadi mahupun yang general.saya lebih nampak apa yang saya nak dalam kehidupan saya dan juga makna sebenar kenapa saya dihantar ke bumi sejuk beku ini pada usia muda dan menghabiskan saki baki zaman remaja saya di sini.mungkin tuhan mahu saya melihat banyak perkara dari perspektif berbeza,supaya saya tahan dan tabah menghadapi apa saja ujian yang diberikanNya dalam apa jua keadaan sekalipun.kenapa bahasa saya agak puitis?hurrmmm..kerana jiwa saya penuh dengan rasa kecil diri kepadaNya.ya,apabila saya evaluate diri saya,saya akn rasa sayu dan syahdu.huhu.rasa kecil tidak berdaya.
okielah,untuk tidak memanjangkan rasa sedih saya dengan peninggalan ramadhan dan mixed feelings yang tidak sepatutnya di layan,ada beberapa perkara yg membuatkan saya look forward to syawal.Allah dah kurniakan Syawal selepas ramadhan.oleh itu saya patut bersyukur kerana ia adalah petanda kemenangan.tahun ini raya agk special.kami serumah berpakat untuk mmbuat kueh raya.ya,kueh raya buatan sendri.special bukan?so far,3 jenis berjaya disiapkan.biskut makmur(my fave),biskut peanut butter dan biskut coklat.terima kasih aini kerana menjadi ibu kepada kami=)
sekarang juga lagu raya kedengaran di mana2 sahaja.baik stesen radio melayu hatta radio inggeris.bagus bukan.betapa aidilfitri disambut dengan meriah sekali.seronoknya jika dapat beraya di malaysia.ahh..lupakan.3 tahun lae insyaAllah.

yang paling penting,saya berharap syawal kali ini akn mmbawa 1000 kegembiraan buat orang-orang yang saya sayangi.

mak dan bapak:
w'pun saya tiada untuk menyambutnya bersama kalian,kalain tetap di hati saya,pada hari raya,hari esok dan hari-hari mendatang.seribu keampunan saya pinta atas segala keterlanjuran yang saya lakukan di dalam mahupun di luar sedar.kerana kalian saya masih berdiri,masih berlari dan bersemangat menempuh apa saja yang ditakdirkan untuk saya.

kakak-kakak dan abg tercinta:
tiada bandingan kasih sayang kalian semua.maaf atas segala kedegilan,kemalasan saya dan terima kasih kerana sanggup berkorban untuk saya.masih berbekas di hati di mana kalian dipukul atas kesalahan saya.sanggup manjadi pak sanggup kerana takut adik yg kecik menjadi mangsa amarah akibat kesalahan sendiri.dunia saya bercahaya kerana kalian.

anak-anak saudara saya tersayang:
tahun ni lae sekali tak dapat main mercun,pasang pelita sama-sama.study hard and smart kerana perjalanan hidup ini tidak mudah dan memerlukan byk bekalan ilmu dan pengorbanan.salam lebaran anak-anak sedara ku sayang.

syir:
tahun nie sekali lagi kita berhari raya di benua berbeza.percayalah,iA pengorbanan kita ada ganjarannya.kerja baik-baik dan maaf segala kesalahan dan pengucapan yg mengguris hati.

sahabat-sahabat:
maaf diatas segala khilaf.semuga persahabatan kita sampai ke syurga.

salam lebaran dari saya yang jauh di bumi ireland.

welcoming the second half of ramadhan.

salam.

how's life everyone?hopefully all of us is blessed with good health to endure the second half of this holy month of ramadhan.jaga perut,jaga mulut and tak lupa sucikan niat=)insyaAllah byk ganjarannya.

hmmmph....actually i dun have any particular topic to write today.just signed in cos i miss my blog.since i'm here,let's talk bout sumthing yerk...

puasa dan kedatangan Syawal...
it's already 2 weeks we've been fasting.feel like only yesterday i uttered my niat to start fasting.time really flies huh...listening to raya songs that already been playing quite regularly in malaysia's radio stations actually touched me emotionally.it's been 3 years i celebrated eid here.this year going to be my fourth time.sad?missing ketupat?lemang?mercun?erm..no feelings sgt dah about all those stuffs.however,i miss the main events during eid,asking for forgiveness and duit raya from parents,family and relatives.huhuh..still remember everytime raya,usually early in the morning,me and my siblings would line up and usually my eldest sis will lead the way,we asked for forgiveness from our parents and most of the times we cried thinking back of the bad things we've done to them.they too,maybe touched by our sincerity,cried while hugging us.but my mum has this special way of not showing her true feelings.she would laugh once my sis start to apologise.i mean really laughed so that she can supress her automatic reaction to cry together with us.mak mana tak tersentuh kalau anak-anak dia menangis mcm budak kecik mintak ampun dan maaf kan?tapi mak saya mmg terror lah.she did not cry.haha.in twenty years time,i would follow what she does.haha...

the exciting part,DUIT RAYA!!!!
okies,talking about duit raya,i didn't get those for years since i'm here.if kumpul2 rasanya leh beli apa ek....hmmmm..laptop baru kot.hehe.tipulah.usually my dad gave me the most out of all people.still remember when i managed to fast the whole month without any holes.masa tu belom ehem..ehem lae.hihi.earlier, i told my dad if i manage to fast the whole ramadhan,he has to gimme something in return.but he said,it's not right to expect any rewards since i should do it merely for GOD.i took his words without any objection cos i know it is true.to my suprise, on the hari raya,he gave me a green envelope with 6 pieces of red notes inside.i jumped with joy cos that amount was so big at that time and that's the most anyone ever gave me as duit raya.he told me the large amount of money is not a bribe or anything related to make me posa penuh,but it was for the effort i put thruout the whole month.owh..how i missed him.sob..sob..sob...we are not that close to each other as im not his fave daughter(my 2nd sis is his apple),but i think he's getting more and more important now to me.i tend to miss him more each day.sumthing i dun really feel when i was younger.yeah,we always have issues between us back then.apa-apapun,masa raya i'm definately going to call them and wish them 'selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin',the precious few words that is so significant and meaningful once a year.must not forget!

the jiwang but not so jiwang part...
it's been nearly 2 weeks i didn't hear from my seaman,fyi,it's normal for us not keeping in touch with each other up to 2 weeks.no sms,phone calls,emails whatsoever.nothing.so to u guys out there who have full access and limitless time to communicate with ur loved ones(could be ur bf,family,friends),do appreciate it.i'm not sad neither regret any bits of this.this is what i chose.i'm just thinking how was his ramadhan so far.fasting onboard is definately different.seronokkah berbuka?cukup tak makan?bagun sahur ke?am i thinking too much,worrying for no reason?doa saya,tak kira di mana saja dia berada,Allh akn lebarkan peliharaanNya kepada dia dan hopefully u are stronger under any circumstances.

okie,that's all for now.i have some reading materials to finish off.
see u guys soon.

~a.m.h~

salamz.

i


need


HELP!

in dire need of h2o

salam.

1stly,mind the title as it's just another way of showing how lazy i am to go to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water after stuffing my tummy with junk foods(yeah i'm a junkie,not drug fortunately!).pemalassss kamu azimah.

okies,today was very windy.why windy day suddenly becomes so significant to be talked about in my ilham?this is becos today we planned to take pictures(me and beloved hosmates)to be sent to local newspapers in malaysia.salam perantauan lah kengkawan.early this morning,all of us,beautifully dressed up in BnW(black n white)were so ever ready and excited to take pics.halfway to the bus stop,we were blown away by strong,crazy wind.abes tudoooonnngggg!!!huwaaa..however,right after class(4 classes in a row,can u imagine how our faces looked like?) we managed to stand still for a while as our newly-appointed photographer does his works.well done and thanx jay for putting up with our karenah and demands.among the kewl pics of 'kami best'!haha




aren't they gorgeous?



exclusively on this blog only!haha..strugling against the wind=D




thorns among roses or should i say the bodyguards?

ok tak pics tu?hehe

oklah..


the clock shows 10 mins to 1 a.m.i better go and get some sleep cos class is at 9 tomorrow.early morning classes suck!
nite.sweetdreams people=)

p/s:saya akan short satu kad raya wajib this year.isn't that devastating?

no more decent place to live.

hello.how's ur ramadhan people?i hope each n everyone of us is given the best health to endure this blessed month of ramadhan.eventhough there's no PARAM(PAsar RAmadhan) here in eire,i'm grateful to the almighty for the rezki yang serasanya lebih istimewa dari bulan2 biasa.here in Dublin,me and my housemates are having quite a few very different activities during ramadhan.the main one will be the iftar-hunting activity.since we live in a small community of muslims here,ramadhan is being treated very special.there'll be free IFTARs(break fast session as arab people called it).free iftar means free fuuuuuuuddddd!!!well.. we are not that sengkek to asik nak mkn free jerk.tapi iftar ni bukan diberi kepada org miskin atau yang memerlukan tetapi diberi kepada sesiapa saja yg available untuk menghadirkan diri ke masjid berdekatan sebagai tanda mnghormati ramadhan dan untuk meningkatkan pahala di bulan mulia ini.get it?however,the most obvious thing to be highlighted here is malaysian students represent the biggest percentage of all people present.hihi...

monday-friday:free IFTAR at Dublin mosque and medina
friday-sunday:free IFTAR at clonskeagh(pronounce as clonski)mosque

so right after class,me and the other 4 housemates will start texting each other to set up time and place for the IFTAR on that day.believe me,it's fun =D.at least tak terasa sgt berpuasa and at the same time being so far away from our beloved families.

besides that,we have been doing night(or late night) chatting or discussion sessions.lepas berbuka masing2 akn buka topic baru yang hot dan menariiikkkk.
please read:we try our best not to bad-mouthing others.penat2 berpuasa siang hari,takkan nk buang pahala di malam hari pulak kan.

the topics cover from domestic to international issues.but mostly are about our beloveds at home la.recently the most talked-about topic is NURIN JAZLIN JAZIMIN murder!




speechles.devastated!that's how i felt when i first heard about the news.how could a human being actually did that to another young,cute,innocent human being who just started to learn what life really means.she was sexually abused and murdered without mercy.the worst being her dead body stuffed in a bag and was left in a public place and to be found the next morning.ya Allah,rahmatilah rohnya dan tempatkanlah dia bersama hambaMU yang beriman.ameen.

i would like to suggest that the responsible beast(if he/she were to be found) to be humiliated in public and stoning to be performed on him/her to pay for what he/she does!(kalau ikut ati ni,nak jerk *SULA cam org dulu-dulu).since i'm in no position to fix the punishment,let the authorities handle that and please put more efforts in hunting the murderer before more innocent children being victimised by that beast.

*SULA means a long rod/a piece of wood is inserted from the anus to the mouth as a punishment for commiting adultery.


okies.i would like to stop now or else ntah apa2 yg akan saya tulis di sini nanti.=P
have a gud day everyone and jgn lupa bangun sahur.dapat pahala.

p/s:there's a rise in allowance peeps.anyone would like to open table,for iftar perhaps?

ahlan wasahlan ramadhan al mubarak

salam.

may this find u in the best of health.

dah lama tak post apa2 kat cni.bukan tiada masa atau kesempatan,cuma kurang kerajinan.acceptable?of course not.my apologies then.

well...fasting month is gonna kick off soon..very soon.i hope everyone is ready or try to be ready to welcome it since no month is like ramadhan where we have lots of chances and oppurtinities to multiply our pahala.in a short way of saying this,bulan ni adalah bulan manusia di mana setiap perbuatan kita terutamanya puasa adalah akn dinilai sendrik oleh Allah s.w.t pahalanya.interesting,isn't it?here,in ireland we r going to start fasting on the 13th sept,thursday..mari ramai2 buat pahala.hehe.

owh ya..btw,im already here,di bumi sejuk beku ni ya tuan2 dan puan2 sekalian.no matter how hard i tried to find reasons to give to my mum so that i dun have to drag myself into this country,here i am again,eventually.haha.it's funny on how i still think i can come up with reasons not to be back here padahal i still have 3 years to go.i think i'm still in denial.muahaha

my room as expected,full of dust and in a great mess until i did some spring cleaning the next day after my arrival.in order to be happy here,i need to makesure that i have a clean and comfortable space for myself after a long day at school.this semester's timetable is suck!classes start at 9 everyday except on wed and i have 2 busses to catch every single day.guess wut time should i wake up every morning...naaahhh u dun wanna know.enuff talking bout school.

when i was browsing over the internet a moment ago,there's sumthing dat caught my attention.there's a club for seafarers and their partners tak kira lah either u r their gf,fiancee or wives.as long as u personally related to them u r welcomed to join the club.tak sangka actually ada org yg so prihatin dat actually set up a club to gather org2 laut ini.bravolah kepada foundernya kerana we do need support from each other.haha.and i tgk lah member2 dia..klau yg pompuan,kat shout out box mesti tulis...come back soon,can't wait for u to come back ...or tak sabar tunggu bila..bila...n bla..bla...haha.dat's roughly how we the gf,tunang or wives feel whenever their partners are sailing off.in my case,things are much worse at home in malaysia compared when i'm here.the classes and assignments keep me busy and time just flies without i even realize it.it doesn't mean i forget him.cuma life goes on.i have other bigger responsibilities.unless if i'm married to him,then i nanges kot missing him every sec.haha.yes mummy,u r right.the time is not right yet.not just yet!apa-apa hal pun,i'm joining da club.just to get some ideas on how others(the ones who are in the same shoes) are doing.=)but seriously tak boleh baca the wives punya ayat2 rindu towards their hubbies...sedey laaaa...

i need to print some notes for 2moro lectures.be here again tomorrow ke..lusa ke..God knows bila but promise,i'll come back.
till then take care.

salam ramadhan,
a.m.h

i need moreeeee time plis!

salam.
duduk tak duduk,berdiri and bangun,lagi kurang 2 mgu aku nak balik ireland.aku sedih.mak aku lae sedih.actually dia yg counting days lebih dr aku.at first aku igt dia tak amek pot sgt pasai berapa banyak hari lae aku kat umah,tidoq-makan-tidoq-makan,tapi tekaan gue mmg salah.she does care in fact too much.penah bulan lepas aku kuaqkan plastik yg balut beg besaq yang selalu ikut aku pi balik pi balik ireland.(plastik tu dibalut oleh mak aku yg sgt prihatin takut beg aku berhabuk dok lama sgt 3 bulan tepi dinding).cdangnya nak masuk kan brg yg aku beli untuk kegunaan aku kat ireland,yelah kalau tak bubuh sekarang nescaya gue lupa.then sedar2 she's already behind me saying"apa gmah buat dengan beg tu?nak balik sana dah ka?" and dia pluk aku sekali gus!
adeihhhh berair mata gue.tapi kerana aku ayu aku jawab"apa mak nie,gmah just masuk2 kan barang yg pi beli tadik..takut lupa.nti lupa mak marah lak'.hehe ayu tak aku?haha

p/s:entry kali nie macam poyo dgn bahsa rojak max.suka baca,tak suka dipersilakan bounce baby!

itu cerita sedeh....eh sebenaqnya aku tiada cerita gembira untuk dibuat karangan di sini.cuma aku ingin meminta maaf kerana aku tidak dapat menghadirkan dirik aku ke majlis konvo seorang kawan.actually i planned to go there.that's the only thing that i've ever planned like months ahead.it was part of 'must do' list in my head.tapi aku kira kesilapan aku jugak,i had a fight with my sister the night before that left me wordless and speechless for 3 days straight.to make things worse i'm her loyal penumpang dalam kereta dia.(takkan nak kata she's my loyal driver pulak since the car and driving skill yg maha hebat tu milik dia!).so to ****,im really sorry i couldn't make it to ur big day.i know how much it meant for you and i hope we can be friends again.love u.

dan,
baju raya aku dah 80% siap.i contributed some skills in combining the pieces of cloth together.hehe..bangga tuh.u know menjahit is not easy especially if u have 'tangan bangku',if u know what i mean.but it's fun to make it a part of mother-daughter activity.merapatkan ukhwah gitu.haha.that's not funny i know.


forgive me for rantling too much today.i missed someone so badly.

-end-

a.m.h

sleepless nights

so much fear to endure...


in silence i pray...


when reality strikes,i'll be more than ready....


GOD is always with me :)



nothing sad happen.cuma terfikir lebih kurang sebulan nak balik ireland.gimme goosebumps.buduh!

the must tell!

Salam.

BWM





Or




Wolkswagon beetle




Or



Mini cooper?





Wait-a-minute!!!!this is not the highlight for the day.i ain’t buying any cars whatsoever.the most important thing for today is ….~drumrolls~I’m goin to announce that i passed the driving test and to add more sugar in it,I’m also allowed to ride a motorcyle on the road after this(selalunya bawak dalam kampung ja…)muahahah…I likeeee!at first I thought it’s enuff to get a driving license since it’s not really suitable for a woman to ride a motorbike.however my parents insisted that I take both tests since I always merempit dalam kampung.now leh le merempit kat jalan raya pulak…OOOpppppssss…terpecah rahsia.heheh.honestly it’s a big sigh for me not having to repeat neither of the tests because I felt 2/3 of my summer hols was spent on this driving lessons and belajar cara-cara menghayun tangan sebanyak 3 kali apabila mahu membelok di kala menunggang motosikal honda cup separa hancur.couldn’t imagine if I have to prolong the hours driving with sumbody nagging besides me in the car
For not using the right gear or not slowing down the vehicle when i came to a sharp curve(wpun meter hadlaju menunjukkan baru 40km/j)!w’pun begitu, I owe a lot to my driving instructor for teaching me how to handle a car from scratch till I passed the test only at the first attempt!u rawk pakcik!!!!!


Ok sudah…sudah…nti dicap org mengangkat bakul sendri pulak.klau ada buah deriyan lam bakul tu takpa gak.hee….tomorrow,im goin back to a place that made me a person who I am now.changing me from a girl to a grown up lady,teaching me how to survive in the lack of pretty much everything….and in that place also,I learnt to control myself when facing a terrible moment in my life…a moment that changed it all…..

Need my beauty sleep now….and prepare to go back to the good old days……..

my apologies....

salamz.
my apologies for not updating this blog for so long.nothing happen dat forbid me to so.it's just too many good and happy things around me that keep me away from blogging for a while.Insya-Allah..i'll post more entries after this and will update it regularly.

well...tomorrow is a big day for me as i'm sitting for a driving and motorcycle tests early next morning.huhu...kinda scared but hmmmmppphhhh...nasibla labu...if i pass alhamdulillah.if not repeat la.apa susah.but hopefully i dun have to repeat laa kan.goin thru the nerve-wrecking experience like this is not fun at all especially if i have to it again and again.plus...i have to pay more for a new testcard.and if...if la kan...i fail,i'm goin to be the 1st one in da family who repeat.my dad,mum,sister and bro just went thru this once and walla!they have got their licenses already!huhuhu...mintak2 jgn laaaa....menjadi bahan usikan tentunya tidak best sama sekali!

move on to another story....syir is sailing very soon.he'll push off to k.l this evening and his ship goin offshore this friday at 11a.m to be exact.according to him,this time his route will be bintulu-japan-bintulu.i'm glad he got this route bcos the further the route is(like europe,middle east or the carribean islands),the longer it takes for me to be able to contact and keep in touch with him.at least kepergiannya kali ini tidak terlalu menyedihkan saya.i went thru this experience once,losing him to the oceans and it's kinda painful.but well....i hope this time i'm more ready and stronger than before.huhu..

i think that's all for now.nk blogghopping pulak....

c ya=)

hatiku berbunga...riang!

salamz to all.
geeesshhhh....it takes forever to put a new entry here.im really excited to go home.tolak malam ni,i have 3 days more before the long awaited journey.huuuuu...since the last paper of moi summer exam..the clock has been ticking damn slow..tick..tock..tick...tock...feel like making it ticking like this--->ticktock..ticktock...heheh..got it?

tak sabaqnya saya nak balik....the faces of moi parents are like my shadow now..following me everywhere...

tak sabaqnya nak tgk muka abg kesayangan saya kat klia(forever he's the 1st one i see at the arrival hall...)

untung-untung ada abg sorang lagik datang tunggu kat arrival hall nanti(wink~_<...)

w'pun im goin to board 3 flights in a row,my journey won't be tiring as i'll be rewarded with enjoyment that is beyond words...

god plis gimme strength to hang on just a lil' bit longer...

YOUR gifts to me worth more than a world!meet them eye to eye..hug them tightly...and laughing with them make me running on the clouds~

to my beloveds,my love,my heart and soul,there'll be a time we'll reunite again...showing some more love,giving the best care we could to each other and i promise i'll be the best daughter,the best sister,the best aunt and the best lover u guys could ever have!

hahah...blogthings rawks!

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

shit happens!

salamz.
today im not really feel like telling stories..it's just a way of killing time while waiting for suboh prayer.i have to strain my eyes typing sumthing here or otherwise i'll fall asleep till da next morning.here, suboh is around 3 sumthing a.m(it changes from day to day..)so might as well pray 1st b4 i go to sleep so that i dun have to wake up again in the middle of the night.
jz now i went to city centre..did some shoppin fer my dad.he's the most difficult person i have to deal with in terms of giving prezzie.look,my dad is a perfectionist,which is totally opposite from me(i got most of my mum's gene..cool n relax..)hihih...if the prezzie doesn't suit him,he won't wear or use it..tak kisah lah i nak amek ati ke..nak merajuk ke..tak rasa dihargai ke..they just born to be like that.if that happen to me..fine!i'm his daughter..but if this were to happen to my mum...sabo je laa(neway i think she used to it already after nearly forty years being his wife)...sumtimes..me,my sis n mum..we took months to plan what to buy to my dad...hours just to pick whatever item we agreed on buying earlier,just to make sure the color,size,shape will suit him right!fhewwww...berpeluh gak laa..the way he thinks,the way he dresses up,the way he ties the shoe lace,the way he cooks(eventhough my mum dah thap layak bukak restaurant,my dad cooks better!),the way he washes his car(cam berjam2 kot..naik bil ayaq!)he's just super perfectionist!i think that's why he always buy everything by himself without even consulting my mum 1st.apatah lagi i yg jauh ke belakang ni.hihi.it's the same thing happen if he wants to give us something.most of the time,he gave us the money..we buy whatever we want.kira my dad thinks we better choose what we want by ourselves.but sumtimes he's a bit too rigid.words are his weakness.yang lawaknya..if i merajuk with my dad..he wont talk to me as i wont even say a word to him at the same time.later,he will give me some money to go shoppin or ask me what i wanna buy...so senang...kira tadak la nak cakap ayt2 jiwang karat.haha..as materialistic as i am...he succeed in making me smile again!hahahah...eh lari topic lak.actually i called my mum late this afternoon telling her Perfume Direct is having a 4 days sale at the moment.so should i buy more perfume since i had already bought her one!at the same time i'm having trouble of figuring out what to buy for my dad .at the end of the conversation...we agreed that i should buy a perfume as well to him.mum told me actually my dad likes perfume as much as she does.heeeyyyy i never knew that.good one mum!after much testing and smelling of like ten different brands of perfume..i decided to buy versace blue jeans for him.hope he likes it.my taste...his taste...erm....*_*!
okies....i got 15 mins more before suboh..what else shud i mumble here....owh about balik mesia again...i am soooooo can't wait to go home.actually this country,this place is not bad at all.but i still think malaysia is better in so many ways.i cerita next time okey...but after reading a blog of this young lady who is currently travelling around europe,together with the anticipation n excitement she has while travelling make me ponder for a while.sgt tak bersyukurkah sya sedang apabila dicampak ke sini..tergedik2 nak balik malaysia.owh..not complaining i am.just missing the fun i used to have!

p/s:i hate my current job!should i or shouldn't i?

bilikku....arrrghhhh...

plan to clean up my room today.but that is the angan2 mat jenin since i woke up this afternoon.yes at 1.40tengah hari.then i took my shower..ate a piece of biscuit and here i am..bertapa in front of my iBook doing nothing except surfing over the internet for hours.i've tried to change the template again.succeeded in only the small part of it.the header.at least it's more to what im doing in my life now...pills...syringe...and sooner stathescope.
yesterday...(to those who haven't watched TPOC3 and plan to do so..pls dun read this!)i went for a muvi with erm..let me count..aiza,aini,tina,wong,corom,ku,syamir,gbam,anom...yeah 10 of us..the pirates of the carribean 3.the muvie was very long nearly 3 hours making me half-asleep during the first part.takyah la wat cerita pepanjang klau nak mmbuhsankan penonton..ye dak?the worst part of the movie was when the director without mercy killed my william turner!nnnOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!feel like sobbing thruout the ending of the muvi!panas tol!!!asal dia kena mati.damn it!sorry for being too emotional but at least spare him to live.


why?why?why?

2moro ada org yg dah start balik mesia.huwaarrggghhh pressure..pressure....i wanna go homee tooo....ceh..my ticket shows a date that does not permit me to even pack my things yet.heheh..tunggu lah..esok nak balik arini baru nak pack.nak jumpa moi parents,sister,bro,my TEN nieces and nephews,SYIR...aduiii can't wait.owh btw i got a wedding invitation from my primary school friend.she's tying the knot this august.tak percaya!n im jealous too.nak kawen gak...hahah..ayt gedix for today -abaikan- that dream is not goin to happen soon or in this near future.not until i find a very strong reason to give to my mum...when i told my mum bout this friend of mine..she was like.."why she has to get married so soon,she's not even finish her studies yet..bla..bla..bla..".i replied"maa...kan bagus kawen cecepat dr couple lelama..furthermore she's far from her family.at least ada org nak jaga dia(fyi,my friend is studying abroad)"hurrmmm..from what i think,those staying abroad are far from family,satu nikmat if ada org lain yg bleh jaga kita.at least ada tempat bermanja selain family yg jauh.tapi bermanja secara halal la kan.yg tak,tak dikira yerk.the point is...getting married when u r still a student is not wrong,but 10000 things have to put in ur consideration.financial support,family's blessing... these are the main ones.tu blom lagik masuk rumah and bla..bla..well...if u want me to elobarate,it takes pages till it's done but in short,kawen dituntut dalam islam untuk mengelakkan maksiat.tetapi untuk nk bina masjid,tiangnya perlu kukuh,bahan binaannya perlu cukup dan jenteranya kena lengkap..fikir-fikirkanlah=)
tomorow im off for a road trip around ireland.at least i got sumthing to look forward to.hopefully the weather going to be ok.nak amek gamba byk2..hikhikhik..

p/s:bulan dah tak sabaq tunggu bintang balik.bulan pesan macam-macam..and i know bulan ngah menghitung hari..mak mana tak syg ank dia kan..thanx mak.u r the moon that i longed for during the day aand the moon that i adore at nite(:

...and waiting to be reunited again

salamz.
may everyone is in their best of health possible=)
this tuesday will be my last paper for the summer exam this year.i suppose to be more than happy now since all the tough papers were gone but the subject of UNDERSTANDING DISSABILITY FOR HEALTHCARE STUDENTS is never easy plus i rarely paid attention in the class during the lectures.huhu..scarry la pulak.btw...im gonna read apa yg boleh and try my best.
last 2 days,i called my mum telling her how excited i am to go home...she too can't wait to see me again after such a long time.im her talkative daughter,so my presence in the house does make a difference..hehe..she was telling me about the durians that are hanging merrily on the trees.she said once i landed,we'll go buy the fresh ones.c,i live in penang so balik pulau is the best place to indulge yourself with the king of fruits tue..my teacher once said"...the best durian comes from balik pulau'.weee kembangnya saya!heheh..tapi dulu la sekarang tatau la plak kan but in my opinion..siammese durian and the local ones are far different!although the durian siam isinya gemok dan kuning,durian malaysia lagik best dari segi taste.fullstop.hehe..eh why am i merepeking about durian here..herrmmm maybe b'cos i feel homed already.seriously can't hardly wait to gooooohome!ye kengkawan..on the 7th of june(6days after my buffday=(...) i'll be touching the ground.so far got a few invitations from my friends already.shopping-wayang-lepak mapley-bowling....mmg tak sabaq lah.ireland-paris-malaysia!doa2kan we'll have a safe journey ye.



kasik terliur sket...huahuahua




sapa tatahan tutup idung!hii...

when i'm bored with studies....

i blogged!
i watched u tube!
i buzzed my virtual friends in YM list.
i ate n ate n ate n ate.maggi owh maggi
i opened my megazines(read the date on those megazines:july,august and sept 2006!)
i made cups of coffee......(addiction is so satisfying okkkeeeyyyy)
i checked my friendster like countless times.....(nie mmg dasar obsessed!)
i lied down in my bed...and zzZZZZZ.....dreamt of balik malaysia.wuuhhhuuuuu,life is so beautifooollll=D


side effect of toO many drugs in ma head!

he's gone and i'm still here.

salamz.
today is 7th may 2007.8 days to final exams and i'm far from prepared!hohoho..but i tend to ignore the fact that i'm actually in a big trouble as this exams going to be in written form(essay la wei...)!
however,despite the crazy study weeks,i had a few gud news to share.first and foremost,incik syir had successfully completed his study and he's officially an engginer now!(see i told u the oral was nothing compared to my relaxed and cool bf!)bravo dear!may u have a smooth-sailing future ahead!i'm always here praying for ur success and safety in ur next phase of life,the working life!=).
the 2nd gud news is.....love is in the air!can u smell the frehsness of love that has just blooming and developing into a beatiful..erm erm..daisy perhaps? ....hikhikhik..siapa yerk yg baru start ni?see, the clue is there!dare to guess?to cik daisy,congrates!may ur relationship last 4eva n ever!

hari ni gak syir dah balik mesia.back for good.im still here.for another 3 years..gud or bad i dunno...but im hoping for the best!enjoy the time i still own.however i'm starting to appreciate my life here..the weather that i used to hate suddenly became so pleasant.the sun,the cold,breezy wind...sumthing i will miss so dearly when i return home nti.apa2 pun my journey is still long.i'm nearly half-way tho.couldn't believe it meself! after all the things i've went thru,i know im not the old me.not totally changed,hanya sedikit matang(heheh..skema nih).
till then,chiow!

p/s:starting to miss my late-night phonecalls=(

"down"syndrome!

lately most people around me are affected with this syndrome.nothing to do with chromosomal abnormalities,but it's all about mental and emotional instability.no pcr(polymerase chain reaction)can detect the cause of this mental disturbance.no tablets can heal(unless anti-depressant la kot if it's gone nearly psychoticnya condition).adjuvant therapy?erm....i guess there is,but it depends on individual's condition and severity of the problems.to cut it short,sekarang musim org frust and down.beware!sabar separuh dr iman rite?
in these couple of days..im a bit confuse with my life.too much thinking been going on lately and up to one point,i think im nearly gone crazy.ntahlah...maybe i just couldn't figure out what i really want and terpressure dengan hopes and expectations people put on my shoulders.keeping up with the pressure drives me mad.and as usual if i lost hope i tend to be more alone and a bit isolated from my surroundings.however 2 days a go,in the midst of konflik dalaman i managed to have a lil chat with my bestfrens and to my suprise,i felt calmer and it helped me to overcome my prob better.thanx GOD.Allah has sent me his angles in different forms that i couldn't even imagine.macam mana kita bley jadi hamba yang tak bersyukur sedangkan nikmat dan pertolonganNYA itu sampai dalam keadaan kita tak menyangka and tak sedar.astaga...i think the medications to the "down"syndrome is easily available,plenty and even FOC.depends on us to go and find them out!
today is sunday.my saturday gone with 9-6pm meeting of IMAM(phewwwww lama tapi i tak rasa buhsan ke apa..)it's the last meeting for 2006/07 committee members and we have already stepped down!good luck and all the best to the new tanzim.work as a team and don't get too stressful with ur work...kelak anda akn mereng...enjoy n make it fun!yg ptg do it dengan penuh ikhlas...kerana Allah.
to my bestfrens in da house,u all r like sisters to me.ur happiness is my happiness,ur tears are my sorrow.we laughed n cried as family.so i pray Allah will help us in facing the unpredictables.never ever give up cos life expect more than what we always think it does.

aku,presentations and tutorials....

the title for today's entry reflect the kinda of life im going through now.full of never-ending works that waiting to be done.besides that,there are many kind of personal problems that ought to be taken care of but i have decided to put them aside for a while.there are times when so many things were not happening according to what they should be and we wonder why.let us just remember one thing,'kita hanya merancang,DIA di atas sana yg menentukan.'so take a pill and chill!!!!heheh.before this when situation like this arise ,i tend to panic and gelisah tak tentu hala till i found the solutions of my problems.can u imagine if the prob takes months or years to be settled,i'll probably suffer isomnia+distress+tachycardia until the problems get fixed.now i realise,no use of being sad+unhappy if sumthing happen but the right thing to do is find a way to fix things up and do it one by one,slow n steady..(if u manage to settle them more than one at the same time in a very short time,lucky u!).so my beloved friends,dun worry too much if u r facing any prob.just remember that every prob has it's solution and think rationally before taking any action or making a decision.may ALLAH be with u and guide u to the right way...
today,i had a long day at school.3 lectures in a row,2hours of tutorial,an hour break and continued with another lecture at 5 in the evening!at the end of the day im like a flat tyre,so exhausted!on the way home,me n my three hosmates stop by at our fave RICO'S and had our dinner.i ate taco fries for the 2nd time in a week.i think i'm goin to expand like a balloon soon.huhuhu..asek mkn jerk.tatau kenapa.hmmmphhh felt like dragging myself to bed now.bestnyaaaa klau leh tidoq ja.erm...mcm boleh..apa kataaa...hahahah.
okies...gudie luck to my friend who is having a group presentation tomorrow and all the best in answering the question.let us pray u'll get an easy one!ameeen..

soweee....

salamz,
owh my....it's been a loonnnggg time since i last wrote sumthing here.been bz with classes n working days.u miss me?naaahhh...apa saya merepek nie.okies..back to what i really wanna tell u.last nite,i went to a talk by mr karam singh waliah and prof khoo khay kim,a prof. emiritus at UM.it was held at trinity college dublin.coudn't believe myself that i just met one celebrity(i think he's even more famous than some actors and actresses in malaysia for bringing up the enviromnental issues to public!)and a very well known sejarahwan!i once met dato' masyitah,penceramah cum politician now here in ireland but it was back then in 2004.the prof's speech was ok..he refreshed back everyhing i had learnt when i was in secondary school.from the opening malacca to independence of malaysia,everything seems so fresh and clear to me after his long and steady speech.but mr karam singh did a good job.he is so inspiring and very motivated person!the way he talked last night shows that he's very determind in what's he's doing and he does it full-heartedly!before this there were many people(ministers,MARA's big shots) from back home came all the way to ireland to persuade me and my friends to go back to serve our own beloved country,but none really succeed in doing so.but his words and kata2 peribahasa nya sedikit sebanyak membuat kami terfikir untuk balik immediately ke malaysia terchenta after graduation untuk menolong sebaik boleh orang2 di malaysia.hehe..penangan tangan beliau yg semacam tu kot.hehe...
its april oledy.sadly i forgot the april fool day and no one get fooled by me this year!the gud news is i have less than 2 months to go back to my mum's lap.hehe...yeah.i miss her a lot!my sis,dad,brother,nieces n nephews,owh really miss them!i miss him too but i'll have to leave him alone as he's exteremely busy with the upcoming oral examination which is due in early mei.it's the biggest challenge n fear for him as this will determine wether he can get the job of his dreams or not.all the best!=)my prayer will always be with u..
i had a wonderful long weekend(from friday to monday)with 3 gorgeous girls from galway.we went to national botanical garden,appreciating the majestic views and scenery of mother nature.spring is fun!heheh.one more thing is we ate a lot during their visit here.mau naik kilos nie....no more weight gain pls!huhuh..here the pic by cik farah the photographer!

usia antara masa..

Seorang ahli ibadah bernama Isam Bin Yusuf, sangat warak dan khusyuk
solatnya. Namun, dia selalu khuatir kalau-kalau ibadahnya kurang
khusyuk dan selalu bertanya kepada orang yang dianggapnya lebih
ibadahnya, demi untuk memperbaiki dirinya yang selalu dirasainya
kurang khusyuk.

Pada suatu hari, Isam menghadiri majlis seorang abid bernama Hatim
Al-Assam dan bertanya, "Wahai Aba Abdurrahman, bagaimanakah caranya
tuan solat?" Hatim berkata, "Apabila masuk waktu solat, aku berwudhuk
zahir dan batin."
Isam bertanya, "Bagaimana wudhuk zahir dan batin itu? " Hatim berkata,
"Wudhuk zahir sebagaimana biasa iaitu membasuh semua anggota
wudhuk dengan air". Sementara wudhuk batin ialah membasuh anggota dengan
tujuh perkara :-
* Bertaubat
* Menyesali dosa yang telah dilakukan
* Tidak tergila-gilakan dunia
* Tidak mencari/mengharap pujian orang (riya')
* Tinggalkan sifat berbangga
* Tinggalkan sifat khianat dan menipu
* Meninggalkan sifat dengki."

Seterusnya Hatim berkata, "Kemudian aku pergi ke masjid, aku kemaskan
semua anggotaku dan menghadap kiblat.
Aku berdiri dengan penuh kewaspadaan dan aku rasakan:
1.aku sedang berhadapan dengan Allah,
2.Syurga di sebelah kananku,
3.Neraka di sebelah kiriku,
4.Malaikat Maut berada di belakangku, dan
5.aku bayangkan pula aku seolah-olah berdiri di atas titian 'Siratal
mustaqim' dan menganggap bahawa solatku kali ini
adalah solat terakhir bagiku, kemudian aku berniat dan bertakbir dengan
baik."

"Setiap bacaan dan doa didalam solat, aku faham maknanya kemudian aku
rukuk dan sujud dengan tawadhuk, aku bertasyahud dengan penuh
pengharapan dan aku memberi salam dengan ikhlas. Beginilah aku bersolat
selama 30 tahun."

Apabila Isam mendengar, menangislah dia kerana membayangkan ibadahnya
yang kurang baik bila dibandingkan dengan Hatim.

astaghfirullah hal 'azim...

to be honest,it's hard for me to really concentrate in my solah.i dunno is it because the level of imaan in me isn't enuff or perhaps im too engrossed n obsessive about dunya until i forgot that akhirah is the eternity..bila nak berubah?bila nak betul2 insaf wahai azimah?